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Let it go

The human HEART was not made to withstand the CRUELTIES of the human mind - Ambyre Rose

About Me

TAO OF THE DAY 2/03/07

Weapons are the tools of violence;

all decent men detest them.

Weapons are the tools of fear;

a decent man will avoid them

except in direct necessity

and, if compelled, will use them

only with the utmost restraint.

Peace is his highest value.

If the peace is shattered,

how can he be content?

His enemies are not demons,

but human beings like himself.

He doesn't wish them personal harm.

How does he rejoice in victory

and delight in the slaughter of men?

He enters battle gravely,

with sorrow and with great compassion,

as if he were attending a funeral.

JOKE OF THE WEEK

32 New Bumper Stickers for 07

1. Bush: End of an Error

2. That's OK, I Wasn't Using My Civil Liberties Anyway

3. Let's Fix Democracy in this Country First

4. If You Want a Nation Ruled By Religion, Move to Iran

5. Bush. Like a Rock. Only Dumber.

6. If You Can Read This, You're Not Our President

7. Of Course It Hurts: You're Getting Screwed by an Elephant

8. Hey, Bush Supporters: Embarrassed Yet?

9. George Bush: Creating the Terrorists Our Kids Will Have to Fight

10. Impeachment: It's Not Just for Blow jobs Anymore

11. America: One Nation, Under Surveillance

12. They Call Him "W" So He Can Spell It

13. Who's God Do You Kill For?

14. Jail to the Chief

15. No, Seriously, Why Did We Invade Iraq?

16. Bush: God's Way of Proving Intelligent Design is a load of Crap

17. Bad President! No Banana.

18. We Need a President Who's Fluent In At Least One Language

19. We're Making Enemies Faster Than We Can Kill Them

20. Is It Vietnam Yet?

21. Bush Doesn't Care About White People, Either

22. Where Are We Going? And Why Are We In This Hand basket?

23. You Elected Him. You Deserve Him.

24. Dubya, Your Dad Shoulda Pulled Out, Too

25. When Bush Took Office, Gas Was $1.46

26. Pray For Impeachment

27. The Republican Party: Our Bridge to the 11th Century

28. What Part of "Bush Lied" Don't You Understand?

29. One Nation Under Clod

30. 2004: Embarrassed 2005: Horrified 2006: Terrified

31. Bush Never Exhaled

32. At Least Nixon Resigned

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Truth is this....I'm full of crap. Everyone around me thinks that I am so smart and so hardworking. But the truth is that I just fake it the whole way through. I dont have a passion for living right now. I don't want to die today or anything like that, but I'm not all attatched to life, you know? I never thought that I had it all figured out, but I did think I understood a large portion at least. Well I was wrong. I don't know shit. And I am terrified every moment, that all the crap that I am hidhing behind is gonna cave in and fall out from under me.

WOOHOO!!!! BRING IT ON!!!! (see, fake enthusiasm for the bullshit still to come...) I HATE FUCKING LIARS!

To be continued.....

Tune in next week to find out what crazy things she'll say next...


Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is... enchanting
Your hugs are... time stilling
Your eyes... are disarming
Your touch is... unbelievably tender
Your smell is... reminicent
Your smile is... the light of my world
Your love is... all I need

My Interests

POETRY CORNER - My Poem of the day 2/03/07

THE VALUE OF A BREATH

And we sat through the storm, And stood in the rain, The tears fell from my eyes, And my heart beat with pain,

You were my security, The strength of my world, You kept the lines clear, until you left me, And caused those lines to swirl,

I was wary at first, Yet you loved through the wall, So I loved and trusted you, And I made myself fall,

I knew it at first, you know, That I would die if I ever loved and lost, So I tried not to love you, And I was just dragged on with no end,

And although its been so much time past, You ripped and tore my soul in two, And I still to this day, will use my last breath, To say that I love you.

______________

I love my kids, my family, and my friends. I would give my life for any one of them. But how many of THEM could say that and mean it?.....

I'd like to meet:

I don't want to meet anyone new. Know why? Cuase I know you'll do one of the following:

Lie to me.

Hurt me.

Piss me off.

Break my heart.

Take advantage of me.

DRIVE ME FUCKIN CRAZY!! (might be too late for that one anyway....)

So if you thought that you wanted to add me to your friends list, or you haven't talked to me in a REALLY long time... my honest suggestion is : Don't bother.

It been real though. Toodles.
Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63%
Stability |||||||||| 40%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 53%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||||||||||| 50%
Hedonism |||||||||| 36%
Materialism |||||||||||| 43%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Self absorbed |||||||||| 36%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||| 43%
Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 70%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||| 36%
Change averse |||||||||||| 50%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Individuality |||||||||||| 43%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness |||| 17%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||| 70% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Music:

I like my guitar. My actual musical preference shifts to much to elaborate on...

Movies:

Anything about enduring love. I like watching movies about things humans made up...kinda like the dream of world peace....

Television:

Yup I got a 19" TV. Used to rock the 5" B & W though. That was the shit...

Books:

More than I can tell you.

Heroes:

My son. My daughter. And the divine animal right and responsibility that I have to protect them at all costs.

My Blog

This can't be the life I'm living...

I don't have anything figured out, I have no idea what life is about, I got two kids and just about no cash, And I'm terrified of coming in last,   Good men seem few and hard to find, Relationshi...
Posted by Null on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 10:59:00 PST

My tao life - being here right now

Alright. Enough complaining I say....I am doing really well in class. I am learning a whole heck of a lot, and I have to say its somewhat inspiring. I'm still trying to decide if I'm going to sta...
Posted by Null on Fri, 02 Feb 2007 01:54:00 PST

The End

My entire life is changing. I'm having to move, I'm leaving Jose, I'm training for a new career, dieting, I quit smoking and I'm changing my parenting style. Jeeze louis what isn't changing? I do...
Posted by Null on Thu, 01 Feb 2007 05:35:00 PST

Tell me that you love me

So I have come to the conclusion, that life, however hard it is, is just going to keep going and going, and if I don't at least attempt to ride the waves, it's gonna mow me over, and drown me. What do...
Posted by Null on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 08:11:00 PST

Honor

I'm losing my mind. I just can't take any more of these feelings. There's absolutely nothing I can do about any of it. I just don't want to cry for no reason anymore. There so much bad, drowning me ri...
Posted by Null on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 11:36:00 PST

Calling anyone....

Take me away from here.
Posted by Null on Sat, 27 Jan 2007 10:54:00 PST

Relient K

This song is just so me on most days: "Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"I watched the proverbial sunriseComing up over the Pacific andYou might think I'm losing my mind,But I will shy away from the specif...
Posted by Null on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 11:54:00 PST

My Relationship

Most people know that I am with Bella's dad right now. Not everyone knows what he did to me: Roberto cheated, lied, and put me in debt. He was seeing another woman before he even started his relations...
Posted by Null on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 10:02:00 PST

Diet

So the Doctor gave me the go ahead to start working out about a month ago, and I have been working out about 3 nights a week. Well, it time to kick it into overdrive. I am now drinking at least a gall...
Posted by Null on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 11:38:00 PST

Lazy Baby Daddy's...

Where does the time go, and why don't the feelings go with it? It's like, yesterday I was still in  Browsville playing with Marcus, Heather, Donielle and Breanne. Now, I'm 20, I live in Portland,...
Posted by Null on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 03:01:00 PST