Beowulf: damned for all time

About Me

what to say about me? im a pretentious self involved prick a gamer, a dork, and something of a romantic fool. the greatest things about me are sometimes the worst and if you get to know me odds are you'll find out what they are. i like to read and watch movies. im just as into snuggling and cuddling has hardcore relentless sex. so im kind of complicated. honest to a fault im not much for bullshit its just too much work and i am kind of a lazy fucker.
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I'd like to meet:

like minded individuals who share similar interests, you don't have to be a freak but it is a plus;) im single and a bit broken hearted and thats just gonna take some time to fully heal if that ever really does, i dont think anyone ever fully gets over that kind of thing. friends would be nice seeing as i lost most of them in the breakup. i do think i need to start dating again. i would like to find something a little more than just sex. something with some meaning would be nice but i dont want too get too serious too soon(think i made that mistake once too often). i kind of feel this way alot "You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love till it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other till it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's blood... blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it"

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My Blog

sigh not sure what to do

its been nearly 4 months since i was dumped. to me she'll always be irreplaceable to her well, i was replaced before she through me out, she had a new boyfriend just days after i got thrown out. my he...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Aug 2009 01:24:00 GMT

confused, rejected. my general shitty self

ive been having nightmares the past few days, bad ones, the kind that wake you up every hour or so and then when you finally do get up and ready fro your day youre tired and feel like shit because you...
Posted by on Wed, 15 Jul 2009 03:59:00 GMT

wow!

ok when i first got dumped and tossed out i lost a bit of weight that week(like 15 pounds, when im in the throes of true despair i dont eat) i decided to start eating better and exercising more and se...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Jul 2009 04:20:00 GMT

wow good timeing

ok i have been trying get a new job for awhile. and the past few weeks ive been looking more because my hours have been cut and my boss is becoming near insufferable. i finally manged to get a job wor...
Posted by on Thu, 02 Jul 2009 03:47:00 GMT

aftermath

so i gave her the time she asked for, the time she needed to figure things out. it didnt go well. i called an she wouldnt answer, so i texted and got the hateful replies of things i knew she would say...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Jun 2009 20:23:00 GMT

i dont even know what to call this

i woke up this morning and i felt like shit. everything hit me at once and i could barely get to work. while at work i had the monumentally stupid and possibly the most boneheaded idea ive ever had. i...
Posted by on Wed, 10 Jun 2009 18:06:00 GMT

about me

i wrote this as the about me section a few months ago and now im changing it but her its Im a nihilistic mysticA mostly self involved prick Sociopathic and ecstatic A razor sharp tongue and witIve a...
Posted by on Fri, 05 Jun 2009 18:01:00 GMT

not numb enough

Its a fight everyday not to call or write her. every night i wake up a dozen times missing her.my nightmares are of fights we had and fights we didnt.and the very the worst ones are where life seems ...
Posted by on Sun, 24 May 2009 15:42:00 GMT

nightmares

Im back where i was years ago. I thought i was past this. Its been over 2 years since it was this bad. Im barely sleeping. Every time i sleep i end up waking up with nightmares. Every nap. Every night...
Posted by on Mon, 11 May 2009 22:28:00 GMT

angel of the night

.. heres a poem i wrote the other day, its been inspired by quite a few things. life in general, relationships and soem fo the things ive been reading lately but not anyone pr any thing specificly. im...
Posted by on Mon, 13 Apr 2009 14:39:00 GMT