Bernadette

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ IN LOVING MEMORY of MY LITTLE ANGEL~~CRYSTAL MONICA SMITH~ My precious angel..i miss u oh so dearly.Life is not complete without you.Why did you have to leave us?I hope the reason for this demise is that for the good of it. But now, you are more than our angel.You are an angel of the lord.I know that these wounds won't heal right away because this pain is just way too real,baby. Your presence will linger in our hearts always. In my mind, heart and soul.Crytstal, there's too much that time cannot erase..But I will try my hardest to keep you alive in me.I want you to know that wherever you go i know that you are just here beside me. You are my guardian angel to watch over us. Help me find the right path in life..I need your guidance!!I love you with everything I am and I miss you more than ever.. --ate bernadette**please check out the website i made for her and leave your condolences for her family. it's www.geocities.com/crystalmonica022904/1stpage.html (it isn't fully done yet..so keep checkin' it out,k!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ GEMINItwo people inside of me..an angel and a devil!!i get confuse at myself sometimes..haha..i love to have fun, but at the same time, if things are needed to be taken seriously, then i'm up for it. Especially when it is family business!! They come first in my life..then i'd have my enjoyment for myself and my true friends. I love to explore and discover new things.Life is short, so live it to it's fullest!!that is my philosophy of life!! I'm not the type of girl who will agree to everything..pretty frank here..I'm a very ambitious person..I believe that happiness is the most important thing in a person..Let me tell you a lil sumthin about my chilhood days to now..first..childhood!!ahh..i was a baby who was born on june 2, 1983. When I was growin up, I was a spoiled brat and got everything I wanted in life..was also a bad 'ass lil kid..then I studied in a private school back in the philippines called, stella maris college..it was exclusively for girls..yah it's a catholic skool,,but growin up in that mug made me a lil devil..haha!!I'm the eldest in the family but my parents treated me as if i was the youngest coz of my badazz attitude..lol,,shame on me for doing such things..Nobody can bare with me.At skool..I was an embarrassment to the family coz of my behavior..being in trouble all the time was all that i can do..Second is my ADOLESCENCE...migrated to the US when I was 12 years old..i was still the same girl..who loved to try new things..went to raves and came home at 7 in the morning and went straight to skool at 8, smoked my first cig when i was 14(but didn't know how)..then when i was 16..became a pro at it.missed half of the school year..coz of ditching.haha,,then drunk beers and hard liquors here and there,,.it got worst though.other things came along..my mother even put me into a behavior program and had a psychologist come to skool to do a lil bullshit session with me..but..it's high skool and it's natural to have those kind of things..I was surprised,, I graduated with a pretty acceptable GPA..haha,,and look at me now..i'm building my way up to become a nurse..haha,,and will make some enormous amount of money someday..during my teenage time..I got to collect a bunch of "mothafuckerz"..who shared the same purpose in life as i did..ruining the lives of the happy people around us..tsk tsk tsk..And Last but not least.. the Present--i found a cure for all of that now..calm,,yes and most of all.. am still enjoying life..I thank god for making me have this life..and i appreciate every bit of it. I thank my mother for being a strict mom as she is til now, for keeping me straight during my rebellious years and for being there by myside no matter how bad i've become..I thank my sister for the fights and arguments and 5 minutes later we're bak to normal..I thank my family for keeping us bonded stronger..I thank all the fellaz that went through me ..haha,,thank you for making me know my mistakes and learning from it and to improve my next love life ..and sorry,,if i broke ur heart,,didn't mean to!!=)..I thank my true friends..who's been there for me thru thick and thin..all the way..babiee..And yah I thank my ENEMIES..for being my enemy..(if u are reading this..u know who u are..)u hate me..I hate u too..u fake ass bitch!!can't stand u anyway..and I very much thank myself for doing things and still handling it good and for knowing your limits..I'm proud of you!!keep doing your thing!!..so that's meehh!!so for the new people out there that i will meet in the future..that's mostly the most colorful moments i have..interesting huh??well..have more,,but my space might sue me for filling up so much space..haha!!