Jake

Hi, my name's Jake Maunder.
if you want to know something about me, let's talk. haha.
Daily Records of a Loser:11.1.9
I had a heart attack when it said it wasn't working :/
10.31.9
I don't know how well this will work, but Happy Halloween! :D
10.30.9
I'm surprised we got so much done on the song. it's weird trying to balance recording, then practicing, and creating new things. and we don't really do it well, but transitioning back to one of them is always kind of strange.
10.29.9
accuse of me, accuse of you;
neither of us will see what is true.
10.28.9
I play too much lotro D;
10.27.9
so, it's pretty obvious I haven't been updating this. but that was because nothing was happening in my life. haha, but now something huge has happened. my band, Jake Fails now has demos up on our page. so, check them out and add the band.
www.myspace.com/jakefailsmusic
9.3.9
didn't happen.
9.2.9
and the most uplifting thing about it is that I could meet a girl tomorrow, that I had no idea existed today, that can blow my mind in a week and I will fall in love with in a couple of months.
8.23.9
hey, if you don't mind, would you let my love open the door?
8.22.9
there comes a time when you're just going to have to get over it.
8.21.9
holy shit, that's the fastest I've ever written lyrics.
8.20.9
I don't remember what happened this day, so I'm going to say nothing did.
8.19.9
all we can do is sit back and hope that everything will one day be ok.
8.18.9
listen to me, I've been through it all. I've talked people down, who were ready to fall.
8.17.9
happy birthday, Timothy James! there's not much I can't say that I haven't told you yet, but you're my best friend and I love you. now, let's go play Nazi Zombies. haha
8.16.9
level 14. movin' on up!
8.15.9
ye! level 13! haha
8.14.9
feels good to get some stuff done for a change. and I'm still in the mood for killing Nazi Zombies.
8.13.9
I'm in the mood for killing Nazi zombies.
8.12.9
getting home at 3:30 from a night of recording? tiring :(
8.11.9
"are you sure Plains will be ok with that?"
8.10.9
I got the Dark Temptation deodorant from Axe. tomorrow I will look very similar to this:
http://www.periodistadigital.com/imgs/20071212/chocolate.jpg
8.9.9
next time, we should ride bikes or something, haha. I'm so tired :(
8.8.9
recording takes so long, it's brutal. but if we ever get big, we're going to look back at these nights and feel nostalgia.
8.7.9
we didn't get much done, but it was totally worth it.
8.6.9
went to the fair with Heidi, Emily, Alex, and Erick. it was so expensive. :( but I had a great night. :)
8.5.9
what can I say about tonight? I hung out with Alex, Danny and Erick, and for some reason, the four of us are the most incredibly perfect group. we all now have an obsession with scarves, "I'm drying up," and we made a breakthrough in the art of making cakes. haha, I swear to God, I love these guys.
8.4.9
where has good shakes? haha. I missed you, and I don't care if that's gay. haha
7.16.9-8.3.9
ok, like last time, I'm going to group all of Maui together because I'm lazy and I wasn't able to get on myspace every day. so, let's get to it:
-I had the most amazing time. I don't know if it could have been better.
-I went snorkeling off of Molokini Crater again and saw a three and a half foot Morey Eel and a twenty foot manta ray.
-I paddled out to Turtle Town and was surrounded by fifteen to twenty wild green sea turtles. it was amazing.
-I learned that paddle boarding is the most calming and amazing thing in the entire world.
-I didn't get sunburned once.
-I got to spend more than two weeks with Westin ;) haha
-I started missing California towards the end of the stay in Maui and am glad to be back.
-I got blown off the board by wind towards the end and crashed my knee into giant coral.
-we found the most amazing beach in the entire world. one of the white sand beaches, Big Beach.
-I gave myself the Hawaiian name Mahu Honu. Gay Turtle
-and I figured out, for the seventieth time, that the Bruflodt family is by far the most amazing family I have or will ever meet. I can't thank them enough for anything and everything they have ever done for me.
-and I missed you all :) haha
7.15.9
Jake, my friend, you got yourself a big problem/ you're a huge slut with a tiny bottom.
OR
Jake, my friend, you smell so vile/ it's not your only problem, you're a pedophile/ I can't see what anyone can love, in someone like you.
haha.
7.14.9
I think it's awesome that our longest band practice ever in one place is the day that I only got two hours of sleep.
7.13.9
;D
7.12.9
beach count: 8
sunburn count: 2
7.11.9
I gave my number to the cute girl at Mcdonald's and she told me she had thought I was gay.
7.10.9
I think everyone at Ruby's hates us. :(
7.9.9
haha, pokemon master much?
7.8.9
I had band practice, but can't remember too much else. haha
7.7.9
I won a boomerang and it's my most prized possession. haha
7.6.9
I don't remember what happened today. :(
7.5.9
everything will settle in good time, my dear boy. everything will settle. haha
7.4.9
happy independence day. mine was great except for taking care of the most energetic, crazy dog in the entire world. haha
7.3.9
there's absolutely nothing wrong with late night trips to get frozen yogurt with friends.
7.2.9
dear Westin Howard Bruflodt, you know there is nothing that I can say that you haven't heard from me already or you don't already know, but it's nice hearing things like this anyway. so, here it goes: you're my best friend, the times we have had have been so great and I can never imagine times as good as those ever again. you do so much for me every day that we hang out and there's absolutely no way I can thank you enough. you say you got so incredibly lucky to have Rosalind, but in truth, you deserve her. she's amazing just as you are. <33 haha.
7.1.9
maybe I'm just a pussy when it comes to water tackle football, haha. 6.30.9
I have a bug bite the size of Mars. :(
6.29.9
we braved the wilderness and somehow survived. I am proud. haha
6.28.9
beach count: 7?
"Tim, what would you do if I just took my pants off right now?"
"why would you do that?"
"ok, they're off."
6.27.9
sometimes it's annoying.
6.26.9
beach count: 6
happy birhday, Alex Anderson. haha, you're gone on your stupid trip and I haven't even talked to you in awhile :( I hope you're having a fantastic time in Oregon. ;)
6.25.9
dear Westin, thanks for saving me from that huge black widow. I think I may owe you one. haha
6.24.9
sitting in a fast food restaraunt trying to decide on what you can do with a couple of friends for hours is actually pretty depressing. =/ haha
6.23.9
after asking you if you were serious for nineteen minutes, I'm still not one-hundred percent sure. haha
6.22.9
mark this down as my gayest night so far. haha
6.21.9
sometimes I think you're just a big joke. and I laugh. then I get frightened because I realize that it's not really a joke.
6.20.9
you're probably the single most intelligent person I have ever met. any advice I could ever give you is futile because there is no doubt that you've already thought it and dismissed it because of something I didn't even begin to perceive, haha. you deserve all of the best.
6.19.9
I think we're singularly supporting the entire franchise that is Del Taco, haha.
6.18.9
beach count: 4
and I miss you, chubby cakes :)
6.17.9
"hey Jake, what happens if Alien aircraft come and attack the Earth with an army of giant ants that spit acid? and then weird airplanes come and I can destroy them with a shotgun??"
Tim and I will take care of them.
Earth Defense Force: 2017. haha.
6.16.9
fuck recording, haha.
and fuck playing the guitar on the phone and being nervous as shit because I don't like singing but you make me sing, and it's dark so I mess up, and you make fun of me, then I'm all shakey even after I stop, haha. fml for being weird.
6.15.9
beach count: 3
and everyone, let's go to the rodeo show. :D
6.14.9
every person has the emotions to feel pain and sorrow and to be empathetic. maybe we need to combine them and help one other.
6.13.9
dear blueberry,
you always want to be in my diary, so here you go. I think this is your second appearance now. I just want to tell you that you're absolutely amazing. and I tell you it all the time, but it never seems like enough.
you deserve the absolute best in the world.
6.12.9
because every time we touch, I get this feeling, and every time we kiss , I swear I can fly. Can't you feel my heart beat fast? I want this to last, need you by my side. 'Cause every time we touch, I feel the static , and every time we kiss , I reach for the sky. Can't you hear my heart beat slow? I can't let you go, want you in my life.
6.11.9
happy birthday, Natalie. I loooove you!
6.10.9
Tim snores at night. it's fucking annoying and kept me up until way late, haha.
6.9.9
please stop drawing penises on me :(
6.8.9
I've got another idea for a song. it's so simple, but I really do love it. and it sounds like it would be something really meaningful, so I started trying to write meaningful, deep lyrics for it and it's really hard to do with the scheme of the song and the subject. and also, I'm kind of scared to pour my heart and soul into this song, if it only sounds good in my head, it will probably hurt pretty bad. but then again, what if it works out well? what if it's amazing and people will love the lyrics and the song and have it affect them in a meaningful way? I guess it's worth it to try, so I will. it's just hard.
6.7.9
I love hanging out with you and I really don't know why we don't do it more often. :(
6.6.9
I like how we hung out for awhile, talking a decent amount, but about nothing in particular, and then right when you have to go, we get on a conversation we're both interested in talking about, so we text. haha
6.5.9
and all of a sudden, things are looking a lot better. :)
6.4.9
biding my time.
6.3.9
we started to record another song of ours. I'm excited about this one, and all the others for that matter. I think we might be over a small hill, but there are many mountains yet to come. God, I sound gay writing these.
6.2.9
this sure can get frustrating.
6.1.9
you know, I really don't ever feel like hanging out with you, but then I start to feel sorry and so I say, sure, let's hang out. and then you don't call. it's fucking annoying.
5.31.9
hi there. Tim and I had a date and we saw Up. haha, it was a really good movie. seeing it in 3D wasn't really worth it though.
5.30.9
today was a little original for me. I got up at four-thirty to buy my Blink ticket. I met Mark Hoppus and he liked our band name :D. when I told my mom that, she asked what our name was. thanks Mom, for the acknowledgement. then Natalie and I hung out and I learned that Lucky Chinese Food ain't so lucky.
5.29.9
let's see, band practice went pretty well today. we're practicing for our end of summer, first ever show. you'll hear more about it soon, I promise. and then, we got Ruby's (free fries :D) and played basketball. now, I should go to bed soon because I'm getting up at 4:45 to meet Mark Hoppus and buy tickets for the Binkl show. haha
5.28.9
I'm not one to believe that all fates and therefore people are interconnected in a web of some master plan of some devine being, but sometimes it just seems that things work out. but then again, good or bad, things work themselves out. maybe it's just that I don't acknowledge the bad, but only see the good and it seems that it ALWAYS works out, but either way, give or take, I'll be fine. it's your choice. things will always happen, life is just about what will happen next and what happens because of that happening.
and, on a side note, have you noticed I've been writing longer passages? haha
5.27.9
I had two finals today. in case you wondering, I think I rocked both of them. and then I had to wait an hour for lab, but when we actually got to class, it went by quickly so that's good. I think I'll miss my lab group though :( they are fun people and great to be in a lab group with, but I am so glad it's done. I'm not a fan of three hour classes with no breaks. and then I had all kinds of fun playing Dungeon Siege, haha. I don't think we should have gotten Del Taco though, I'm starting to feel disgusting, haha. and here's to hoping something's different, because I don't think either of us can take the fallout again.
5.26.9
you are an enigma. when I go back and think about it, I am so very conflicted. and it sucks, because I know a small part of me is not over you, a small part of me is never over you, but then I take a look just a little bit deeper. I look at your pictures, I remember how things were, and I realize that no matter how much I am not over you, the whole thing is over. we are completely different people, in the worst ways so it will never ever work, and that's fine. the most troubling thing for me is that makes it seem like we'll never be friends. I wish more than anything we could be, but I feel strongly that it could never work. it takes worry off of me, and I hope it does for you as well. I usually end with an optimistic thought that begins with, "maybe in the future.." but I don't see thinking like that anymore. I just wish you the absolute best in your life, and I truly mean it. I don't care what you think or feel for me anymore, of that I'm certain. I don't even care if you wish good for me, because at the end of the day, it changes nothing. it sucks, but when it comes to you and I, it's definately for the best.
5.25.9
"I'm not tired and I don't want to go to bed for another couple of hours.." cue Empire Earth.
5.24.9
I put back together my guitar today. I messed up the pickup though and now I have to wait until my dad gets back to fix it, haha. :(
5.23.9
nearly everything went wrong today. Westin and I got called faggots while walking down the mean streets of Newport, we got cock blocked by a band at South Coast, a creepy guy came in my little compartment while I was pissing, I almost stepped on a little dead fish, and a lot of other small things. then we got Jack in the Box and stalked Alex for no reason at all. I think his dad saw us and now probably thinks we're freaks. we saw a frightening blue flash in the sky and then the street lights went out, then we lied to Alex to get him to come to my house, which we proceeded to stalk him all the way there also, haha. then we played Dungeon Siege until two in the morning. and you say I should get a life.
5.22.9
I feel very accomplished about band practice tonight. I want to tell everyone about it, but I'll keep my mouth shut, haha.
5.21.9
It's estimated that bears kill over two million salmon a year. However, attacks by salmon on bears are much more rare. haha
5.20.9
I hope you know that I was really having a good day before you texted me. then I talked to three other girls and stopped talking to you and all of a sudden, I was all better. :D
5.19.9
waaay too much sex. and not the good kind :( haha
5.18.9
raped it!
5.17.9
I don't know whether to speak my mind of be quiet. you seem to be extremely happy, so I guess I will stay my tongue.
5.16.9
my bed is covered in two things, all seasons of Seinfeld and a semester's worth of Biology labs. good night? :(
5.15.9
I'm back in the saddle again.
5.14.9
if I was a religious person, I'd be praying every night. but I'm not. it makes me want to pretend, just so I can be doing everything possible.
5.13.9
well, I'm pretty sure that test raped me. =/
5.12.9
it kind of scares me that I have a crush on you from pretty much nothing. :/
5.11.9
it's crunch time and I should be more nervous.
5.10.9
*crosses fingers* lol
5.9.9
I just realized that I never got to sing La Bamba. :(
5.8.9
I'll be the next Keith Moon soon enough.
5.7.9
I usually have a firm grasp on what I want, but at this point, I honestly just don't know anymore.
5.6.9
there's only one way to go from here.
5.5.9
I'm glad your mom took you away, Cambel. you're kind of a jerk. haha
5.4.9
one after another comes and can't you see that I'm standing right here?
5.3.9
there's no way I could have beat it in my game :(
I'll see you at Home.
5.2.9
Today, I started bleeding while brushing my teeth. It was the most interesting thing to happen to me all day. FML
5.1.9
I really wish hackey sack could be played at night :(
4.30.9
Fallout on my computer AND my 360?? do I ever have to leave the house again? I sure hope not!
4.29.9
I hope you know that you're my best female friend. and one of my best friends, period. :)
4.28.9
I feel confident about my test. I don't really want to wait a week to see the results though :(
4.27.9
you and I constantly are chasing this wild dream, a fantasy that can never work. we're two entirely different people, we're not complementary. I would love to be your friend for life, but everytime we get attached and we both know that doesn't work. you know I love you. I don't want you out of my life. we'll find a way to make it work, it'll just take time.
4.26.9
I don't know what happened today. obviously my life isn't very exciting. I have to start doing these on the day because I really do have a terrible memory. :(
4.25.9
I don't know what to write. I smell bad. I'm going to go shower.
4.24.9
I think I've got a problem. haha
4.23.9
I'm pretty sure I got salmonella from my salami, egg, cheese, and sriracha sauce burrito. =/ lol
4.22.9
I'm starting to pay less attention in Biology. here's to hoping it won't affect my grade.
4.21.9
plz let me survive the nuclear wastelands after the huge war in my own fashion. lolkthx
4.20.9
how many labs left? probably too many :(:(:(:(
4.19.9
I've got a turkey in the oven that refuses to marinate any longer. =/
4.18.9
I have calluses on my fingers, and I can pick them off. I feel absolutely no pain, and there's always more skin. haha, it's weird.
4.17.9
I'm playing Fallout just to fit in. =/
4.16.9
I'm going to play Fallout just to fit it.
4.15.9
I don't remember what happened today. and it depresses me. I went to class, and I think I just went home after that. lol
4.14.9
I'm the worst dater in the entire world.
4.13.9
two free pastries? best day of my life.
4.12.9
ty for the rescue.
hey Westin, say something.
4.11.9
I have one line to a new song. ten words, and I have a feeling it will be amazing.
4.10.9
I feel we overcame a steep ridge and we're back on level ground.
4.9.9
all touching is sexual touching to me. haha
4.8.9
and now, I'm all alone. under the stars, she broke my heart.
4.7.9
I'm glad we've got this settled because I was sure you were going to chew my ass out for it.
4.6.9
ditching a three hour lab to do an essay? good idea :)
4.5.9
I'm cheap. =/ haha
and the world is a vampire.
4.4.9
it doesn't look like things have changed with you, and things have changed with me. I won't be able to put up with it for too long.
4.3.9.5=/
I'll meet them one day and marry them. all three of them. haha, it will be great.
4.3.9
conversation really is key. it builds bridges and solves problems. we used a lot of stupid metaphors to say how we felt, but let's just put it plainly. it's back.
4.2.9
it went from going camping to going nowhere by the time I woke up :(
4.1.9
I have the worst memory in the entire world, and it is very problematic when it comes to every single part of my life.
3.31.9
everytime I get my haircut, I look like a little schoolboy. FML.
3.30.9
first time I've climbed trees in awhile. I don't remember it hurting so much. =/
3.29.9
maybe I should get rid of this diary. everyone seems to take offense to what is said, even if it's not about them, they assume. I've got in major fights, lost budding relationships, and just annoyed the hell out of everyone. but whatever. if you think it's about you, go ahead and think it. if it upsets you, don't read it. if everything was amazing in life, there wouldn't be a need for it, but things aren't, so I'm going to write what's weighing down on my mind. and right now, it's that things aren't like the past. I need time and space to center myself, but then again, I don't want to be bored by myself, so I'll surround myself with people who make me feel good. then all of it will come back, and it's not going away.
3.28.9
do you ever dream to move far away? forget everyone and everything.
3.27.9
things are changing. I don't necessarily want it, but I'm not fighting it either. =/
3.26.9
going over to a married couple's apartment. seeing how happy they seem. it kind of scares me how I couldn't get you off my mind. 3.25.9
you know, I'm really excited for how it will turn out. I know it will be spectacular. I have confidence that you'll be able to make it great.
3.24.9
I guess the allure of a ton of food for twelve dollars is appealing, but when you think about it, it's not that good. it's just quantity :(
3.23.9
five hour blocks of classes are br00tal.
3.22.9
you have to learn how to be happy alone before you can be happy with someone else.
3.21.9
fuck patience. if I was Superman, you'd be my kryptonite. there's nothing I can do. 8)
3.20.9
it takes way too long to record a song. the song is going to be what? three and a half minutes long? and we took what? six hours? and we're not nearly done? we suck. haha. but the song will be amazing. I promise you, whoever it is reading this.
3.19.9
nerd it up!
and it's good we've got this settled :)
3.18.9
all you need is just a little patience.
3.17.9
beach count: 1
and I'm feeling better.
3.16.9
e, I was on your page tonight. I really want to send you a message, but I am incredibly frightened to it, so I don't think I will. I miss the hell out of you, but I just don't think I should. I wouldn't know what to say either. it would just be, "hi.." and that's it.
I'm afraid to say hi.
3.15.9
when I finally figured things out, it got all messed up again. a stupid anology would be a snowglobe. everything was settled, all of the glitter things were on the ground. and then it was thrown off a cliff. it's now on the ground, tipped to one side and things aren't going to settle for awhile. that's how I feel. that's my gay anology because I'm a fag.
3.14.9
and one more peg down on the totem poll that is life.
3.13.9
lame.
3.12.9
tonight was fun, and cheap! the poor life is not too bad ;D
3.11.9
I'm not going to lie, I raped the test.
3.10.9
no more take home tests that aren't even mine, plzkthx.
3.9.9
when pretty and perfect is just a facade, when you find out, thought you were in love. but now you know that it was too good to be true, and now you know just what to do.
3.8.9
and thus ends another small chapter in the series of unfortunate events that I call my life. every chapter gets even more and more bizarre. I'm seriously going to write a book about my life. and bring it out as a fiction, out of embarrasment.
3.7.9
maybe I do have a thirst for control. because the thing that I hate the most is circumstance out of my control. if I could control all that happened in my life, I think I would be a very happy man.
3.6.9
srsly excited about tmrw.
3.5.9
www.myspace.com/liamshan sent me this message:
you need.. "a big penis to play bass so suck on mine and you'll be fine." he's fourteen, haha. I tried to write back with:
"it's nice to meet you too, runt. what's your deal?"
but he doesn't accept messages from people he's not friends with. I'm sad, that would have been really fun.
3.4.9
I broke my glasses today while walking to school. the ear part is some where lost in the parking lot. I find it depressing. now in class, I have to hold up my glasses to see the board.
3.3.9
dear diary,
I once had sex in a park. today, I revisited that place with Westin and had a nice little Jack in the Box picnic after class. haha
3.2.9
I dripped chicken fajita on my pants. the pants I wear pretty much every day. it wouldn't have been so bad if it was a real chicken fajita, because then, no matter how bad the stain was, atleast I was eating a chicken fajita. but I was eating a lean pocket. :( I'm not even manly enough for a hot pocket.
3.1.9
I hope perfection and accidental conception make a good match.
2.28.9
that is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. I wish I could play it. I'd sit on a roof and play it all day, and people would line up and tell me that I play like a god. I would tell them, nay, a god could not come up with something as beautiful as this. and they would be shocked and appalled. and I would lose all the fans that I had gained from playing your song.
2.27.9
a world of evil and good and trouble,
and a spark of hope amidst this rubble.
2.26.9
you really need to stay up later. it's been four minutes and I am bored.
2.25.9
the words won't come. and I don't have a song to quote that expresses my mood. but it's a good one. haha
2.24.9
you know, today was a good day. :) all parts of it were good. and I am very excited.
woah.oh.oh oh.oh.oh
2.23.9
Girls always cry, guys will never admit they did.
What's with the jokes, all the routines they play.
Screw with my head, never cave until they get their way.
Guys like to run, chicks like to yell, you see.
Guys hate to fight, girls think it's therapy.
Hold on, hold on
Most girls get me into trouble,
because they are rarely honest.
2.22.9
it's funny how we all make fun of eachother for being nerds, when we are all nerds. big nerds. still, you're the biggest nerd. haha
2.21.9
I think it's funny how I could spend hours and hours and hours with you and then after, we text. and we don't run out of things to talk about.
2.20.9
tonight was a very weird night. I'm not going to lie.
2.19.9
it kind of annoys the shit out of me, when you tell me about your vasectomy. please dad, I don't want to hear anymore, about all the veins they tore.
2.18.9
haha, it was nice knowing you for three days. oh yeah, thanks for the closure, btw.
2.17.9
I really love my InterComm class. I just thought you would like to know.
2.16.9
I hate how I actually want to go back to school.
2.15.9
I woke up at 11:30 today and it made me feel really gross.
2.14.9
it's Valentine's Day and what did I do?
let's just say that I played a lot of guitar.
2.13.9
how gay is it that Guitar Center closes at nine? everyone there looks like they think they are cool, it's a place for guitars, it should be a cool place. "oh, it's nine o'clock at night. it's too late to be open." how lame.
2.12.9
I'm going to have dreams of mumakil. =/
2.11.9
it's scary when logic stops being logical.
2.10.9
my interview went well. I got 75 buckaroos.
2.9.9
good. it was all resolved the way I ended up wanting it, and I didn't even have to be a dick about it.
2.8.9
Blink's back!
2.7.9
I get tired too quickly now. I suck.
2.6.9
another succesful band practice. roflcopter.
2.5.9
for a class about sex, it was a really boring.
2.4.9
let's not let it go to waste; our home, this perfect place.
2.3.9
I'm 100% happy, and it's unbelievable. I never thought it would happen, but it has, and it's pretty awesome. and I don't think there's any denial or anything, I think I am just happy.
2.2.9
first day of school. I got home at 10:50 :'( I had a good day though, so it's all good.
2.1.9
I lost the bet, but I still kind of won. :)
1.31.9
I hate when bands add me on here and I accept them and tell them that they are good and they don't write me back. get over yourselfs, you're not that big, you're adding random people. if someone actually likes your music, be grateful, I have 26 bands waiting in my "friend requests" that would be more appreciative than you guys.
and two people on my friends list, you post waaay too many bulletins, about nothing, and I hate it. it's fucking annoying. nobody cares.
1.30.9
I don't know anymore. don't get your hopes up. I'm kind of tired of this.
1.29.9
I found the most amazing acoustic guitar. and it's only 600. please, someone donate 600 dollars to me. I'll pay tax :D
1.28.9
all signs are always pointing in "you're not over someone from your past, and you need to let go before you can start over." and I honestly feel that I'm over everything and everyone and perfectly fine. I'm starting to wonder if I'm in one hell of a case of denial? it's kind of scary.
1.27.9
dear diary,
Erick owns the drums. he made that song.
1.26.9
q-_-p
1.25.9
personal day.
1.24.9
it's cool when you're hanging out with two people and nothing goes right, nothing goes the way you want it to, and you still have a great time.
1.23.9
I wonder if it's just us that travel this slow. I really do wonder if it's us or if the process just takes this long, because that's brutal.
1.22.9
"all the single ladies."
"all the single ladies."
1.21.9
the future looks bright. things will happen. and if doubt me, you're the one who is wrong.
1.20.9
please, no more gratuitous amounts of caffeine. ever again. =/
1.19.9
"what does the list have?"
-warehouse
-camera
- green screen
depression.
1.18.9
when it comes to most things, I'm extremely flexible. but when it comes to a new bass guitar, I am the most picky person you'll ever meet.
1.17.9
The Chode Wars: 7 Things a Curious Demon Does on a Restless Night
1.16.9
Erick, we've made progress today. it's good to work on a song with you. it seems to work very well. just to let you know. :D
1.15.9
it's your life, you'll end it your own way.
1.14.9
I honestly don't even remember what happened today. I don't think much of anything. I just thought I would use this opportunity to tell you that I am very tired. my parents went to bed at 8:10, my sister left at 8:30, and it's now 10:30 and I'm bored. I'll probably be going to bed soon and that's really depressing. my legs are really hairy =/ and I'm planning on making my own bass with my dad soon, and I'm very excited about it. oh, if you were wondering, it's the night of January 18th. I'm writing this on this date because I had no idea what to write for this day. now I probably won't be able to find anything to write about today.
1.13.9
will we still be ourselves/in the year 2012?
1.12.9
we suck and we're boring.
1.11.9
I'm glad you like it so much and I'm proud that you continue to practice.
1.10.9
let's keep this gravy train a'movin'.
1.9.9
then she used me to get to my sister, I got angry and that's when I hit her.
1.8.9
thirteen hours in studio and I would be lying if I said I was not proud of what we've done.
1.7.9
I'm the happiest I have been in a long time without help from a girl or a potential girl. that says something, I think. seriously, today was miraculous. tomorrow is going to be great as well. and then it'll be our future. that's what I believe. after tomorrow, we enter our own future. it's the beginning of what's going to consume the rest of our lives. this is the real start in my mind. this will be the day that we will look back upon and wish we still had, but be thankful that it blossomed into so much more. I'm excited for tomorrow and the future. I'm excited for Jake Fails.
1.6.9
haha, if I lurk your page it's because it doesn't hurt, and everything's ok. and I have too much free time. :) I hope all is well, if those things are even for me, I'm not sure. I kind of hope so, because that would make me feel cool, but who knows. I meant it, even though you hung up on me while saying it, that I hope the rest of your life is extremely happy. and I still do.
1.5.9
"how was your day, Jake?"
"I had Taco Bell."
pretty damn good.
1.4.9
I thought back about what you said and figured out you were belittling me. which is funny, because it's you. it would have been alright if you were half as cool as you pretend you are. :)
1.3.9
every day I get better and better, and every day my outlook looks better and better. and every day I have more and more confidence in Jake Fails.
1.2.9
I always enjoy bonfires. especially when we get to jump down awesome sand cliffs. and get sand in all of my pockets. and then take my clothes off outside because I don't want it in my room.
1.1.9
Natalieeee, you deserve the best.
12.31.8
I think of her a lot because the guitarist from this new band looks just like her. his name's Mike.
12.30.8
I think we got it, guys. I think this is it.
12.29.8
to tell you the truth, I miss her voice.
12.28.8
I spent waaay too much time shopping today. no more spending for the next millenia.
12.27.8
I finally figured it out.
12.26.8
Natalie and I went shopping today. forever. we went to a bunch of stores. I finally found some pants I liked. and then I got into hers. haha!
12.25.8
Merry Christmas everyone. mine was good, I can't complain. I would have liked to see more of my family, but sometimes it just doesn't happen your way. I'm ready to go out and have fun though. I'm getting out tomorrow even if I go alone. :D
12.24.8
I finished my book. I think I might be a loser.
12.23.8
I picked up a book at like eight or something tonight. when I fell asleep, I was two-hundred pages in. =/
12.22.8
the notes you wrote me, I've kept them all. I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall. with every single letter, and every single word, there will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl.
12.21.8
tonight was fun. I wouldn't trade it for anything. it was more than a show in a couple of ways.
12.20.8
as long as you're not crazy, I must say, I think you'll amaze me.
12.19.8
"as long as we make things that we enjoy, create things we love, that's all we can do. if it works, it works. if it doesn't, we'll find other things. I promise you this though, I'll be fighting for it."
12.18.8
conversation is seriously the best thing you can do with a couple of friends. that and Clue.
12.17.8
dethroned.
12.16.8
Hollywood is scary. I would kill myself if I was there alone. but it was worth it. great day.
12.15.8
it's not the same when we're in bed by midnight. haha
12.14.8
today was relaxing. it felt good. sometimes it's nice to destroy plans in order to relax.
12.13.8
I feel super accomplished today. Erick and I really finished a lot during a band practice. I'm happy.
12.12.8
sometimes I enjoy a good conversation much more than any plan I could make.
12.11.8
"don't worry. think about it, the astronomy final is comprehensive. that one day we skipped will be 1/15th of the test. oh, here, check it out, I wrote a two page review for Astronomy. I'm going to own this test. oh, crap, look the final is all on the past two weeks of school. awesome, the stuff I didn't study."
I think I did alright.
12.10.8
I owned my finals today. I am proud. and no, I don't think I'm gay for repeatedly baking things with Tim. you're gay for not doing it. =/
12.9.8
I wouldn't bet on it, but let's leave it at that.
12.8.8
if young love is just a game then I must have missed the kickoff.
12.7.8
I went on a walk tonight and a kitty ran up to me, I sat down and started petting it. it was the sweetest thing in the world. when I started to leave, it followed me. I got it to stay and I came back later and played with it again. I left to walk some more and came back a third time, and it wasn't there. I miss it :(
12.6.8
and every time there's less and less doubt. and every time I'm more and more excited.
12.5.8
hahahahahaha
12.4.8
sometimes you just let the universe take care of things.
12.3.8
caffeine withdrawals are a bitch. but I like to look on the bright side, my first days on Survivor *fingers crossed* will be easier now.
12.2.8
want that which is unatainable, don't get hung up on what could be done. whatever happens, keep walking. things fall into place.
12.1.8
someone buy me a capo. I want to play Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley. :)
11.30.8
I took a walk in the fog tonight. it was actually extremely creepy. I thought I would be manly enough to do it, but I failed hXc.
11.29.8
"fuck you, miss daisy!" don't mess this up, seriously.
11.28.8
I bought the Paramore Final Riot cd/dvd. I already watched it and listened to it. =/ on a less creepy note, I'm in love with Haley Williams. alright, it's even more creepy :'(
11.27.8
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone. I had a good one. I loved seeing my family. my only complaint is everyone left by like six. and I was in bed by 11. my family is gay.
11.26.8
why does contemplative feel like depressed? I think there's something missing.
11.25.8
when the thoughts grow dark I do not see the space in front of me. I walk the streets of my mind, without thought of space and time.
11.24.8
lately I've been doing nothing, but completing a lot.
11.23.8
I went on an hour long walk to clear my mind, think things over, and tire myself out. at the end of it, I was sleepy, tired, calm, and I wrote two songs. it was very productive.
11.22.8
zombies on the brain. zooombieees.
11.21.8
you may be ready, but I'm not. so, I'll ttyl. lolkthx.
11.20.8
I hate it when I have nothing to write about. I've been sitting here thinking about what to write for like ten minutes. this is all I came up with. I guess I'll take that as a good thing.
11.19.8
for the life of me, I couldn't fall asleep last night. I think I only got one to two hours of sleep. I was seriously contemplating just staying up all night and hoping I survive the day. but I made it. and I can't wait to go to bed now.
11.18.8
honestly? I don't know.
11.17.8
for the first time in a really long while I am not happy. there are a bunch of reasons for it, and you are just one of them. I know life isn't fair, but this is ridiculous. and then there's you, I don't think I feel the same way, not because of you, but because of the distance between us and I don't want you to get hurt because of me. and then there's you, and you're the worst. there's something not right with you, and you're the biggest reason I feel like this.
11.16.8
it seems I never get to be mad. someone will do something to upset me, I'll say my piece, they'll come up with an excuse that makes sense, then I'll feel like a dick. then all that anger from being mad at a person who wasn't even at fault doesn't go away. and then I feel angry for no reason, which is really annoying.
11.15.8
when you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell. when you walk my way, I hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell. If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well, then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hellllll.
11.14.8
I already miss you. this better make things ok, because you are not going to leave my life. we've proved that doesn't work already.
11.13.8
I constantly worry about you and hope you're ok. it makes me feel so powerless, because there is nothing I can do for you, except talk to you, and there's nothing I can say except I'm sorry. and I know that doesn't help at all.
11.12.8
Dear Diary,
Haley Nicole Jones said I was cute.. today was a good day. told you I would write you in here, grrrrl.
11.11.8
you'd be fooling yourself if you said you were over me, but I don't lie, and you're just another girl to me. don't get me wrong, I wish you the greatest life ever, but if I'm not in it, I won't lose sleep. oh, and Westin: I HATE IT!
11.10.8
"whats up dude. so, i sorta got a problem. sarah takeda, ring a bell? i bet it does. the stuff she has on her myspace. like moods, and songs. try not to jack it bro. come up with your own shit. your myspace happens to have the same song. and you happen to sometimes be in the same mood she is. dude, leave her alone man. shes my girl. just stop homie. thanks."
hahaha, stfu and suck on my balls.
11.9.8
I got a new phone today. it's pretty much the love of my life. :] but the guy who sold it to me was kind of an ass. he kept dissing it and trying to get me to buy an iPhone. and he didn't laugh at my jokes. but fuck him, I got a new phone :] and I love it.
11.8.8
I feel really bad because when life is so good for me, like right now, this diary gets super boring. it's always just me going, "life is cool, I'm a loser." I think I have too much confidence. like, it's pretty epic lately. but I guess it's a lot better than low self-esteem, right? :D
11.7.8
you know what? life is fan-fucking-tastic. :]
11.6.8
you were astronomically owned. :]
11.5.8
I honestly don't know what to write.
11.4.8
a lot runs through your mind when your mp3 player dies and you have to walk two miles without entertainment.
11.3.8
I'm going to be single until someone can prove to me why I shouldn't be. that seems like the only logical way to end this.
11.2.8
I close my eyes as I slowly drift on a lazy river, going nowhere fast. I can't feel the sun because the dense leaves of the tree are blocking it. I am in no danger of anything and I am enjoying it. enjoying the nothing.
11.1.8
I'm four seconds of work away from dying. I'm tired as balls. :'<[br /> 10.31.8
Happy Halloween everyone :] I hope yours was fantastic. mine could have been better, things definately didn't go as planned, but I wouldn't change it if I could.
10.30.8
Westin and I were in the car in the IHOP parking lot, and we saw these two girls. one, at least, was cute, so I was looking over. and then they kissed. when we were driving away, I stared affectionately trying to get them to look and laugh. they didn't. they were too into their lesbian love. it was awesome.
10.29.8
today alone gave me so much confidence.I feel like I could take on the world. :]
10.28.8
life is perfect when you can't help but smile. :D
10.27.8
I'm confident tomorrow will bring smiles. and that confidence, in turn, is what makes me smile. :]
10.26.8
"does she drive?"
"she should. she's 19." =/
10.25.8
if you'll be my star, I'll be your sky. you can hide underneath me and come out at night. when I turn jet black, and you show off your light, I live to let you shine. you can sky rocket away, from me. and never come back if you find another galaxy, far from here, with more room to fly. just leave me your stardust to remember you by.
10.24.8
I have my opinions, and I will stick to them. if you think differently, I'll listen to you, but for me to change my mind, you're going to have to present one hell of an argument.
10.23.8
I went on a run tonight, and although I seriously am out of shape when it comes to cardio, I'm committed to do better. this is Day One on my journey to a better body. I'm tired of being self-conscious. I'm going to run tomorrow morning. ask me if I did tomorrow, and if I said I wussied out, you can tea-bag me. that's my reason for running.
10.22.8
a bird shit on me today. I was wearing my last clean shirt too. I went home and changed into a dirty one =/
10.21.8
I broke the B string on my guitar today. that's another 15 bucks wasted. be my inspiration to write a new song.
10.20.8
I'm going to McDonald's. I promise I'll remember you when I win 100,000 dollars. fingers crossed.
10.19.8
good news, mom. you don't have to worry anymore. I found the girl of my dreams.
10.18.8
"Mrs. Sheryl, please. I don't want anymore eggs. dont put them down my shirt anymore."
10.17.8
for not doing a lot throughout a day, my life changes at an incredible pace. some mornings I wake up and don't understand how all these things can happen so fast. but I kind of like it.
10.16.8
we'll see how things go, but I don't think much will materialize, just to let you know.
10.15.8
"who wants rape?"
10.14.8</b&g