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I'd like to meet:

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WHO I WANT TO MEET:
I want to meet my daughter, Courtney. I want to see the young woman she's become and know what she's learned to be as well. I want to hear all her experiences, past and present, her hopes and dreams- all her goals she's set for herself. I want to know her and I'd love for her to know me. If by chance she doesn't accept me, I would at least be happy to know that she's been well in all ways throughout her life.

Courtney is one year younger than my daughter, Sierra. She'll be turning 18, soon. Their father was an abusive, lazy, selfish cheater and I'm not just saying that. Most of his family were the same and heated drama was the norm, including various acts of abuse toward each other. In other words, they were pretty fucked in the head.

After seeing what my daughter, Sierra went through at her very young age, I couldn't bare to see another child go through it as well. Even though I was filing for divorce back then, I knew Courtney would have been exposed to many harmful acts, somehow. Needless to say, Sierra still experienced harmful behaviors, as I had suspected. There were moments I couldn't be there, but I fought tooth and nail and finally won (repeatedly) after years of court battles.

Luckily, Sierra's eventually become well adjusted in my care. Courtney, on the other hand, might not have been so lucky out of my reach. But I need to meet her and know, for a fact, that her fate had changed drastically by being raised by a wonderful, loving woman named Marrianne Rohr who lived in NY, last I knew. (I'm pretty sure her last name is spelled right, but I'll check) Maybe somehow- she'll see this.

Love

INTERESTS:
My interests vary as I continue to find my way and some things just come naturally, like everyone else.

MY KIDS:
Although they tend to stress me out (lol) my kids are my top priority. I've gone above and beyond my call as mother every time I needed to- without a regret. I've given up major things for them, as I should have. I've been stuck in a depression for the last few years and I admit they don't get all the attention they need from me. I'm now taking steps to change that and have been better with it. Regardless, they always know I love them and I'm looking forward to spending more time with them as a healthier, happier mom.

ANIMALS/PETS:
Another of my major interests has always been animals. Their unconditional love is irreplaceable. And they're warm on a cold day, too. They depend on us for their care and are usually able to return the kindness with affection. Pets can be very therapeutic and they always deserve a loving owner.

MUSIC:
Music is another big thing for me. It does something to your soul. The songs on my playlist are mostly from my teenage years. They bring back a lot of memories and I just love the beat of most of them. There are different kinds of music that I adore, including Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven and some modern hip-hop. I've grown to love a wide range of music like a lot of people do, and really feel alive when one of my favorites come on.

PERSONAL GROWTH:
Another of my many interests is self exploration- finding the way to true happiness. I guess I've always known that you only get what you give and I've always been a giver. Unfortunately it doesn't always come back to you. For as long as I can remember, I've tried to come up with ways to better myself, as far as my interractions with others go. It's always been my most common interest. I've always wanted to be the unforgettable friend or otherwise. I just wanted to be my very best and it became the basis of my personality. In essense, I suppose this has more or less made me a martyr and I've paid dearly for it. Today, I'm still able to be myself, but I have the knowledge and emotional strength to help guard me.

RELATIONSHIPS:
There's no major love interest in my life at the moment. I've been focusing more on life around me and the kids. There might be an interest here and there, but nothing serious, for now. To be perfectly honest, I find it a little scary.... even though it's something I always crave. Imagine the confusion. Form your own analogies. haha- well.... MySpace isn't exactly the place I'd be looking for true love anyway. Besides- I'm hardly on here, anymore. K. I'm done editing this thingy here. Leave me a comment or something before you leave, k?

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