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jay

I am here for Dating, Serious Relationships, Friends and Networking

About Me

im a very confusing guy i guess you can say, i have many angles,im a hopeless romantic, sufficated by love, drowned in this world of sadness. misery is my companion, though my happiness guides me, along with my heart. i follow what i believe to the last step, even when doubt enters my realm. i am the maker of my destiny, i am the creator of my own fear, im the illusion of my old self... i am me.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

anyone with a spirit, someone who doesn't fear being themselves, being loud, being annoying, someone who can jump up and put their underwear over their head, and scream at the topof their lungs saying IM A NAD!!!!someone who cares, someone who isn't fake, anyone with humor, down to earth, up in the sky, its a bird its a plane! its a booger on the windshield with a chunk of my brain. someone who isn't self conciouse about looking stupid. a freemind is the most wonderful thing in the world, but a free heart is far beyond words.

My Blog

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if i could just forget you.. i would have nothing left to remember if i could just forget..i'd have nothing to think about or dread i leave myself open for the strike of the whip while you close yo...
Posted by on Thu, 18 Mar 2004 19:37:00 GMT

i've been so siiiick

sick of you feeling something different everyday, and sick of me feeling same goddamn fucking way you hurt, you bleed , you cry.. you wimper to yourself in your cold dark room.. wondering why.. b...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Feb 2004 16:56:00 GMT

to anyone who truly knows me or gives a flying fuck

this is no fib, this is no tale, this is the truth and this is what i tell, by tomorrow there will be no more of me, besides the lingering stench of a man that used to be. if there ever was a time f...
Posted by on Sun, 25 Jan 2004 06:13:00 GMT

will you lend me a hand?

can you please do me a favor? suck it up n be lurid for a second, stick your fingers in my wound and tear it open,and i beckon.. for this moment must be savored.. check and see if you find what i nee...
Posted by on Sun, 25 Jan 2004 04:16:00 GMT

DULL

its the seed in me that vibrates with life that consumes grows and feeds .. sink deep down and watch the wounds i unravel from the inside, bleed out . helpless, on both hands and knees.. spread t...
Posted by on Sun, 25 Jan 2004 03:21:00 GMT

and now the blind man see's

now i see .. i have been holding back this full bloomed hate for everyone.. loving someone who doesn't love me back.. being friends to friends who don't deserve none.. helping and getting no help back...
Posted by on Sat, 17 Jan 2004 10:10:00 GMT

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the tick tock is torment.. when you got the time to see it by.. and you live while the light remains dormant..till these shallow creeks finally run dry. its so good to say..that nothing has change...
Posted by on Fri, 05 Dec 2003 04:46:00 GMT

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living to die? or dying to live? this is a question i've been pondering, as i see you walking by, pay no attention to what i think. you say you are living to die, and you try to live with it, it ain't...
Posted by on Fri, 31 Oct 2003 15:03:00 GMT

drowning in shallow waters

thought maybe i could be the one and only, truth shows im just fucked up and lonely. thought maybe finally i had a break, but it was only from the fall of all of my mistakes. so sorry... i gently sha...
Posted by on Tue, 28 Oct 2003 09:40:00 GMT

har har har

i think aliens have taken over my brain.. ilike to scream... i like to be stupid. im not supreme im terminal so don't miss use meh...i like to spit in peoples faces.. i like to dance in circles as i p...
Posted by on Sat, 11 Oct 2003 01:06:00 GMT