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Em[ily]

I am here for Friends

About Me

'I need a heart that carries on through the pain
when the walls start collapsing again.
Give me a soul that never ceases to follow
despite the infection within.'
- Demon Hunter
* * *
I have been one acquainted with the night.
I have walked out in rain - and back in rain.
I have outwalked the furthest city light.
I have looked down the saddest city lane.
I have passed by the watchman on his beat
And dropped my eyes, unwilling to explain.
I have stood still and stopped the sound of feet
When far away an interrupted cry
Came over houses from another street,
But not to call me back or say good-bye;
And further still at an unearthly height,
One luminary clock against the sky
Proclaimed the time was neither wrong nor right.
I have been one acquainted with the night.
- Robert Frost
* * *

Life continues to march on, despite or because of my inability to grow up seamlessly. Some days I pull off adulthood pretty well, and other days I simply revert to infancy. I still cry, but this time around I have my best friend to wipe the tears from my eyes. I still don't know what I want to do for a 'career', but I enjoy what I do now, and I'll stick with that until I don't enjoy it anymore. I rely on my friends to stand by me through life, and I return their kindness with my own heart. I was built to care for people, and every day I learn how.

My Blog

(A Blog)

1) I am falling deeply in love with my best friend. 2) My best friend is falling deeply in love with me.3) Both of us know this is happening, and it's okay because we are seeing each other.4) I went t...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 08:05:00 GMT

Blogging for Jenelle :)

Once you have been tagged, you have to write a BLOG with 10 random things, facts, goals, or habits about yourself. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them...
Posted by on Fri, 28 Mar 2008 23:56:00 GMT

When the act becomes the art of growing up

I haven't written in a while. Probably because I don't feel like I am able to any longer, or that I lack the words sufficient to express what weighs so immovably on my heart these days.i suppose I not...
Posted by on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 21:29:00 GMT

Last night I had this crazy dream, that everything was exactly as it seemed

I feel very distant from everyone, and I am afraid this is my own doing. It's like everyone is sailing along merrily on their life, and I am stuck here in my row-boat, with only one paddle and no map....
Posted by on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 23:43:00 GMT

I'm not scared, but I've still got my eyes closed

It's like I've been spinning around on something not-fun, and then released. I'm still spinning on the inside, and flailing my arms and thumping the people around me in the head as they attempt to hel...
Posted by on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 23:37:00 GMT

My human condition

The human condition cannot be solved by more human condition. It can only be fixed and healed through Him who created it in the first place.I've got these holes in my heart that I try to answer throug...
Posted by on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 19:19:00 GMT

Tell me your reason worth fighting for

Do it. What do you fight for? What burns in your heart at night when you can't get to sleep?When I can't sleep, I'm probably thinking of you. You, who don't even know who you are. You don't even read ...
Posted by on Sat, 20 Jan 2007 19:06:00 GMT

If you enjoy having nightmares, read this. I suppose ...

It might be scary. There is a reason it's written. I didn't make it up all by myself. Swear* * * * * * *You won't call me until I finish my homework, so that's what I'm w...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 18:33:00 GMT

In light of this, I'm not a failure now

I see her sometimes. She isn't ever far behind me, tracing my mistakes with long black fingernails and hated eyes. Reminding me of what I despise about myself and trying to pull me back into the minds...
Posted by on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 19:27:00 GMT

This is how you kill me a little more each day

You cut my heart with your knife. You pour your salty wounding words inside the crevice you've created, and you say you deserve it? How is killing vulnerable parts of me punishing yourself for the not...
Posted by on Sat, 25 Nov 2006 09:52:00 GMT