Christ does not come in a cardboard box, with fries.
aim = wombat993
I'm incredibly weird, but I embrace it.
I try to be laid back and loving towards everyone. I may seem ridiculously shy and awkward, its cause I'm just not warmed up to you. but I love people, i love mingling and partying. that is the side of me that most people get to see. there's only a few people i can warm up to immediately. I am typically the listener in a conversation. when i talk though, i usually don't stop till i make at least one jaw drop. its not that hard.
when I was little I wanted to be a surgeon despite the phobia of blood. then I wanted to be a pet mechanic, and when my fear of blood disappeared i wanted to stare at the night sky forever. then I decided that I wanted to learn to have others learn, and now i just want to do something with my love. Music. I play guitar and keyboard (really want a drum set), and I've been singing my whole life. I'm an audiophile. i only like music with personality, and I mostly adore very heavy metal.
I'm trying to start a doom/death band called Chromophobic, myself and another member have had deaths in the family and are both dealing with the aftermath of it, which is putting off taking riffs and forming songs.
Just something most people don't realize is that I will do everything in my power to try to make a person happy. If you trust in me, I will make you my number one priority and take you in and help you with anything. I really don't care about myself as much as people tell me that I should, but that would go against my philosophy on life; you only live once, and everything that you do in selfishness is worth nothing in the end. why should you waist your life pleasing yourself when others are so miserable? why not take pleasure in making them better?.... I'm constantly told I'm a hopeless romantic.
But, I will not allow a person to use me. if you wrong me, I will get even with you one way or another. I would devote myself to anyone, I would accept any flaws, but I am no one's pawn, and I never will be. I do like to think I am a reasonable man. I try to be as selfless as I possibly can. I'm one of the supposed few people who would rather be hurt instead of hurting others and for others, and I am eternally forgiving. I love to try new things as often as possible. I believe everything is worth trying once. even if your reincarnated, you don't get to remember your past life. and if you believe in a heaven and hell, you know you wont return to your mortal form again. life is good. its worth every tear, every touch, every pain, every moment you embrace, every drop of blood; in birth, in youth, in aging and in death. well, maybe not in aging (hence why I just want to enjoy my time while I have it).
and thats the most i can explain about myself and the way I think. I'm really weird, and my sanity is highly questionable. If you dislike me for any reason, its because you don't know me. Feel free to talk to meh. ^-^