Alyssa the Literate

If you’ve ever heard the word “optimist”, it pretty much defines me. Max says I am not an optimst and I trust his opinion, so as a correction I will write that I used to be an optimist, until I started hating the world. Though I have my lows, they are usually overcome by whatever next passing happiness I happen to come across. I like anything happy; Bright colors, warm summer days, baby animals, teddy bears… you name it. I will admit, I have a temper, it’s pretty much an unstoppable force, but it doesn’t last. I try not to let people know when I am down because I hate pity and I hate it when people worry about me. I seriously try my hardest to help everyone and everything, though I have a small problem with not caring about minute things. I’m one of those people that want to help everyone less fortunate than myself. I look on the brightside because in my life I have realized that being happy and trying to find the joy in life is the only way to get by. Although pessimism and depression is an inevitable part of life, to remain in such a state is the epitome of laziness. I have also realized that the only way to be truly happy is to love yourself despite your flaws. I know I have flaws. I know I’m not perfect. And I also know that there’s a lot about my life I could change for the better. Although I know this, I still love who I am. I have a lot of thoughts that I am insecure about, but I get past it. I am completely paranoid about everything around me, though a lot of the time I just won’t mention it. I’m the person who cracks a joke to get through an awkward moment. I’m the person who will dance around in the hallways or skip across the street or sing on the sidewalk. I am the biggest goof. I acknowledge that sometimes I am not the socially accepted norm. I am a complete peace advocate. I hate guns. I hate war. I hate Hate. Don’t even get me started on nuclear weapons. I’m seriously considering joining the Peace Corps after college. I should be a vegetarian, but I love hamburgers too much. I love to read and I crave intelligence. I generally am interested in what people have to say. I want to know how things work and I want to figure out how people think. I have been accepted into Suffolk University in Boston and will be attending in September of 2007 to study Sociology with a concentration of Criminology. I also have a strong passion for English and I love to write. I will feel incomplete in my life if one day I am not addressed by either, “Dr. Heath”, “Agent Heath”, or “Capt. Heath”. I want to have a career where I get to wear a suit to work everyday. When I was in seventh grade, I held onto the dream that I wanted to be an espionage agent for the CIA. My dream is to learn to sail and then buy myself a two-mast schooner and sail across the world. I love the ocean and everything about it. I will live in Australia at some point in my life. I am one of those people that are highly amused by mundane things. I have an obsession with office supplies and I will buy pens and pencils regularly. I believe that aliens exist. I want to know everything there is to know about dinosaurs. Rocket ships and space travel interest me. I have a completely rapt fascination with pirates. I still buy crayons and coloring books. One of my absolute favorite things to do is have intellectual conversations, usually about books. If I could have my way, I’d live in a bookstore. Music is a huge passion. Though I am not actually musically skilled, I am skilled at listening to music. I generally tend to focus more on indie music more than mainstream. I will listen to pretty much anything, but at the same time I am ridiculously picky about what I listen to. I plan to learn how to play bass guitar and possibly someday conquer the banjo. I like movies, or rather, I like going to the movies. I love the idea of being in a dark theater surrounded by strangers and engaging in a 2 hour film. Like most females, I love expensive things, though I am always happier with the smaller and more thoughtful gifts. If you draw me a picture or make me a card you’ll be the idol of my affection. I am not a materialistic person, but I always have my cellphone, iPod, and camera nearby. I remember faces before I remember names. Post-it notes are my last hope before Alzheimer’s. I like to create dramatic scenes while telling stories or jokes, though it always makes me sad to know that my life has no hope of being that extreme. I impersonate people all the time. If I am holding a cup from Starbucks, I am the happiest person you’ll ever meet. I love to purchase socks and underwear. I sing loudly when no one is around to listen to me. I love driving and I will usually take the long way home. I work at an ice cream shop in my town during the summers, and it is one of the few places where I have ever felt completely accepted. I have a problem with germs and I always think about the consequences of not bathing or washing my hands. I have an intense fear of being the “smelly kid” in class. My best friends are what keep me alive. They have helped me become who I am today and I owe them more than my life could ever surmount to. Breanne Boutilier has saved my soul on countless occasions. There’s one boy in my life that, despite everything, has the power to make me happier than most people can and I will always call him my best friend. My favorite holiday is my birthday and for the past few years my friends have made my birthdays the best days of my life. I love birthdays in general. I do not drink. I do not use drugs. I am not interested in any of that. There’s not a lot that I can’t handle. I am strong and independent and I have been raised to be so. I am an understanding person and will put reason before anger. I dislike people who look to place blame. Rude people get on my nerves. I’m not a fan of people who are close-minded and don’t accept others’ opinions. I can’t stand people who drive under the speed limit, don’t use their blinkers, and drive recklessly. I can’t stand it when people don’t say “thank you”. I have no respect for unappreciative human beings. All in all, I am not one bit impressed with the state of the world today. Everywhere you look, society is crumbling due to corrupt governments and power-hungry companies. I’m frightened of pretty much everything that I probably shouldn’t be – call me a “scardy-cat”. I enter a state of panic if someone’s foot is in a close proximity to my body. Zombies absolutely terrify me. I can’t stand scary movies, but nevertheless I somehow always find myself dragged into watching them. Spiders are the creepiest things I’ve ever seen. The thought of anesthesia and being put to sleep under someone else’s control is completely haunting. I love debating and arguing. I’m not afraid of confrontation. I will tell you how I feel 95% of the time. I don’t sugarcoat my opinions. I take pictures of myself constantly – it’s not because I’m conceited or vain, but because it’s expressive. If you don’t know me, I probably really come off as a really arrogant person. I’m not. I’m probably one of the biggest hypocrites that you will ever meet, but it’s only because I have ever-changing opinions. My favorite thing to do in the summer is just to lie out in our hammock for hours. The hammock is my life. Kangaroos are my favorite animal. I want to learn how to properly duel in a swordfight. I also want to be taught how to surf. I have a terrible problem with talking to myself. I am not afraid to see what the future holds for me. I want to move on from this life and see the world. I crave to meet new people and see different places. I continuously surround myself with hilarious people because I see comedy as the light in a dark place. Laughter is my favorite thing to hear. If I say something that makes another person laugh, I feel accomplished. One day, I have a pretty good feeling that I will write a book about my life. At some point I want to be a part of a rally or protest. Did you know it only takes 3 people to officially start a riot? I love the controversy of politics and I will indulge in current affairs. I believe that we need to help citizens in our own country before we attempt to help others. I feel in debt to anyone the ever compliments me. Majority of the time I will go out of my way to make those around me happy. I love listening to others’ ideas. I love spontaneity. I appreciate anyone with a different style of living. At any moment in time I will sit with someone in an abandoned area and have an in-depth conversation with no distractions. I believe individual, personal connections help you to truly discover those around you. Everyone has a story and it’s all just a matter of opening your ears. I’m a very philosophical person. I don’t like the idea of structured religion. I have my own personal interpretation of a higher power and that’s all that I need. Above all, I believe that everyday is a brand new moment in your life and that you should always make the best of it. Don’t live with regrets and learn to love everything that you can. You never know when you’re not going to be around to show your appreciation.If you ever feel like talking to me, my AOL screenname is TrendyRocketShip I adore talking to new people.