::ELLA[<3's Christopher]

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This Is My Life, No Regrets. ツ
I am ::
JOELLA MARIE GOODMAN (aka) GOD
I am a Junior at D-town
I have BLONDE hair
[Beautiful] Green Eyes
5' 9-10" (supermodel.. NOT)
My Birth Date is January 6, 1992
I am ::
@mAz!ng
LOUD
Outgoing
Sweet
Sexy
Talkative
Music Lover
Smart
SILLY
Crazy
In Love
I have MANY nicknames ::
Hoe-Ella
Hoe
Jo Jo
Baby J
Dumplin
Dan-Cob
JoBabe
Jak-Gen
Sweetie
Jo
J. Lo.
JoElla Weaver <3
Ethel
Scooby
Jello
JoRieMan
Khrystal
Ella
School = GAY
Boys = Confusing =S
Girls = Bitches
Teachers = STUPID
Music = Life
Life = ((UnKoWn))
Love = Happiness
Cars are Awesome
Muzic is AMAZING
I LOVE to party
You one have one life... LIVE IT TO THE FUCKING EXTREME!!
<3Things I Love :: <3
<3Christopher Duane
<3Party
<3Muzic
<3Friends
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Things I Hate ::
-My Father
-LIARS
-Bitches
-Copy Cats
-WANNA BE'S!
-Teachers
-Drama
"QUOTES"
don’t ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry
don’t ever settle for an answer if you still want to know
&& don’t ever say you don’t love him if you can’t let him go
i realize that overall, you weren’t really worth it.
there were moments with you that made me really happy,
but the majority of the time you just shut me out.
that’s why this summer, I’ll try and get over you.
we might have had something really great,
but I guess we’ll never know.
i’ll never forget all the good times
with you, but I also never forget
how you hurt me, more than any other boy.
sometimes the two people that are meant to be,
are the last ones to realize it.
i believe everything happens for a reason.
people change so that you can learn to
let go, things go wrong so you
can appreciate them when they’re right,
you belibe lies so you can eventually learn
to trust no one but your self,
&& sometimes good things fall apart
so better things can fall together.
i have this theory that the more important
&& intimate the emotion, the fewer words are
required to express it. for instance, in dating.
‘will you go out with me?’ six words.
‘i really care about you.’ five words.
‘you matter to me.’ four words.
‘i love you.’ three words.
‘marry me.’ two words.
so whats left?
what’s the snigle most important and intimate word you
can ever say to somebody? it’s ‘goodbye.’
it’s hard to wait around for something
you know might never happen,
but it’s even harder to give up on it
when its everything you ever wanted.
maybe she’s a little scared to get close to anyone
becuase everyone who ever said “i’ll always be there,” left.
she talks too loud.
she says things that she should keep to herself.
she’s slow and silly.
she can be very thickheaded and rude.
she wants too much
she stays hidden behind a fake smile.
she cries at night to the sad songs on the radio.
she runs away from the truth.
she doesn’t want to do anything but lay in his arms
fine. i’ll admit it. all of it.
i think of you every second of the day.
you are my favorite subject to talk about.
when i hug you i wish i was allowed to never let you go.
most of my dreams have you in them.
i always get excited when i get to see you again; and...
the fact that i’ve completely && totally fallen for you.
i can’t unthink about you,
i can’t unfeel your touch.
i can’t unhear all the things,
that used to mean so much.
i wish i could unremember
everything my hear’ts been through.
i’m finding out its impossible to do,
but its no use. i can’t unlove you.
a guy && girl can just be friends, but at one
point of another they will fall for each other. maybe just
temporarily, or maybe at the wrong time,
or maybe too late. maybe forever. sure they won’t say things,
but that doesn’t mean they don’t feel them.
...I Want A Guy..
Who would move the hair away from my eyes and then kiss me. hold my hand in the line at the mall and mall all the girls jealous. Someone who would sing to me at random moments. Who would let me sleep on their chest. A boy who would get mat someone if they called me ugly or was mean to me. I want someone who would call me 3 times a day if he went away. Someone who would just let me gossip to him and would just smile and agree with everything I said. He would throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then kiss me a million times. Someone who would make fun of me just to make me laugh. He would take me to the park and put his hands around my waist and give me big bear hugs all the time. He would tell all his friends about me and smile when he did it. And we'd make out in the pouring rain. He would never be afraid to say "I Love You" in front of his friends, and we'd argue about silly things then make up. I want a boy that would kiss me at midnight on New Years and count stars with me. Who would stay home with me on Friday night just to help me make dinner && watch movies together under the same blanket. Someone who would tell me I'm beautiful but not too often. Who would make me laugh like NO ONE else could. But mostly, I want someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart.
...SOMEWHERE BETWEEN...
...Somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the "I miss yous", the "I love yous", the "What are we doing tonights?"..somewhere between all of the changing and growing up, the skipping classes, the studying for tests, the pretending to be studying for tests, && the down right NOT studying for tests, I forgot. I forgot what it meant to cry..I forgotthat pretending to be happy DOESN'T make you happy. I forgot that pretending to be smart doesn't make you smart, && that pretending to be ok doesn't make you okay. I forgot that you can't just forget the past in fear of the future. I forgot that you CANNOT control falling in love, && that you can't make yourself fall in love. I learned that it's okay to mess up, it's okay to ask for help, && it's okay to feel like crap for no reason at all. I learned it's okay to complain && whine to all your friends for a whole day... somehow they'll make it all better. I learned that sometimes the things youwant most.. you just can't have... I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk about. I learned that letters from friends are the MOST important thing, && that sending cards to your friends does makes you feel better. I learned that not all friends are forever, && you will eventually get screwed over, but you will learn who your true friends are && you must remember to be grateful for them. But..basically, I just learned that my friends, both old && new, are the most important people to me in the world...
"<3.. Once Upon A Time, Something Happened To Me,
It Was The Sweetest Thing, That Could Ever Be,
It Was Fantasy, A Dream Come true,
It Was The Day, That I Met You..<3"

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