a. profile picture

a.

I am here for Friends and Networking

My Interests

I'd like to meet:



basically name: allyson
age: twenty
gender: girl
location: coast of here
job: freelance whatever
notice please if you are planning on sending me a message, please take the time to read through the following before hitting "send":
private profiles
judge me baby
don't add me if

getting descriptive Arrogant. Bitchy. Talented. Opinionated. Loud. Artistic. Needy. Hateful. Introverted. Paranoid. Medicated. Vengeful. Shy. Dependent. Quirky. Impetuous. Indecisive. Poor. Terrifed. Addicted. Insecure. Judgemental. Hypocritical. Reclusive. Disgusted. Condescending. Loving. Unorganised. Transparent. Obsessive. Moody. Angsty. Immature. Pretentious. Intelligent. Dissociative. Possessive. Loved. Masochistic. Phobic. Borderline neurotic.being visualin detail I can be a bitch when I want to be. And sometimes when I have no intention of being one. I talk too much. I cry sometimes. I can be vengeful and bitter. I become obsessed with things very easily. I fall in love easily and hard. And I fall out just as easily. I am very overprotective & possessive of people I care about. I'm oddly shy. I am an insomniac. I laugh at everything. I lie a lot. I become hyper and impossibly happy at the worst times. I feel like I've lived at least half a dozen lives. I am on various medications to control my moods, insomnia, and anxiety. I should be in college. I can be an elitist snob. I give bad advice based on my own past. My hate for random things is endless. I hold lots of strong grudges. I am entirely poor. I procrastinate a lot and am a slacker. I feel old. I am painfully aware of things. I like fighting with people. I write letters and never send them. I have a very bad memory most of the time. I have too many journals. I think people care more than they actually do. I am paranoid. I become a chainsmoker late at night. I can be very self centered and selfish. I have low self esteem. I can be arrogant and pretentious. I hate leaving the house. I repeat myself until I'm dull. I have creative moments rather than a steady supply of brilliance. I am always extremely indecisive. I put too much pressure on myself for everything to be perfect. I am codependent and dysfunctional. I collect books and music and temporary friends.leave it sweet
the girl hit hard like a barracuda, baby she floated on air like a crest of wave she was a primal institution she was a danger to herself, yeah
off the space
aol instant messenger jesusjacks0ff
email: allyson[at]joycrusher.com
xanga: here
personal site: joyCRSHR
website: panicked!!

Navigation home pictures videos message add friend view blog view friends view comments forward favourite blocklove cigarettes. white noise. coffee. debates. storms. psychology. cold pillows. pills. inside jokes. synthesizers. open windows. reading. zebra print. writing. laughing. sarcasm. autumn. comfort. revenge. independence. good conversations. webcams. fog. daydreams. libraries. controversy. history. cities. learning. anonymity. boston. free stuff. sleeping. ginger ale. happy memories.hate immaturity. lies & liars. humidity. wool. migraines. teenagers. politicians. sociopaths. scientology. summer. hiccups. drunks. insomnia. arrogance. liberals. extremists. organised religion. math. cleaning. shopping malls. spiders & moths. losing. papercuts. boredom. bigotry. crowds. phonecalls. blue eyes. nostril piercings. public speaking. itches. stress. sweating. flashbacks. money. batteries. feet. being ignored. jealousy. burns. deadlines. doctors. drama.listen action action, against me!, alkaline trio, a perfect circle, brand new, bright eyes, britney spears, coheed and cambria, concrete blonde, count the stars, counting crows, gin blossoms, head automatica, horrorpops, hot hot heat, ima robot, LBC, live, matchbox 20, matthew good band, our lady peace, pat benatar, pearl jam, pink floyd, placebo, plow monday, pretty girls make graves, queen, simon and garfunkel, stroke 9, the cranberries, the dresden dolls, the epoxies, the faint, the fascination, the killers, the matches, the pink spiders, the sex pistols, the turtles, the weakerthans, tilt, tool, tom petty, tori amos, tupac, 30 seconds to mars.read smack, requiem for a dream, on the road, the church of dead girls, empire falls, girl interrupted, white oleander, please kill me, cometbus, steppenwolf, the things they carried, gone with the wind, great expectations, middlesex, people's history of the united states, the virgin suicides, to kill a mockingbird, diary of an emotional idiot, lysergically yours, lockpick pornography, like being killed, a separate peace, an unquiet mind, cruddy, notes from the underground, invisible monsters, the crucible, fahrenheit 451, 1984, textbooks, anything about addiction, mental disorder, political disorder, society, history, etc...watch requiem for a dream. the others. capote. session 9. the wall. i am sam. girl, interrupted. white oleander. gia. fallen. v for vendetta. the bad seed. foxfire. trainspotting. taking lives. the breakfast club. fear and loathing in las vegas. fight club. garden state. SLC punk! benny and joon. the nightmare before christmas. stigmata. mommie dearest. party monster. frailty. saw. girl. the bone collector. the last unicorn. boondock saints. the filth and the fury. the mothman prophecies. igby goes down. memento. a clockwork orange. american history x. gone with the wind. may. the virgin suicides. run lola run. edward scissorhands. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. rebel without a cause. documentaries. etc...

My Blog

i quit keeping track.

...of how many blogs i've posted here on myspace. after i decided that i wouldn't post any of any importance because that's what xanga is for. but i guess i gave up on that. kind of like how i gave up...
Posted by a. on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 12:39:00 PST

numerology...

snagged from lexi.http://www.paulsadowski.com/NameData.aspYour number is: 5The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.The expression or destiny...
Posted by a. on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 08:49:00 PST

adventures in being a clueless yet very ditzy female.

setting the category for this entry as "sports" amuses me more than it should. but, if you continue reading. you will see the point of it.i have a doctor's appointment today. and my doctor and i....we...
Posted by a. on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 10:45:00 PST

Let's compare and contrast completely unrelated things!!! and be smart!!!! WOO!!!

i've had it up to *here* today with idiots attempting to be intelligent by making comparisons between two or more events, situations, people, facts, etc. that are entirely unrelated to each other. in ...
Posted by a. on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 08:24:00 PST

number 4 biggest pet peeve.

...no. i don't really know what number this falls under in my giant list of "pet peeves" (does anyone else hate that term!?)...but, it's up there. somewhere. at least most of the time. i absolutely ab...
Posted by a. on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 10:42:00 PST

arggghhh.

yeah. people who message me and expect some kind of response should probably take into consideration the private status of their profiles. i cannot reply to messages sent from those who have private p...
Posted by a. on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 09:13:00 PST

i'm childish and i do not care about the world. at all.

yes, that is right, kiddies. because i have filled out my personal myspace profile with random fun facts about myself and posted pictures of...get this...this is a big one...MYSELF. i am childish. sel...
Posted by a. on Sat, 20 May 2006 03:09:00 PST

steaaaaling! steaaaaling!!!

people steal stuff from me.from layouts to my face.it's annoying. amusing at first. but damn annoying in the end.please stop.everyone.who may be stealing from me.or if you're even thinking about it.do...
Posted by a. on Mon, 08 May 2006 07:19:00 PST

regarding friend requests and my AIM sn...

i really don't like adding random people just because they visited panicked!! or MCT or any other website i've somehow been involved with. since this is my personal profile, it's a bit frustrating to ...
Posted by a. on Fri, 03 Mar 2006 11:42:00 PST

i am a special and important person.

well, kind of. i get to accept friend requests and stuff on MCT! andrew calls it being a mod or an admin or something fancy like that, but...pshhh. whatever, whatever. i say it just means i get to g...
Posted by a. on Wed, 15 Feb 2006 08:43:00 PST