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About Me


{God, touch my heavy heart. make it light.}
hello.
my name is ANaBiOtiC ©
i'm 19 and no, i'm not here for sex.
i'm sorry but lets make things clear here. if you're not going to talk to me, spare me the trouble of denying, don't bother adding me up. better yet, don't even think! thank you.
haa.
i died once. and i know exactly what it feels like to be nothing more than just a mere illusion. i'm tone deaf, i definitely can't sing. i wanna blow my nose, scream my lungs out and turn my insides out. i feel like smashing my mother's rearview mirror with my fist cause i hate looking back and cry. i'm tired of pretending. half my heart is on my father's arm. i am imperfect, i can't walk on waters, and i don't live to be. i love the rain cause nobody notices my tears falling. windows and sunsets can make me lonesome. t- junctions and road bends excites me. i want a notebook romance that bleeds, not the kind of romance you see in movies. i'm superstitious, i knock on woods. i'd like to flip a coin, and if i get a tail, i'll flip again. i want a black pet bunny. i spill things a lot and my hair doesn't always stay in place. i laugh way too hard, act too immature but you know what? i wouldn't have it any other way. and i hope it's okay for me to dance like i'm famous. please don't say you love me cause i'm alergic to bullshit. i don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. i will not compromise my integrity to obtain artificial happines. i may be bruised, but my soul is not broken. and every scar on my body is a lesson learnt. i put up these four walls around me not keep others out, i just wanna see who cares enough to tear them down. i want to walk the talk, win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, appreciate beauty and find the best in others, and i'd like to leave the world a bit better. lollypops makes me happy.
never say "i love you" if you really don't care. never talk about feelings if they aren't really there. never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart. never say you're going to- if you don't plan to start. never look into my eyes if all you do is lie. never say "hi" if you really mean goodbye. if you really mean forever then say you will try. never promise forever cause forever makes me cry.
random thoughts;
who do i trust, who do i kill, who do i love?
end.

My Interests


sXe What is Straight Edge?

Straight Edge is a more philosophical offshoot of the punk movement, a reaction to the hedonism and self-destruction that characterised punk.
The basic tenet of the philosophy centres around the issue of self-control.
The goal is to regain as much personal control over your own life as possible.
sXe is the only youth counter-culture to actively discourage drug use, alcohol use, and casual sex.
Straight Edge is a lifestyle centred around personal development and well being, while encouraging fun and togetherness.

sXe is not just about being into contemporary punk music acts and being against drugs. It goes deeper than this. The movement wishes to attract people away from dependancy lifestyles centred around drug habits (legal or illegal) and unhealthy and exploitative eating and general living habits common in modern cultures.

sXe is not dogmatic, there are no hard rules, these are for you to decide. Nobody should dictate like the police, or preach an ideology like the church or state.

Where Does the Name Straight Edge Come From?

According to legend, the drummer for Minor Threat [Jeff Nelson], one of the first bands to preach the "Stay Punk, Stay Clean" ethos, was drawing a poster for a show using a wood ruler. He commented to his bandmates that the ruler's straight edge was a metaphor for their lifestyle.

What are the X's for?

A common practice at all-ages punk shows was to mark minors with an "X" on their hands so they couldn't buy alcohol.
As the Straight Edge philosophy grew popular, punkers who were older than 18 but didn't drink for ideological reasons started to mark themselves with the X in a show of solidarity.

What does sXe mean?

sXe is really just an acronym for Straight Edge with the X thrown for good measure. It is pronounced, "sexy". (That's a joke, guys!) =P

Is Straight Edge a religion?

No. Although sXe embraces some of the moral values held by most major religions, sXe'ers don't necessarily believe in a God. There is no organised church or worship service. However, some sXe’ers are members of organised churches, temples or mosques where they feel that the sXe beliefs fit in. Straight Edgers say their life choices stem from a desire to be true to themselves and not from any religious beliefs.

How do I join the Straight Edge?

You don't join Straight Edge, you take on the Straight Edge. You just get involved in the scene and start thinking for yourself. The idea is to closely examine your own life, identify what factors influence your thoughts and behaviours, assess what impact they are having on your life and rid yourself of those factors which you deem to have a negative impact on your life.

Why do you need a label to be poison free?

The label shows you're actually serious about what you're saying and that you're not making any exceptions (although there is lots of hypocrisy, but this is ideally speaking). It's also a commitment thing, something to believe in.

Why give yourself a title?

This is something I (and no doubt many other sXe’ers) get asked quite frequently. No matter how I try to explain it, the majority of people still do not understand why I wish to give myself a title/ label. Someone in the forums, however, posted a good explanation. So here, thanks to Fustiar himself, is an explanation of why lots of us give ourselves the title of "Straight Edge".

"Why are we Straight Edge? Why are you human?

Straight Edge is a philosophy, but how are you supposed to explain it to others?

Do you wait until you're forced into a social situation and then say "I don't drink" or wait until someone thinks you're a drug addict to tell them "I don't do drugs" or can you just say "I'm Straight Edge" and give them an idea of your beliefs as a whole?

You have to realize it’s a whole lot more convenient to say "Straight Edge" rather than "not a drinker, not a druggie, doesn't smoke, not a 'slut' (I use the term loosely)".

Educated people will know, or inquire, or will look it up. It’s a way of life. It’s also a way of bonding together, comradery, so to speak.

It’s not an elitists club but the basis of the philosophy is that the choice you make is for the better.

Why 'label' yourself? Why are communist,s communists? There are countless 'labels' you probably apply to yourself based on your beliefs (I’m speaking in general).

Why should we be exempted or be thought odd because we do the same?"

Is taking caffeine Straight Edge?

Most sXe’ers seem to feel that caffeine is not an issue, whilst some do. So you can't really say that taking it is or isn't Straight Edge. Like a lot of Straight Edge, it's more about what you feel is right for you, rather than trying to adhere to some strict set of rules.

I used to drink and do drugs, can I still be sXe?

No problems about the past! It's all about the now. Otherwise no one could ever be sXe. But one thing that you should do before taking on sXe, is consider that it's for life so don't just play with it. It's not just a phase. Other sXe’ers will accept you if you're true from now on.

Is Straight Edge a crutch for the weak?

You have to question what the weakness is. Do sXe’ers not drink caffeine because they've got weak bladders? Don't touch alcohol because they have poor metabolisms? Don't smoke because they have poor lung capacity? What are the advantages of using drugs to one's level of consciousness? More often that not, drugs are used to facilitate social interactions by altering normal behavior and mood. If somebody needs an outside agent to interact, that sounds like more of a crutch.

I'd like to meet:

dad .

The Deep Cut.

Ian Mckay.

"thanxXx for showing me the path.
1st April 2005."
ANaBiOtiC ©

comments?

hurmm.

Music:



among others are;

Malaysian acts;

ACAB
Bittersweet
Bunkface!
Butterfingers
Disagree
Estranged
Jason Lo
Juliet the Orange
Love Me Butch
Nice Stupid Playground
OAG (the original line up, back in the 90s)
One Buck Short
Pop Shuvit
Single Track Mind
The Times

international acts:

30 Seconds to Mars
A Static Lullaby
A Thorn for Every Heart
AFI
Against Me
Against
Aiden
Alesana
Alexisonfire
Alkaline Trio
All that Remains
Alter Bridge
Armour for Sleep
Asian Kung Fu Generation
Atreyu
Audioslave
Avenged Sevenfold
Avril Lavigne
Ayumi Hamasaki
Bad Religion
Barenaked Ladies
Ben Folds
Benny Benassi
Better for Worse
Better than Ezra
Black Flag
Bleeding Dark
Bless the Fall
Blessed with Pain
Blink 182
Bloc Party
Bowling for Soup
Box Car Racer
Boy Set Fire
Boys like Girls
Bright Eyes
Bullet for My Valentine
Cake
Cartel
Catch 22
Chin Ho!
Coheed and Cambria
Collective Soul
Converge
Coquettish Brain
Cradle of Filth
Crossfade
Cute is what We Aim for
Damian Rice
Daniel Powter
Dashboard Confessional
Deftones
Disagree
Dishwalla
Duncan Sheik
Earth Crisis
Emery
Evan and Jaron
Eve 6
Eyes Set to Kill
F.I.S.T
Fall Out Boys
Ferry Corsten
Finch
Finger 11
Foo Fighters
For this I Have Fallen
Forever Sleep
Fountains of Wayne
Freefall Boston
From First to Last
Funeral for a Friend
Gerhana Ska Cinta
Gin Blossoms
Goldfingers
Goo Goo Dolls
Good Charlotte
Good Riddance
Gorilla Biscuits
Green Day
Handsome Pete
Hawthorne Heights
Hi Standard
HIM
Hindsight
I Killed the Prom Queen
In Flames
Incubus
Inspection 12
Jack Killed Jill
Jakarta Flames
Jason Mraz
Jimmy Eat World
Keane
Kelly Osbourne
Kittie
Ladyhawk
Lamb of God
Layaway Plan
Less than Jake
Lifehouse
Lily Allen
Linkin Park
Liz Phair
Long Shot Here
Loose End
Lost Prophets
Low Millions
Low Twelve
Matchbook Romance
Metimesthree
Michael Buble
Minor Threat
Misfits
Mock Orange
Modest Mouse
Mudvayne
Muse
MXPX
My Chemical Romance
Nat King Cole
New Found Glory
Next of Kin
Nightwish
Nine Days
NOFX
Norma Jean
Nothing Ever Stays
Number One Gun
Our Lady Peace
Panic! at the Disco
Pantera
Paparoach
Paramore
Parkway Avenue
Path of Resistance
Pete Yorn
Plain White Tee’s
Planet Shakers
POD
Pouch
Pug Jelly
Quietdrive
Rage Against the Machine
Relient K
Restrain
Rise Against
Rockett Queen
Sandal Jepit
Saosin
Saves the Day
Secondhand Serenade
Sevendust
Silverchair
Silverstein
Simple Plan
Slayer
Slipknot
Something Corporate
Sound Garden
Splender
Spunge
Staring Back
Static X
Stone Temple
Story of the Year
Straylight Run
Strife
Suede
Sugarcult
Sum 41
Swirl 360
System of a Down
Taking Back Sunday
Tetanus
The All American Rejects
The Anniversary
The Appleseed Cast
The Ataris
The Beattles
The Bleeding Alarm
The Blind King
The Calling
The Cure
The Donnas
The Fray
The Get Up Kids
The Living End
The Park Avenue
The President of USA
The Ramones
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
The Rembrants
The Used
The Veronicas
The Wonders
Third Eye Blind
Throw Down
Tokio Hotel
Trapt
Underoath
Unwritten Law
Vayden
Vertical Horizon
Verve Pipe
Wallflowers
Weezer
Whippersnipper
Yellowcard

i'd like to listen to;

A Secret Death
Alchemist
Astriaal
Auto Pilot Off
Bad Blood
Behind Crimson Eyes
Blood Duster
Carpathian
Daysend
Evergreen Terrace
Franken Book
From These Wounds
Giants of Science
Grand Fatal
Halo Friendlies
Infernal Method
Japanther
Japunga
Jimmies Chicken Shack
Karnivool
Lump
Lynchmada
Minus Life
Parkway Drive
Psycroptic
The Amity Affliction
The Casualties
The Disables
The Distillers
The Movie Life
xWishforWingsx

and anyone or any band i never heard of. good music deserves better!

Books:

Shadows of the Wind

God is a Bullet

Holiday in Death

Shipwrecked

Prozac Nation

The Black Dahlia

My Blog

I was bloody infected with Herpes Zoster!

Herpes Zoster. Herpes zoster, colloquially known as shingles, is the reactivation of varicella zoster virus, or VZV. The virus, one of the Herpesviridae group, leads to a group of painful blisters ove...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sun, 28 Oct 2007 11:43:00 PST

Your girlfriend is none of my business.

she might replace me for the better or for worse but i guess that doesn't even matter cuz you've got her under you now and everything has been transmitted nonetheless anyhow i for one was the lucky pr...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 08:32:00 PST

Please. Dont say you L O V E me.

"who are you to judge the life i live? i know i'm not perfect and i don't live to be. but before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean." Bob Marley   thank you for making m...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Wed, 03 Oct 2007 07:58:00 PST

Straight Edge, the history and future of a positive movement.

Lets go back to the early '80s. A time of punk rock and its death from the public eye. Here in North America punk moved underground. The early punk scene was filled with kids who felt betrayed by soc...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:30:00 PST

the Jenna Pritchard story.

Jenna Pritchard was a good girl. She had blue eyes and blonde hair and she never, ever, wore dirty clothes. She was always on time for school, she got good marks and she didn't skip class. On Saturday...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 08:33:00 PST

a short story.

Once upon a time there was a young girl named Ana.  Ana was 19 years old and lived in Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.  While walking home from school one day, a black beaver jumped out from behind a b...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Mon, 10 Sep 2007 07:04:00 PST

truth.

..>..> ..> 1 - What's in your wallet? cash, ID card, receipts. 2 - What's under your bed? dust. 3 - What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet? again dust. 4 - What's in ...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:45:00 PST

crayola.

I took the quiz and went, "And I never really liked yellow all that much."   What Hue Are You?Psychologists say everyone has a color that reflects her personality style. So go Crayola-crazy and ...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:25:00 PST

granny panties!

..> ..> According to The Underwear Quiz I am currently wearing : Granny Panties..>..>...
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sun, 09 Sep 2007 10:00:00 PST

ungiven Glory.

When my love is a gun and your lust is the dagger....
Posted by ANaBiOtiC © on Sat, 28 Jul 2007 01:26:00 PST