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Make something of yourself or search for
someone else who makes you feel real.
Brandon.P.Hart
16|Malmesbury|Single|Year 11
Maths|English|Music|Spanish
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My resolution for 2009 is...To cheer up.
Im shit at drawing. But give me a black pen and a white peice of paper and I will see what i can come up with :]
How clichéd but i love my friends. Everyone says it but you know. Love my family too. I like myspace more than Facebook. I Hate School but love going to School. I listen to loads of music. I go out after school and sit in the park or under the bypass. I love eating out but hate trying new food. I love holidays but not to places i have to have a jab for. I want to see space but i dont beleive in planets. I like English litterature but i dont understand it one bit. I wish i read more, and i wish my hand writing was better. I find it hard to get to know new people. But i love meeting new people. A party with my closest friends is a million times better than a party with a thousand people. I will always pick my friends over anything. I want to be in a band but dont have the balls. I want to get fit but cant find the time. I want to find a style that is perfect for me. I hate how i have a fringe. But love doing my hair. I like jeans but shorts are way better. I love holidays with my friends but hate holidays with family. I want to meet Lee Evans. I miss friends when i go away. I love gigs. I want to go to more festivals. I dont like being judged. I hate telling people personal things but always seem to do it. I always hide my sadness. Unless its really bad. I love guitars. I wish i was good. I want to do photography but i want to stay in 6th form. I want a job but i cant be arsed. I hate txt talk. But i do it all the time. I love my xbox. Dont dis. I like films. I hate TV. I like interesting photo's which make you think. I like quotes which change your feelings. I like cuddling on a bed with anyone. I love getting hugs of my closest friends. And im not ashamed to say i love hugs off boys. Espesh friends who i never see. Its not gay. Its friendly and i will respect you for it. Hug your fucking friends. They need it. I love my mum and dad. I like two stepping even though i look like a dick. I dont want a fringe but what else do i get? I will look a dick. I want to get tattoo's. I want peircings. I dont want a normal job.
I want a Life.
I want to go see something like this

Recently i have fell in love with tattoos and i want to get tattoos so bad. And peircings. They are possibly the coolest things in the world. I cant think of any better way to express how you feel inside, whether its missing a loved one or treasuring a moment you have enjoyed i think they are amazing.
Im not gonna delete any of this writing from my myspace so i can remember all my thoughts. I find it easy to write thoughts down but hard to remember them.
I went shopping today. I kind of like shopping. Just seems so robotic though. I dislike how everyone just walks into a shop picks something up, puts it back down and walks out. Also i went in harvey nicoles, and fuck me! The people in there cant dress themselves for shit. Whats the point in buying expencive clothes if you look a tit. I mean superdry fred perry etc that kinda stuff, fine, if its a fucking nice jumper or a good shirt. Why do people buy green jeans with a fucking japanese dragon on the back. for like 1000 pounds. WTF? makes me angry that people have that kinda money to throw away and buy shit with it. If you going to do that donate it to a fucking charity or something. dont buy that shit puffer body warmer with D&G on it because its not fucking worth it. nvm.
I think I rant too much.
I find that whenever im with someone I just rant about stuff. Which is'nt a good thing I guess. But i love talking about music. It's something I love. Alot.
I would one day like to be told i was someones idol. That would be cool. Not that i think im very idolistic but i just think it would show that someone cares. Also i would like to make my parents proud of me. No matter what i do.
I think I've found her but I havnt had a peice of her yet.
I love having little chats with ant about music and lyrics. They're the best chats ever, and I wouldn't change them for the world. I love him being in my house. and sleeping in my bed. Its amazing. Even though we do sweat like pigs. haha.
I think that one of the worst things that can happen to anyone is falling out with the people that mean the most to them. I hate it. It happened to me recently, or at least i feel like I have fallen out with a friend, and it feels shit. I hate not being able to talk to them comfortably again. I will sort it out Im sure. Just hate that.
Also i have been drawing and writing a lot and I seem to be able to write or draw how I feel. I have been writing songs. I would share them but I don't think songs mean anything without music so I am not going to haha. But I am loving drawing and writing at the moment.
I need to just fucking get a grip a cease the moment. I think I am missing to many opportunities to get what I want. Because I'm scared that I will look a fool.
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"You could be happy and I won't know But you weren't happy the day I watched you go And all the things that I wish I had not said Are played on lips 'til it's madness in my head Is it too late to remind you how we were? But not our last days of silent, screaming blur Most of what I remember makes me sure I should have stopped you from walking out the door You could be happy, I hope you are You made me happier than I'd been by far Somehow everything I own smells of you And for the tiniest moment it's all not true Do the things that you always wanted to Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do More than anything I want to see you go Take a glorious bite out of the whole world"
I believe in you.
Im realizing that the best days that I am going to have are sitting at the top of a hill with a group of the best friends in the world and doing fuck all. Not days spent getting drunk/high at festivals but (maybe a bit high) sat on the top of a hill taking in the sun.