About Me
Who is Calvin?
A Rock…. A Parent…. A Protector…. A Nurse…. A Dreamer…. A Lover…. A symbol of endurance.
How I Approach Life and How I Appear To Others:
I have a sensible and realistic outlook on life. My feet are always planted firmly on the ground. Though I may, on occasion, have my head in the clouds. Others often see me as a rock of strength, solid, reliable, dependable, and constant. In fact, I’m amazingly consistent for I possess great powers of endurance and do not like to make changes in my regular routine. I do things deliberately, methodically and do not easily accommodate the unexpected. Though, I’ve been told I have a gentle, even soft, appearance; enormously strong-willed and stubborn. I like to go at my own pace and refuse to be rushed or pushed into anything before I feel sure about it. I can be coaxed and persuaded by charm, beauty, love, or affection - but never forced. Won't fight either, but simply stubbornly resist any attempt to coerce me to do something I don’t want to do.When I have a purpose, I’m extremely fixed, immovable, and bull-headed about it. My abstinence is often infuriating to others, especially since it takes much provocation to make me flare up or respond to their anger. I appear calm, unruffled, and non-emotional most of the time, but behind my easy going and peaceable appearance there lies great strength. When it comes to a contest of wills, I often win simply due to my relentless persistence and my ability to outlast just about anyone. Another reason for my slowness to make changes is my very strong need for security. I’m most comfortable in stable, relatively unchanging conditions and also have a strong desire for tangible security - a home of my own, money in the bank, job-security, etc. The other side of my steadiness is that I easily get caught in a rut and will stay in a familiar situation (be it job or whatever) long after it has lost its vitality and interest.I have a keen appreciation of the natural world and get much happiness from simple creature comforts and the physical world, with all of its myriad delights. I’m quite sensual in a very natural, wholesome way and Calvin knows how to enjoy himself. I’m appealing to the opposite sex in an earthy way. Also, a great lover of beauty and tastes are basically conventional or classic - not modern.The Inner Me:
I have powerful emotional attachments to the past, my family, my childhood, places that I associate with safety and security. My beginnings, plays a big impact on my future. Maintaining a connection with my roots, heritage and keeping family bonds strong are very important to me. Loyal, devoted, and sentimental, I tend to cling on tight to whatever is dear to me. Whether it be, possessions, a familiar place, or people who I cherished.I’m sympathetic, nurturing, supportive, and very sensitive to the emotional needs of other people. I like to be needed, to care for others, and I often worry about the people I love. I have a very strong need for a sense of belonging, acceptance, and also center much of my life around my environments. I’m more concerned about people than with power, achievement, or position in society. Kindness, consideration, and tenderness matters to me more than any sort of honor the world can bestow.Primarily, I’m emotional and my views are often dominated by my feelings and own personal, subjective experiences, rather than reason, logic, or abstract principles. It is difficult for me to judge situations in a fair, objective manner for my personal sympathies and loyalties usually enter in. Yes, I take things very personally, and sometimes build a wall around myself to protect me from the pain and rejection. I feel rather shy and vulnerable at heart. Also tend to be moody, experiencing frequent emotional ups and downs. I need to have a place and time in my life to withdraw, introspect, dream, and replenish myself; otherwise I’ll become cranky and unhappy with those around me.
I function in an instinctive, non-rational manner and like to immerse myself in creative activities where I can express my feelings, imagination, and instincts. Often, I love to cook, since it can be both creative and a way to nurture and nourish others. I have a great affinity for music, because it evokes and communicates feelings that may be difficult or impossible to put into words.
Compassion, sensitivity, and imagination are my strong points. My faults include an inability to release the past and go forward, clannishness, prejudice, and a tendency to be self-pitying when I meet hardships in life.