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I like to read
"The Edge... there is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over. The others-the living-are those who pushed their control as far as they felt they could handle it, and then pulled back, or slowed down, or did whatever they had to when it came time to choose between Now and Later." - H.S. Thompson
words I am fond of:
pity this busy monster,manunkind,
not. Progress is a comfortable disease:
your victum(death and life safely beyond)
plays with the bigness of his littleness
-electrons deify one razorblade
into a mountainrange;lenses extend
unwish through curving wherewhen until unwish
returns on its unself.
A world of made
is not a world of born-pity poor flesh
and trees,poor stars and stones,but never this
fine specimen of hypermagical
ultraomnipotence. We doctors know
a hopeless case if-listen:there's a hell
of a good universe next door;let's go
- e. e. cummings
"The greeks belived that true beauty (as opposed to mere prettines) was the offspring of these two opposing tendencies, which they personified in Apollo and Dionysus, their two gods of art. Great art is born when Apollonian form and Dionysian ecstasy are held in balance, when our dreams of order and abandon come together...Apollo and Dionysus were the names the Greeks gave to these two faces of nature, and nowhere in nature is their test as plain or poignant as it is in the beauty of a flower and its rapid passing. There, the achievement of order against all odds and its blithe abandonment. There, the perfection of art and the blind flux of nature. There, somehow, both transcedance and necessity. Could that be it- right there, in a flower- the meaning of life?"
-Michael Pollan, "The Botany of Desire: A Plant's-Eye View of the World"

My Blog

to the resident of my spine:

Itchy tension reverberates throughout my (nervous)system.I want to love you, brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, children.Gotta keep treading water to stay afloat  (don't you know)I can't(won't)despi...
Posted by on Fri, 16 Jan 2009 12:10:00 GMT

On residual selves.

Recently I've lost some weight.  A bit actually.   I excercise regularly, eat well, practice yoga, and feel great- physically. I never anticipated the non-plasticity of my self-image ho...
Posted by on Thu, 06 Nov 2008 22:34:00 GMT

you have been temporarily disconnected from server.

Perhaps it's school that's shoved me back into disconnected-mode.  There's so much shit running through my mind all the time I don't know what to focus on.  Well, more like I don't know what...
Posted by on Fri, 03 Oct 2008 17:49:00 GMT

Independence Daze.

This was an assignment I wrote for my CG199 class.  I liked it.    Coming of age doesn't happen in an instant.  It builds slowly; day by day, experience by experience, until that ...
Posted by on Thu, 11 Sep 2008 02:59:00 GMT

actions will always speak louder than words.

Once again, I believed all those silly lies you told me.  You know, the ones where you actually cared about somebody other than yourself.  Maybe even me. And in my blindess which I was so wi...
Posted by on Thu, 24 Jul 2008 11:26:00 GMT

stars

Remy liked to walk at night.   There was something soothing in the rhythmic beat of her feet against the world that kept drawing her back when all else failed.  No matter the situation, noth...
Posted by on Sun, 13 Jul 2008 19:56:00 GMT

Solo

I bet i'm not the only one whose ever felt surrounded by a zombie-like scourge of idiots. I've decided that I'd rather have no friends at all than an entourage of idiots.  You may choose as you l...
Posted by on Sat, 05 Jul 2008 13:58:00 GMT

on change.

I've decided to say "fuck it" to altering my mindset with drugs. It's been said that you can't become addicted to pot.  I'm not arguing against this.  But I can't think clearly when I'm sto...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:49:00 GMT

Déjà Puke

I puked today at the gym again.  At least this time I actually made it outside (woohoo). I woke up this morning, my head full of residual worries that I'd hoped the night would sweep away. I need...
Posted by on Sat, 21 Jun 2008 14:56:00 GMT

Breaking the Levee

It happens every once in a blue moon.  All the chaos rampaging around in my head stops still and begins to float to the bottom of the glass. Thoughts fall into a pattern, and for a breif mom...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 17:57:00 GMT