First Time Mommy!!!!

FYI This was meant to be in list form!!! Not one huge paragraph!!I am what I am!! I am a crazy but very giving girl!! I am hard working, friendly, outgoing, determined, positive, open-minded, and very sporadic type of person.My parents are divorced. I went to pretty strict catholic schools my whole life (including all girl high school)!!!I went to college! I attended college for Business management! I still do not know what i want to be when I grow up!! I am now studying radiological technology! I want to continue on in pharmacology if all goes well!! I wasm in the United States Army!! I have tattoos!! I am a free spirit!! I love baseball Games!! I like MOnday night football at HOOTERS!! I can settle for big wang's LOL!! I play volleyball and Soccer!! I love it!! I was a chearleader!! I love to dance, I used to want to be a dancer! I managed a tattoo shop.. Boulevard Tattoo in Hollywood CA.. I made some of my best friends in that shop!! I have lots of tattoos and piercings.. most hidden tho!! I have worked in shoes for 14 yrs among all of my other career paths and no matter what some how I keep going back to SHOES!! I love shoes!! I am good at it.. I know anything and everythign about sheos all shoes from how they are made to the history of the designer to how long they will last u LOL!! Hey I am good!!! SOO MAybe that is what I should be doing instead of keep going back to college for 101 degrees ;) I worked at SHOE CARNIVAL for 10 yrs! I worked at DSW, Kids'r us shoes LOL and now on top of modeling I work at a shoe store LMAO!!! Who does that modeling or shoes? hmm u would think that would be a no brainer LMAO I am not reserved as much as I might like to be sometimes!!! I am LOUD!! I used to be called the noid (the dominoes mascot) when I was a kid by the emloyees at stop n go and Dominoes in cheviot!! I was annoying,. but I also played a huge part in their amusement!!(so they loved it) I like to stay in touch with friends!! I used to run a collections company!! I was real good at it!! I am also very much in debt... Thanks to my being very irresponsible(in my past) and well many tragic events!!! I lost my brother and well he was the closest person to me my whole life this past year and well it sucks!!! I believe he took part of my heart and soul with him. So to all those who have lost someone so very close My heart goes out to u. I am now catching up, and making somewhat good money for a horrible recession!! I work on UK television!! My job is very stressful, but I am very dedicated to it and lucky to have it!! I love to shop!! I ramble!! I smoke 420!! I drink (rarely)!! (I am a summer time drinker LOL) I smoke cigarettes (socially)(when drinking) I put tapatio,salt, and lime in my corona's!! I like cherry vodka and red bull!! I smoke basic full flavored.. NOt because I am cheap, I REALLY LIKE THE WAY THEY TASTE!! I love MUSIC and all kinds of it!!! I am finding myself!!! I am tired fo fake ass people!! I am tired of users and abusers!! I just want to be me!! If u do not like it U do not have to be here!! I can be a bitch!! I am generally a nice person!! I am a very GIVING person!! I am a pushover!! I have had many people close to me use me, screw me over, and well I am starting 2 find it hard to trust people!! I am naive! I want to get in top shape!! I want it all!! I plan on making it to the top one way or another! I am gullible! I am not perfect! I have been legally dead 2 times!! I believe I am meant for something great! I am Lucky! I have great friends that I do not give enough time to! I have a great family I do not give enough time to! I have a super sweet chihuaua he is brown and tan and super hyper.. LIke me! I am super ADD! I have terrible insomnia! I like 2 rollerskate, bowl, play darts, pool, and go to strip clubs and watch the girlies dance!! Jumbo's Clown room is super fun!! I love to write!! I write amazing poetry!! I am a hopeless romantic!! I am half punk and half girlie girl LOL! I am one of a kind BABY!! I love 2 be outside! I love warm weather! I love the beach! I am confused! I am still young! I have alot to learn! Life is short! I must learn to enjoy ! Please NEVER ask me what I am lookign for! I am tryign to find myself OK!! LMAO Seriously I have no clue what I am looking for I still am not even sure who I am!! Hey We have all been there I am still on that journey through life! I am young still and learning, but I am always happy to take advice and direction!! (well kind of LOL)get your own layout here. *click here* for new layouts!