Nice to meet you. Before we start I thought I should tell you that I'm a unique walking contradiction. HA! Im Ashley, but you may call me Ashez. 80's baby. Columbus Ohio is my home. Born and raised in the MIDWEST. 22 year old virgo, and yes it fit's me. I live like a rockstar and Im chasing that money. Im that bitch that your mom warned you about. I can be your best kept secret, or your worst nightmare. Take your pick. My rudeness with intrigue you. I'm filled with anger and Im embodied in truth. Dont make me show you =). Please dont waste your time by stating you want to me my man/bitch. I've already heard it a million times, and it's become old. Im always trying to win. Some people think I'm a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. I have a lot of random thoughts that run through my mind, my mind moves at a thousand. My flaw's are what make me, and you will NEVER know my next move. My kindness tends to be taken for a weakness, but dont let it fool you. I walk with a midwest swagga. Stuntin' on these ho's is my profession. Im brutally honest & vulgar as I wanna be. Shit on me and I'll shit on you. Im blunt as hell and I will verbally fuck you. Im on a mission for change and I'll knock down anything that get's in my way. Want to test me?
I believe that everything in life has a purpose. Im still trying to figure out my destination and what God has in store for me. I'm also quite the dreamer and my imagination is always in constant motion. I love life, I'm always eager to learn and experience new things and to explore all that life has to offer. Im very misunderstood, and I love that because people are always trying to figure me out. Music and poetry are my fixation and ultimate high. I listen to every genre. I used to try to hide my real identity, but I now believe in myself and Im not afraid to show that Im what society label's as a typical vulnerable white girl caught up in the mix.
Im a thinker and a dreamer of goals beyond my grasp. To really know me is to learn who I am. I'm very open-minded and free-spirited and I'm constantly pushing my own limits. I need constant change in my life or I'll be bored. I think it's ones imperfections and unique experiences that make each one of us interesting. I put a guard up and its up to you rather you want to try to knock that down. I have only a few select close friends but they have my heart. To really know me is to learn who I am. Not many people really know me, they just assume they do. If I let you in that means I really love you. Dont expect perfect. Through the pain and heartbreak I am me. Love me or leave me alone.
Watch my next step and catch up because I am more then what meet's the eye. PALEEZE believe it :).
I'm addicted to shopping. Im in love with colorful shoes, big hoops, big 80's glasses and big purses. I love fashion. Catch me in heels, or some dunks. I change like the wind.
I am ;To myself Im an arcane. Understood or only known by few. Fractious is what other's see me as. Tending to cause trouble. Deep down Im plangent. My heart is beating with a loud sound expressing it's sadness. Mise well be solance because Im always comforted in greif. Very nonchalant when I come vapid...spiritless. I only pray for elysium...paradise. I wish for velleity...a slight wish. Sometime's people become malcontent with me...discontented. I contemplate my own thought's, feeling's and sensations so title me as an introspection. Inside my soul 2 word's to describe me would be intricate and termagant. A scolding nagging bad tempered WOMAN who has many complexly arranged thoughts. I can only give what I have. Dry tear drop's...The feeling you get when the beat stops. There arent any excuse's for me now. I need a luminary to give me some light so i can stop melting in my own shame. I'm a human, but many perceive me as a product of love taking a chance. The word's that roll off my tongue are embodied in truth.
Im gaining a new perception of the plan god has in store for me. It seem's very intriguing. I'm screaming out thought's. No one here to listen but paper.....but then again the ink is fading.
YES I WROTE THIS, PLEASE DONT TRY TO USE IT, UNLESS YOU ARE TRYING TO BE ME.
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QUOTES ;"When we spend our time focusing on negative people and negative experiences, we end up missing opportunities and blocking our blessings"
"I truly believe life is a hustle. It's interaction with fine and freaky people. It's negotiating, sometimes, with folk you wouldn't want in your home. It's making things happen when you think you can't. Its conquering fears, reland and imagined, on the daily. it's why, though i'm not "powder burned" (like Young Jeezy and the Clipse) or the veteran of bullet wounds (like 50 cent), I can relate. We act as if we're so far away from "the hustler" mentality and the culture it breeds, but we're not. It's everywhere. It's heartbreakingly emotional; it goes to the core of primal desires to escape pain, to feel secure, and to be, in reality or in our own minds, number one."--Danyel Smith(VIBE MAGAZINE)