My name is Ryan Holt. I'll soon be 28 years old later on this summer. I have a 4 year old Boxer named Rocky, who is more or less my boy. I consider myself to be a real, easy going, laid back kind of guy. I think sometimes people get the wrong impression from me, however, and are intimidated. I might be super blunt and have a wee bit of a temper, but ask anyone.... I'm just a big teddy bear. I'm extemely busy. I work, go to school, have my own TV show, go to meetings, and in there somewhere try to be a part of my family and friends' lives. It's all really just a huge juggling act, and unfotunately sometimes I drop all the balls. But, I pick them up and start over the best I can. I am a legally blind, 2 time kidney transplant patient, recovering alcoholic/drug addict who has needless to say been emotionally, physically, and spiritually to the gates of insanity and death and but for the Grace of God have had my feet placed on New Ground, which I am eternally grateful and humbled by as I continue to learn how to live life one day at a time. So that's me.
“Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.â€
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"Live Before You Die"
By: Social Distortion
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When pressures up and the stress is high
And I wanna bid this world good bye.
I'm gonna bury my frustrations
Grab some of life's satisfactions.
Yeah, I'm gonna live before I die!
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I try to find some peace of mind
When my life's treating me unkind.
Pain will be my motivation
I'm gonna use my imagination.
Yeah, I'm gonna live before I die!
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So close your eyes, and embrace your memories
Leave your troubles and your worries far behind.
Stop contemplating and start celebrating
Yeah, you gotta live before you die!
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I think of chances I didn't take
I try to learn from my mistakes, yeah.
I'm tired of being pushed around now
Life ain't gonna drag me down now.
Yeah, I'm gonna live before I die!
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So close your eyes, and embrace your memories
Leave your troubles and your worries far behind.
Stop contemplating and start celebrating
Yeah, you gotta live before you die!
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If you want to know more, just WATCH!
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"IF...."
By: Rudyard Kipling
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IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
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If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ‘em up with worn-out tools:
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If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
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If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!
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