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I am not your fairytale.

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About Me


D I S C O U R S E
M A T T E R S
i am this:
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Years ago in Greenwich Village, in the long-lost days when radicals sometimes spoke from "soap boxes", I was about to start a speech in Sheridan Square late one afternoon when a cop came up and told me to stop. I didn't say "Look, you wretched running dog of the imperialist state, I know the Constitution, I have a right to speak, and I defy you to arrest me". Instead I said "I think I have a right to speak, However I'll get down while you check with your captain. After fifteen minutes, when you've had a chance to check it, I'll get back up and speak - if your captain thinks it is legal to arrest me, then you can". The cop walked off, fifteen minutes later I got up and kept on talking - the cop never returned.
[David McReynolds]
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You're only given a little spark of madness. You musn't lose it.
[Robin Williams]
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The only people for me are the mad ones, the mad ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say commonplace things but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars...
[Jack Kerouac]
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Books won't stay banned. They won't burn. Ideas won't go to jail. In the long run of history, the censor and the inquisitor have always lost. The only weapon against bad ideas is better ideas.
[Alfred Whitney Griswold]
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If you can't take a bloody nose, then maybe you ought to go back home and crawl under your bed. It's not safe out here. It's wondrous....with treasures to satiate desires both subtle and gross. But it's not for the timid.
[Star Trek]
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Go without a coat when it's cold; find out what cold is. Go hungry; keep your existence lean. Wear away the fat, get down to the lean tissue and see what it's all about. The only time you define your character is when you go without. In times of hardship, you find out what you're made of and what you're capable of. If you're never tested, you'll never define your character.
[Henry Rollins]
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Thank you for touching me. Some of the only moments worth living were spent with you. Not you especially, the collective you.
[Henry Rollins]
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I know that I brought this all on myself. I know I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. [...] Just tell me how to be different in a way that makes sense. To make this all go away. And disappear. I know that's wrong because it's my responsibility, and I know that things get worse before they get better, but this is a worse that feels too big.
[Stephen Chbosky]
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I've said it before and I'll say it again: kneecaps only exist to get hit with claw-hammers; grace only exists to be fallen from.
[Glen Duncan]
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Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. Hate multiplies hate, violence multiplies violence, and toughness multiplies toughness in a descending spiral of destruction. The chain reaction of evil, hate begetting hate, wars producing more wars must be broken, or we shall be plunged into the dark abyss of annihilation. Hate destroys a man's sense of values and his objectivity. It causes him to describe the beautiful as ugly and the ugly as beautiful, and to confuse the true with the false and the false with the true.
[MLK JR.]
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I believe that today more than ever a book should be sought after even if it has only one great page in it. We must search for fragments, splinters, toenails, anything that has ore in it, anything that is capable of resuscitating the body and soul.
[Henry Rollins]
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Everything is always okay in the end. If things aren't okay, then it's not the end.
[Anon.]
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I must create my own system, or be enslaved by another man's.
[William Blake]
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We are made to bleed.
And scab, and heal, and bleed again.
And turn every scar into a joke.
We are made to fight.
And fuck, and talk, and fight again.
And sit around and laugh until we choke.
[Ani Difranco]
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Let me never fall into the vulgar mistake of dreaming I am persecuted whenever I am contradicted.
[Ralph Waldo Emerson]
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What a man sees or hears depends a great deal upon where he is standing. It also depends on what sort of person he is.
[CS Lewis]
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Patriotism assumes that our globe is divided into little spots, each one surrounded by an iron gate. Those who have had the fortune of being born on some particular spot, consider themselves better, nobler, grander, more intelligent than the living beings inhabiting any other spot. It is, therefore, the duty of everyone living on that chosen spot to fight, kill, and die in the attempt to impose his superiority upon all others. The inhabitants of the other spots reason like manner, of course.
[Emma Goldman]
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Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can't take it, like my heart will cave in.
[American Beauty]
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If all mankind minus one were of one opinion, mankind would be no more justified in silencing that one person than he, if he had the power, would be justified in silencing mankind.
[JS Mill]
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Everyone has their own form of heroin.
[Kurt Cobain]
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Do I contradict myself? Fine, then I contradict myself.
I am large; I contain multitudes.
[Walt Whitman]
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If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is a part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves does not disturb us.
[Hermann Hesse]
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If you hate your parents, the man or the establishment, don't show them up by getting wasted and wrapping your car around a tree. If you really want to rebel against your parents: out learn them, out live them, and know more than they do.
[Henry Rollins]
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The reasonable man adapts himself to the world. The unreasonable man persists in trying to adapt the world to himself.
Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man.
[George Bernard Shaw]
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This was not a fairy tale. This was not the movies. This was life. It hurt more. It was excruciating. It was excruciatingly beautiful.
[Francesca Lia Block]
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Self-hate is self-obsession.
[Oscar Wilde]
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When was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? to have it all come out right, to surprise yourself with how together you could be. When was the last time you ever met someone who made you want to give it all to them? I mean give yourself to them. Where you couldn't express yourself enough-like you wanted to cut off one of your arms to be understood. That's it--you would cut your head off to have someone understand you. You know how pointless that one is. You know how many times you've smashed yourself to bits on the rocks.
[Henry Rollins]
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I am. I am. I am.
[Silvia Plath]
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I don't need no one to hold me, I can hold my own.
[Ani Difranco]
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My Interests

the suicide girls, battle royal, a clockwork orange, cs lewis, the sandman, henry rollins petty head games, aimless conversations, ka applegate, boys don't cry, the spill canvas, books, rogue, angry girls, anita blake, sexuality, are you afraid of the dark, not being emo, history, girls, communication, thinking, debate, animorphs, politics, kurt cobain, alex mack, bust, camp anawana, buffy the vampire slayer, challenges, deism, american beauty, david bowie, music, post secret, arguing, picturesofwalls.com, journals, history, nine inch nails, hating the universe, music, louise glück, modern art or something, learning, philosophy, found magazine, the endless, unintentional beauty, k-pax, daydreams, narnia, propaganda, trashy girls, the breakfast club, the color when you close your eyes and look at the sun, not feeling awkward, being challenged, creating, t-shirts, converting oxygen into carbon dioxide, you

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"It's not very pleasant in my corner of the world at three-o-clock in the morning. But for people who like cold, wet, ugly bits it is something rather special."
[Eeyore]
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We're not lost. We're right here!
[Tigger]

I'd like to meet:


Music:

Shit I listen to, some much more than others:

!!!, 30 Seconds to Mars, 65daysofstatic, A Perfect Circle, Acceptance, Against Me!, Alanis Morrisette, Amanda Marshall, Angels and Airwaves, Ani DiFranco, Anna Nalick, Anti-Flag, Apples in Stereo, Athlete, Atmosphere, the Audition, Bad Brains, Bad Religion, Badly Drawn Boy, the Barenaked Ladies, Bauhaus, the Beach Boys, Bear vs Shark, the Beatles, Ben Folds, Ben Folds Five, Ben Harper, the Bens, Beulah, Big Black, Bikini Kill, Bjork, Blind Melon, Boards of Canada, Bob Dylan, Bon Jovi, Breaking Benjamin, the Breeders, Brian Eno, the Brunettes, Butch Walker, Butchies, Butthole Surfers, the Buzzcocks, Catie Curtis, Charlotte Martin, Chin Up Chin Up, City and Colour, Cocteau Twins, Counting Crows, the Cure, Cursive, Cute is What We Aim For, Damien Rice, the Dandy Warhols, David Bowie, Dead Can Dance, Dead Kennedys, Deadsy, the Dears, the Decemberists, Delays, Depeche Mode, Diana Krall, Dinosaur Jr, Dogs Die In Hot Cars, the Doors, Draco and the Malfoys, the Dredsen Dolls, the Eagles, Echo and the Bunnymen, the Eels, Electric President, Elefant, Envy, Explosions in the Sky, Fall Out Boy, Fields of the Nephilim, the Foo Fighters, Frank Black, Frank Zappa, Franz Ferdinand, the Fray, Frou Frou, Fugazi, Future Bible Heroes, Gin Blossoms, God Lives Underwater, Goo Goo Dolls, Good Luck Mr. Gorski, the Gothic Archies, Graham Coxon, Great Big Sea, Green Day, Harry and the Potters, Hole, Hope For Agoldensummer, Husker Du, I Can Make a Mess Like Nobody's Buisness, I Love You But I've Chosen Darkness, Idlewild, Jack Off Jill, Jeff Buckley, the Jesus and Mary Chain, Jimmy Buffett, Jimmy Eat World, John Mayer, Johnny Cash, Josie and the Pussycats, Joy Division, kd lang, the Killers, Kings of Convience, L7, Last Week, Le Tigre, Leonard Cohen, The Libertines, Liz Phair, Lou Barlow, Lou Reed, Louis XIV, Love and Rockets, Lynn Miles, the Magnetic Fields, Manic Street Preachers, Marilyn Manson, Marvelous 3, Matchbox 20, Melissa Etheridge, Melissa Ferrick, Mew, Michael Jackson, the Mighty Mighty Bosstones, Miles Davis, Mindless Self-Indulgence, Ministry, the Minutemen, Mission of Burma, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Morrissey, the Mountain Goats, Mudhoney, Muse, Nada Surf, Neutral Milk Hotel, New Order, the New Pornographers, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, Nightwish, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, No Doubt, NOFX, Our Lady Peace, Ours, Panic! At the Disco, Patti Smith, Pavement, Peaches, Pete Yorn, Peter Murphy, Pixies, PJ Harvey, Placebo, the Postal Service, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Queen, REM, Radiohead, Rage Against the Machine, the Raincoats, the Ramones, Red Lorry Yellow Lorry, Relient K, the Replacements, Rilo Kiley, Rockapella, the Rolling Stones, Savage Garden, Scarling, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, Sebadoh, She Wants Revenge, the Shins, Shonen Knife, Sigur Ros, Silverchair, Siouxsie and the Banshees, the Sisters of Mercy, Sleater-Kinney, Slowrush, the Smiths, Sneaker Pimps, Snow Patrol, Sonic Youth, Sophie B. Hawkins, Soul Asylum, Soundgarden, Spice Girls, the Spill Canvas, Spoon, Sprites, Starsailor, Stone Temple Pilots, Straylight Run, the Subways, Sufjan Stevens, Suicidal Tendencies, Sun Kil Moon, Super Furry Animals, Switchblade Symphony, System of a Down, Taking Back Sunday, Tears For Fears, Tegan and Sara, Televison, These Arms Are Snakes, Thursday, Tom Petty, Tom Waits, Tori Amos, TV on the Radio, Two Nice Girls, U2, the Used, the Vandals, the Velvet Underground, Veruca Salt, Violent Femmes, Volcano I'm Still Excited!!, Weird Al, the Wreckers, Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Movies:

Do you really think I can sit still through a movie?

(only occasionally)

[The Breakfast Club. Stand By Me. To Kill a Mockingbird. The Crucible. Boys Don't Cry. American Beauty. K-PAX. A Clockwork Orange. V for Vendetta.]

Television:

I don't watch TV.

Books:

Too many to name. I read more than I do practically anything else.

Heroes:

REVOLUTIONS.

You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life. [Winston Churchill]

My Blog

dear world

dear world,i'm about to bubble over with happiness, like a warmth that's inside of me that keeps spilling out of my chest. and i know that doctors in their jackets would call this mania and give me me...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Sun, 07 Oct 2007 08:42:00 PST

caved in

dear world, you've taken me on quite a spin. i'm dizzy and a little breathless from the ride and my palms are still bleeding from wipe outs. but they'll heal imbedded with small rocks and pieces of g...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Thu, 03 May 2007 03:28:00 PST

Soap Box Soap Opera

sayin i should stop bein' so cynicalcause we're hotter when we don't give a damnWhatever happened to radicals that spoke from soap boxes? I want to walk through a park and see some 'crazy' DESPER...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 09:32:00 PST

Everyone has their own form of heroin. - Kurt Cobain

There's this...thing...that's happening. Remind me to type what my pencil vomited in class the last few days. It's been busy scratching. I totally need something I don't have. ...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Sat, 14 Oct 2006 09:00:00 PST

Myspace/Big Brother/Weapons of Mass Distraction

There is a bulletin going around that claims Tom is deleting myspace. As you are probably more concerned about this than, say, starving children, you're probably very familiar with the tedious process...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Thu, 28 Sep 2006 10:08:00 PST

angst!angst!angst!

i wanna paint my face and pretend that i am someone else...sometimes i get so fed up i don't even wanna look at myself...     and i hate the way you look at me and have to say,"I Wish I Coul...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Sat, 02 Sep 2006 08:27:00 PST

Jumper

the last time i really listened to this song, i sang it over and over again. someone told me 'you know that's about killing yourself' and gave me a weird look.   you were my friend once, but i'm ...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Wed, 23 Aug 2006 09:02:00 PST

hecontinues: and so on.

I can't sleep. There's a train of thought running through my head, repeating the same things over and over again and dwelling on debate, sexuality, civil rights and my future and it won't let me sleep...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Tue, 15 Aug 2006 09:03:00 PST

Part of What I Did on Wednesday

[copied out of my notebook for school]I am hella lonely. Chad and Tyler took me to a graveyard and we sat and Chad smoked and I asked, "How do weird people meet?" I think: if I wasn't born to my paren...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Sun, 13 Aug 2006 06:10:00 PST

I love the Spill Canvas

i can honestly saythat i never,ever,ever,felt this way...&don't go worryin' aboutme,it's not like i think aboutyouconstantly...&i'll let you get the best of me, cause there'snothing elsethat i...
Posted by I am not your fairytale. on Wed, 05 Jul 2006 08:58:00 PST