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Please visit my website in honor of my daughter and shop to your heart drops.... @ www.katchadream504.com.
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Elizabeth's stepbrother, Nick's, dedication to his sweet sister....
..A letter to my daughter Current mood: distraughtDear Elizabeth.I remember the day you were born. I was so happy, but at the same time, I was scared. Here was this precious baby girl who was depending on me to take care of her and keep her safe. Your first day of school, you were so excited, you didn't cry, I did, my baby girl was growing up. Then I was watching you graduate from High School. As I watch you, I seen the beautiful young lady you had become. I was so very proud of you. I knew I couldn't protect you from getting hurt as you grew, because that is part of growing up. But I was always there in the background ready to take away the hurt. I have all my beautiful memories of you. But memories of you as a beautiful bride and a Mom with babies of your own, I will never have. I will never know the joy of being a Grandmother. I don't even know how I'm suppose to stop being a Mom. Elizabeth, no matter how bad things got in my life, I always knew I would get through it, because of you. Now I will have to go day by day and keep up a good front for everyone else, but babygirl I can't see anything getting but harder and harder. The really bad days, I know you will be here helping me get through it. April 11, 2008, when my whole world has come to an end, I prayed to God that you were not in any pain and he took you right away. I couldn't take it if my sweet baby suffered anything.I couldn't protect you from the senseless abnormality that was in your brain that no one knew about or would have even checked into because you were so young. I'm your Mom, I'm suppose to fix you and make you better, but this time I couldn't. I asked God what did I do wrong? Why did he take my baby girl from me? I told God I hated him and I didn't believe in him anymore. But that is not true, I needed to thank God for giving me this precious gift for the years I did have you.Everyday before we left the house or hung up the phone, we always said "I Love You". I still tell you everyday, I just don't hear it anymore. I love you babygirl and miss you so much. But until we can be together again, you are in Heaven with your Nani and she will look after you until it's my time to join you again.I Love You my sweet babygirl, Mom
imikimi -You were my daughter, my best friend, and my everything! I love you with all my heart my sweet babygirl! I cannot see how I can go forward with life without you here---you were my purpose for waking up everyday.
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Grief Makes A Promise

GRIEF MAKES A PROMISE   I feel like I'm going crazy. [Grief speaks] Come sit down, let's talk. Not you! Leave me alone!You have moved into my life and you won't leave.Everywhere I look;...
Posted by on Sat, 08 Nov 2008 20:33:00 GMT

I am sad

I am sad that nobody understandsI am sad that they say they can't imagine how we feelI am sad I would not have been able to imagineI am sad I did not think about it beforeI hate that we are victi...
Posted by on Thu, 30 Oct 2008 14:17:00 GMT

My Shoes for a Day

I am wearing a pair of shoes,They are ugly shoes,Uncomfortable shoes,I hate my shoes.Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.Some days my shoes hurt so much that I dont think I c...
Posted by on Fri, 10 Oct 2008 12:35:00 GMT

Somewhere

Somewhere a parent wishes for a little time away,No kids to take care of, for just one day.Somewhere a parent sits in an empty room crying,Thinking of a Birthday present they should be buying.Somewher...
Posted by on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 17:18:00 GMT

Forever in My Heart, Unitl We Meet Again

On April 11, 2008, God took you away from me,But he did not take the love I have or the sweet memories.A part of me is missing. It hurts deep in my soul.I would have given anything to just reverse the...
Posted by on Thu, 21 Aug 2008 10:46:00 GMT

My Heart....

Hello, Old Friend, Oh, yes, you know I lost my child a while ago. No, no please Don't look away And change the subject It's ok. You see, at first I couldn't feel, It took so long, but now it's real. I...
Posted by on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 08:51:00 GMT

Outsiders: Do’s and Dont’s Please...

PleaseDo not be afraid to ask me what happened. I will tell you if I dont want to talk about it.Do not avoid the subject of my child's death - Death has happened; it cannot be undone by ignoring it.Do...
Posted by on Mon, 11 Aug 2008 14:42:00 GMT

They Think Im Fine and Over It

They Think I'm Fine and Over ItThey think I'm fine and over itAccepted that you diedBut I live life with all this painAnd countless tears I've criedI am forced to live with endless painThat others can...
Posted by on Thu, 17 Jul 2008 14:49:00 GMT

The presence of her absence is everywhere

I want you to try to imagine the worst thing in the world, that your beloved child died.. let me explain to you the reality&try to imagine, if you can, never seeing your child again, never hearing her...
Posted by on Wed, 25 Jun 2008 09:46:00 GMT

God takes the best

  God looked around his Gardenand found an empty place.He then looked down upon His earthand saw your loving face.He put his arms around youand lifted you to rest.His Garden must be beautiful,he...
Posted by on Thu, 15 May 2008 08:14:00 GMT