I'd like to meet:

Rocker, Lover,and Friend

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Alright, I'm 19 and I'm in love with an amazing, beautiful, smart(much smarter than me), girl. I have long brown hair, and I'm kinda tall. I like to learn things even though I'm very stubborn and sometimes don't like being "taught" anything. I love math. I love to read. I have lots of friends and a few very close friends. I like hanging out all the time.

I'm kind of a loser though. I consider it a party when it's me and three friends listening to music and eating food so by society's standards I'm a loser.

But I also consider myself to be pretty cool in other respects. I'm usually pretty laid back and open-minded. I'm a good listener for the most part and I don't get into trouble. I'm also into the whole save the environment deal and even though I might talk big I'm not very violent. This according to some friends and other ppl means that I'm a HIPPIE! Ok I'll take that. I do however have an arrogant/prideful side that can be troublesome but I'm trying to work on that.

I'm also a Christian and I attend Mtn. Creek Baptist Church. But that doesn't mean I'm a stuck up bible beater who's gonna tell you you're going to hell every time you do something I consider wrong. No one's perfect, and I make mistakes too.

You could also say that I'm a nerd for lack of a better word. I love reading if I can get my hands on a good book. This may sound girly to the guys but there's not much better than curling up in a blanket on a cold winter evening and reading ten chapters in a great book. I like to watch cartoons as well. I mean everything from Fairly Oddparents to Japanese anime like (for Lauren) Inuyasha or Fooly Cooly (very funny).

Lastly I'm a musician. My love and passion is music. I play guitar and the drums. And just so I don't start an argument let me discuss this. Music is a way of expressing one's self. I can express myself playing my drums and I love it. You release a lot of anger and passion this way but I also love playing guitar because I can express myself not by my playing style or body language but lyrically, which is much easier for people to percieve. I play guitar for the love of music and to express myself in a manner ppl can understand easily. I love playing the drums because I can put power and passion and heart into my very movements. So just so there's no confusion I love the guitar and the drums; I play both and if you have a problem you can get over it because it's not that big of a deal that I can play two instruments.

Well I've said a lot about myself but there's a lot more that you don't know. I've said a lot of other stuff in my blogs but it's not the same as talking to someone in person, so if anyone wants to talk to me about anything you may disagree with or want clarification on then just come up and ask me about it.

P.s. I believe the war in Iraq is wrong and I believe we're all idiots for not seeing that a vast portion of the world hates Americans and it's basically our own doing. These are 2 of my political views that I've been asked about and so I'm telling them to everyone. If my opinion bothers you then ask me about it and we'll discuss it in a friendly manner :)

I will now post a little insight into the complex mind of Cole. Most people view me as the wise young person. I'm supposed to be the guy who knows what's going on, and has all this life thing figured out. I'm supposed to be strong and unwavering. The fact of the matter is that, while a part of me may be these things, I am a very confused individual who doesn't have his shit together. The sad part of all this mess is that what you guys think of me is very important to all this. Since so many people expect these things of me I have to live up to these expectations. If I don't then I feel worthless and my life seems to have no meaning. I put on a smile every day just so people will keep the same opinion of me even though I don't always want to smile. This is a battle that I face every single day of my life and I don't see any clear way out of it. Life for me is very tormenting but also quite enjoyable and I'm on the roller coaster that love to go between mediums every so often... in fact it's up and down all the time. This being said I would like to point out that I'm not suicidal and I'm not a cutter. I have plenty to live for so don't worry about that. This is something that I don't tell a lot of people and I'm sure that many won't even read this but I feel better letting the few individuals that I've shared this with into my head a little.

To all of you who have read this thanx for wanting a slight insight into the world of Cole. You cared enough to read this and find out what I'm like. I love anyone who reads this and those that may read this that feel this way, SAYING I LOVE YOU DOESN'T MAKE YOU GAY AND NEITHER DO HUGS, AND THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH GAY PPL!GET OVER YOURSELVES AND GOODBYE!That doesn't apply to my friends who don't feel that way.

Love you guys, PEACE!
Good Day.
Name: Cole.
Age: 19.
Status: Wonderfully Dating.
Orientation: Straight.
Religion: Follower of Christ (Christian is a misrepresented term).
Location: NC.