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i find it hard to write about myself; everytime i think i know who i am, something happens, shatters my perceptions, and leaves me confused and lost.

lost. that's what a lot of people say about me. but i think that's more because of this blank expression i get. i think it's attention deficit disorder.

disorder. so much of this in my life. but i try my best to balance things out; family, friends, school, and ambition.

ambition. that's one thing i have a lot of. and i try to enjoy everyday, because i know that the journey there is just as important.

important, what's important? defintions are too arbitrary. my mind and my heart can be fickle, that's why i find it hard to write about myself.
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