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another great loss in my life my little niece has passed away on my birthday yesterday i feel so lost and i know that she is in heaven but why her why did god take hannah I WANT TO MEET THE MAN THAT SOLD MY BROTHER BILLY JO A PISTOL THAT HE SHOT AND KILLED HISSELF WITH.AND DID THIS MAN KNOW THAT THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN.AND WHAT WAS THE REASON HE SOLD HIM THE GUN.WHY DID HE DO THIS I WILL GO TO MY GRAVE NEEDING TO KNOW. I LOVE HIM AND MISS HIM.I HAVE LOST ALOT OF PEOPLE THAT I LOVE. AND WHEN I LOST MY LITTLE BROTHER PART OF ME DIED AS WELL. I STILL CRY AT TIMES BECOUSE ITS NOT FAIR. I DIDNT GET TO TELL HIM THAT I LOVE HIM AND COULD HELP HIM. HIS PAIN ENDED. AND MINE WILL NEVER END.IT HURTS TODAY JUST THE SAME AS IT DID THAT DAY I GOT THE PHONE CALL.I WILL MISS HIM UNTIL I DIE.I GUESS WHEN YOUR HURT THIS BAD IT TAKES A LONG TIME TO HEAL.I JUST WANT THE TRUTH. I HAVE THOUGHT MAYBE SOMEONE DONE IT BUT THE CORORNERS REPORT SAID IT WAS SELF INFLICTED. I DONT FEEL THAT HE COULD DO THIS. I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD AND IT DRIVES INSANE.I CANT STAND IT BECOUSE I FEEL SO LOST. BECOUSE ITS LIKE I NEED TO HELP HIM SOME HOW.AND I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START WITHOUT PEOPLE TELLING ME TO JUST LET HIM BE.I WANT TO HAVE A NIGHT THAT I DONT JUST LAY IN BED AND TELL MY DEAD BROTHER IM SORRY FOR NOT KNOWING HE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN.OR TRYING TO FIND OUT WAS THIS A PERSON THAT WANTED HIM GONE. I DONT KNOW AND I WANT TO KNOW.SO I CAN HAVE SOME PEACE.