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Carlovingian

I don't think I watch T.V.

About Me

.. I am not so well at talking about myself but here goes I love spending time with my son movies and music reading books playing guitar playing poker and pool with my friends I like my job (which is something you don’t hear everyday but my job rocks) going to hockey games Riding my motorcycle I collect coins, swords and knives I also like to collect $100 bills but that is not as easy as it sounds I have lots of fun with art freehand & adobe Photoshop I also like to play around with adobe audition tattoos and piercing I like to be scared and love nightmares I want to be fully awake when I die so I can feel it

My Interests

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New Years 06-07 This is a link if you click on it you will see more online photos

I'd like to meet:

"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."

Music:

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Movies:


Old School Tranquilizer - For more funny movies, click here
Shift Happens /mspobj

Television:



Whopper FREAKOUT! (Ghetto Version) - Watch More free videos

Kid Pranks Hotel Front Desk - Watch more free videos

Books:

bentley little makes king look like a bedtime story, sutter cane, dean koontz, stoker, poe, john saul, homer, nietzsche, dante alighierl, doyle, shakespeare, william diehl, john flowers, grisham

Heroes:

Carl on Relationships and Working out

My Blog

Sean

I know that not all of you knew my friend Sean, and those of you who did get to meet him may not know this but he had this amazing ability to do a perfect impression of Louis Armstrong's "What A Wonde...
Posted by Carlovingian on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 10:00:00 PST

Hallelujah

So what happens nextSleeping pills mixed with alcohol to get you downFuzzy filling light fluttering in my chestTossing in anger beating the pillow in frustrationLonely and empty cold sheetsHallelujah&...
Posted by Carlovingian on Mon, 17 Sep 2007 10:20:00 PST

iM DoNe

We aRe THe PaiN We aRe THe SHaMe We'Ve GoNe iNSaNe iNSiDe WHeRe No oNeS aRouND  i aM To BLaMe, FoR eVeRyTHiNG i Like THiS GaMe, THaT You aLL MaKe Me PLay We aRe eSTRaNGeD We aRe DeRaNGeD&nb...
Posted by Carlovingian on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 09:17:00 PST

Please God Dont Let Me Give in Tonight and Die

Keep knockingNo one's therePouring downNear be feltKeep hopingNothing to spareSo my lifeIsn't quite thereFeel like a whoreDirtyI'll take itI'll die againI'l...
Posted by Carlovingian on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 08:48:00 PST

Loneliness breaks the spirit.

It begins where it ends... In nothingness.A nightmare born from deepest fears, coming to me unguarded. Whispering images unlocked from time and distance. A soul unbound - touched by others but never h...
Posted by Carlovingian on Sun, 25 Mar 2007 01:20:00 PST

The Field Where I Died

At times, I almost dream. I, too, have spent a life the sages' way and tread once more familiar paths. Perchance I perished in an arrogant self-reliance an age ago... and in that act, a prayer for one...
Posted by Carlovingian on Thu, 01 Feb 2007 07:23:00 PST

Self-improvement is masturbation

You spoon-fed us Saturday morning mouthfuls of maggots And lies disguised in your sugary breakfast cereals The plates you made us clean were filled with your fears These things have hardened in our b...
Posted by Carlovingian on Fri, 19 Jan 2007 09:08:00 PST

permafrost

I come to you hungry and tiredyou give food and let me sleepI come to you weakyou give strength and that's deepyou called me a sheepand leed me to green pasturesonly asking that I keep the focusbetw...
Posted by Carlovingian on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 11:23:00 PST

For a special friend

I am writing this in a futile attempt to express my gratitude for someone very special in my life. I don't even know where to start. When I was in the hospital there was a point when I didn't know if ...
Posted by Carlovingian on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 09:47:00 PST