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butterscotchgirl

so so fab

About Me

i rock the hiz-ouse. i am a totally fabulous girl about town. i totally believe in the power of positive thinking.

i am really an emotional trainwreck awaiting the next victim.

i did go from wanting to be someone, now i'm drunk and wearing flip-flops on fifth avenue.

i always cry at endings.

"I will have poetry in my life...and adventure...and love...love, above all. Not the artful postures of love, but love that overthrows life: unbendable, ungovernable, like a riot in the heart and nothing to be done come ruin or rapture. Love like there has never been in a play. I will have love or I will end my days as a..."
-from Shakespeare in Love, by Marc Norman and Tom Stoppard

My Interests

i have many interests. i am interested in being interested, which produces a kind of chain reaction of sorts. i once read that a person who is interesting is a person who is interested and i suppose that stays in the back of my mind. i think being genuinely interested in any sort of new thing makes for a pretty interesting life, which i suppose could then lead to fulfillment, happiness, etc.

i am especially interested in all things creative. and true. and real. i am interested in some new things, but mostly if they come from new ideas. i once heard someone say if theres an original thought out there i could sure use it right now and i agree with him.

i'm interested in other people, as a concept and in practical application.
i am always interested in music. and children. and art.

...and ideas. someone once said small minds talk about people, big minds talk about events, and great minds talk about ideas, and i agree with her. i like to fancy myself as the latter, but sometimes i have no choice but to fall into the other classifications.

i like rain...and the feel of the sun. and the look of sapphires. and playing starfox adventures.

i also love peaches. and guacamole. but not mixed. ew.

I'd like to meet:

other equally morose/fanatical people...i am fascinated by most kinds of people. i appreciate people on a path to self actualization especially, those capable of clever banter with sparkling (or sparkly) wit and humour. i would freak out daily if i ever knew someone who loves karaoke as i do. or broadway musicals. or the potential of the human spirit.

"She said why? Why don't we drive through the night and we'll wake up down in Mexico? (Oh I, I don't know nothin' about nothin' about Mexico.) And tell me why, why won't you love me for who I am where I am? He said: 'Cause that's not the way the world is baby. This is how I love you, baby...this is how I love you, baby..."
~Paul Simon

To fling my arms wide
In some place of the sun,
To whirl and to dance
Till the white day is done.
Then rest at cool evening
Beneath a tall tree
While night comes on gently,
Dark like me-
That is my dream! To fling my arms wide
In the face of the sun,
Dance! Whirl! Whirl!
Till the quick day is done.
Rest at pale evening...
A tall, slim tree...
Night coming tenderly
Black like me. ~ Dream Variations by Langston Hughes

"Will it ever be possible to separate you from your grayness?"
~William Carlos Williams

The American Dream is too small. It’s not enough to be the quarterback and marry the cheerleader and make senior VP and have the tiniest cellphone. We can be great, but it will not be measured by investment portfolios or personal fitness trainers. It will be measured by the voice inside yourself that tells you what you are truly capable of. The American Dream will always be there for you. But your own dream, if you listen, is much, much bigger.
~ 1999 Timberland print ad

Music:

i like most music i've heard. i just like music. my favorite composer is stephen sondheim.

i like bob dylan, paul simon, ben kweller, jimmy eat world, aimee mann, blink 182, pete yorn, coldplay, damien jurado, weezer, yellowcard, the strokes, rufus wainwright, bernadette peters, lauryn hill, dar williams, mountain goats, ella fitzgerald, john denver, the shins, trisha yearwood, toby keith, counting crows, mountain goats, daniel johnston, marvin gaye, fiona apple, david gray, badly drawn boy, sebadoh, indigo girls, sarah mclachlan, something corporate, all american rejects, patti lupone, pavement, dan folgelberg, smokey robinson & the miracles, elvis costello, morphine, bread, cake, liz phair, patti griffin, pedro the lion, ray lamontagne, jets to brazil, the carpenters, carly simon, alabama, iron&wine, band of horses (thank you mia), yeahyeahyeahs, george strait, joni mitchell, tori amos, we five, the judds, the killers, mandy patinkin, ani difranco, earl thomas conley, nick drake, fenix tx, keane, beth orton, lucinda williams, shelby lynne, beach boys…oh come on this is ridiculous.

i was born in detroit and my brother was born in nashville. my father played his guitar to us in our youth: it's intrinsic at this point.

Movies:

i also like movies, yes. they're pretty spectacular, movies are in general, when you think about it, and we can all bitch and moan about how much movies make and cost and actors' fees but really its amazing to even get 2 hours of entertainment for like eight bucks come on people. especially if it ends up being a movie you realllly like.
like eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, heavenly creatures, anne of green gables, west side story, edward scissorhands, franco zeffirelli's romeo&juliet, magnolia, orange county, almost famous, overboard, shallow hal, sense & sensibility, what dreams may come, love actually, dead poets society, showboat, the little mermaid, elizabeth, pretty in pink, shakespeare in love, gone with the wind, the goonies, harry potter(s).
i really also appreciate a good animated short. my favorite longish short is the snowman, and my favorite shortish short is the big snit, made by the same guy (richard condie) who did the cat came back for those in the know.

Television:

i think television is part of the biggest flaw of our weakened society. the current state thereof. however, i am not a total freak of nature who's never watched it. that would be *so* embarrassing. my favorite shows of all time are roseanne and the wonder years, even though i saw fred savage in athens years later and he really seemed like an ass and a half. i also really appreciate mtv's oddities series from years ago, which debuted my favorite cartoon ever, the maxx, that big purple guy with the claw.

Books:

my favorite kind of books are fairytale books, childrenstyle or for study. i also love how to books and/or books on intriguing subjects like witchcraft. i enjoy reading plays, in script form especially - (my favorite is cloud tectonics by jose rivera), some poetry (like shel silverstein and ts eliot), and a representative collection of the great writing time for america back in the mid century. my favorite from this group is of course henry miller.

Heroes:

i love wonder woman and strive to mimic my life humbly against hers.

My Blog

wish you were here

why do the words appear only after i have surrendered?faded love and black beans and it is not yet midnight so something good could yet still happen. weak wrists and funny girls and saint augustine. i...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Sun, 10 Feb 2008 09:11:00 PST

frightened times

in these hallowed days. sometimes i forget how old i am. as in the number. and i have not the skill to batten down the hatchet in preparations. in an old factory all day i imagine my life otherwise. a...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 04:09:00 PST

like violence

i just had a petrifying dream, which i will try to recount, but may not get it exactly right. it has been so long since this has happened to me that i am not quite sure how to feel about it. the setti...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 03:15:00 PST

sugar

holy mother of christ there is nothing too sweet for me. it is not in my nature to refuse. everything is better swamped in caramel or butterscotch. more points if it is good already. like custard, for...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Thu, 14 Sep 2006 12:57:00 PST

instead

one of the "current mood" options on the myspace blog is 'crushed'. it somehow gives me comfort to know that crushed is enough of a commonly occurring emotion to be listed on the general choices of mo...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Mon, 31 Jul 2006 04:47:00 PST

maps

i am being called to trial somewhere in texas this morning. i don't even remember the name of the place. and this is what it's come to. the officer's name was adams, ironically enough, and i dare say ...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Thu, 06 Jul 2006 08:18:00 PST

cursed

sitting here eating oatmeal i wonder if hollywood ever really was calling out my name. he confessed to me that he thought maybe i would be better suited barefoot and pregnant somewhere in the desert. ...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Mon, 26 Jun 2006 06:16:00 PST

sadness of the city

and the familiarity of the bar and the faces i seem to see every day. everything is different now, even moreso than a week before, as i have a small silver coated widescreen device that promises to re...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Tue, 13 Jun 2006 06:33:00 PST

icing

lord have mercy on our sorry souls. and how much of this can possibly be consumed? i am drinking the most amazing tea i have ever had in my lifetime in lieu of a perfectly scrumdiddlyumptious white we...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Mon, 24 Apr 2006 04:46:00 PST

current mood

with all my will not to cry at the bar. all my might. let it lie. if we keep talking about it i will pound the whom which has smacked me and that will be an ireraseable mark on my record - no one can...
Posted by butterscotchgirl on Thu, 22 Dec 2005 10:15:00 PST