Hmm. As I am laying here on the floor, thinking about things, all I can think to myself is that I think too fucking much. When I was little, I used to wish there was a switch to turn it off. Now, after 25 years, I have finally woken up. I recently realized that life just needs to happen. I can’t change the events around me. I can’t force people to act, or to think, or to make me happy. No amount of thinking will change the world around me. The fact that I am alive in this world is reason enough to be happy. I am surrounded by people I love so there is little else to ask for. I am currently, somewhat of a control freak. I say currently, because it is important to admit the truth of a situation before one can rectify the situation. It has been a long, difficult lesson to learn to let go and have fun. I have hurt myself, and those around me time and time again because I was too afraid to let things just happen. I won’t pretend to have learned to control this fear, but I will. Life may be hard, and may not go the direction I want, but that is just how things work.
I have just started yoga and I find it amazing. I at first found the idea pretty silly, but it makes me feel centered, happy, and alive. It amazes me that so many of the feelings I always looked to other people for, were just waiting to be discovered inside myself.
I know I still have a long way to go and a lot to learn, but who doesn’t. I will grow up and be happy. I will learn to be happy with myself, and in turn share happiness with the people around me.
What type of Fae are you?
