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CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h]

I Dont Want to be a Superhero

About Me

I Live like a Vampire, and Love Like a Killer You dont know me already?! I am a thousand different people rolled into one big mess. I live in this small ass hell they call Stephenville which consists of infectious whores and cowboy hat tough guys. Either way, I am the sideshow that is a friend to this circus and I enjoy adding a little psychotic nature to the scene. Also I am married and I have a little boy who I would destroy the planet to protect. I am undoubtedly the most protective person I have known. Not only towards my family, but also my friends and their friends, and so on. I would do anything for almost anybody, even if I would rather watch you suffer. I hate to see people I care for lost and lonely. And unfornately, it usually backfires when I try to be there. But I have grown accustomed to persecution and I never regret going over the edge for what I feel and believe in. I dont think before I act, and I dont explain later. On a lighter note, I am a devoted musician but I believe that the entire culture has lost its focus and is based solely on corporate scandals and personal gain. I also feel like people only are full of lies and very few care for those around them. Everyday I see people around me laugh and help eachother only to turn around with utter hatred for that person. And yet people are blind and reassure themselves that the nightmares aren't real. SO if you havent already realized this, I am a bit outspoken and I dont really care what anyone thinks.

My Interests

I am generally interested in a wide variety of crap. Music plays a big part of my life as it helps me deal with the world outside in a way that people actually listen to. I play guitar and have been since I was very young. I also fill notebooks up with songs that I write everyday and I enjoy singing at the top of my lungs. I play and sing for my band Citizen Zero which has allowed me to inflict my thoughts and nightmares on to the rest of the world.oh

I'd like to meet:

Most definately NOT you..j/k. NEWayz--Jim Morrison, Aldous Huxley, Dimebag Darrell, Ed Gein, Pogo, John 5, Zim Zum, William Blake, Jussi, Jenna Jameson and Briana Banks (wink wink), Tim Burton, Stevie Ray Vaughn, John Butler, Buckethead for sure, Cristina Scabbia, Angela Gossow, Dani Filth, Sid Barrett, Marilyn Monroe, Charles Manson, Slash and Zakk Wylde, Wednesday 13, Kat Von D, Judy Garland, Al Pacino, Brandon and Bruce Lee, Johnny Cash, Elvis, Randy Rhoads, David Gilmour, Paco de Lucia and Al di Meola, and just more and more dead people..All the FriendZ | My BloG | Add CommentZ

Music:

Citizen Zero, Lamb of God, Arch Enemy, Cradle of Filth, Dethklok, Avenged Sevenfold, Black Sabbath, Everytime I die, He is Legend, Monster Magnet, Otep, Sebastian Bach, Shadows Fall, Slipknot, Submersed, Throwdow, Venture, Wednesday 13, 36 Crazy Fists, ACDC, AFI, Alice in Chains, All That Remains, Allman Brothers, American Head Charge, Amon Amarth, Apocalyptica, As I Lay Dying, Atreyu, Billy Idol, Black Label Society, Blaqk Audio, Buckethead, Bullet for my Valentine, CCR, Chevelle, Children of Bodom, Damage Plan, Pantera, Daath, In this Moment, Deadstar Assembly, DevilDriver, Dragonforce, Dream Theater, Eighteen Visions, Elvis, Entwine, Eyes Set Kill, Five Finger Death Punch, Genitorturers, God Forbid, Guns n Roses, Hellyeah, HIM, I am Ghost, I Killed the Prom Queen, Inhale Exhale, John Butler Trio, Killswitch Engage, Lacuna Coil, Lords of Acid, Machine Head, Marilyn Manson, Massive Attack, Metallica, Motley Crue, Nevermore, Nightwish, Nirvana, Norma Jean, Orgy, Ozzy Osbourne, Papa Roach, Paramore, Pink Floyd, Poisonblack, Powerman 5000, Protest the Hero, Queen, Ra, Rob Zombie, Sanctity, Sentenced, Sixx AM, Slayer, Sound Garden, Still Remains, The 69 Eyes, Agonist, The Birthday Massacre, Doors, Tool, Trivium, Twelve Gauge Valentine, Underoath, Within Temptation, August Burns Red, Bless the Fall, Bleeding Through, Dead Like our Love, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Haste the Day, Maylene and the Sons of Disaster, The Autumn Offering, Scum of the Earth, Memphis May Fire, In Flames, Opeth, Paradise Lost, Alesana, Gwen Stacy, Burden of a Day, Oh Sleeper, Hopes Die Last, Destroy the Runner, As Cities Burn, A Skylit Drive, Bless the Fall, Scary Kids Scaring Kids, The Devil Wears Prada, Coal Chamber, Dethklok, Dimmu Borgir...

Movies:

Nightmare Before Christmas, The Doors, Napoleon Dynamite, Star Wars, Scarface, Star Wars, Aqua Teen Hunger, I Robot, Corpse Bride, Finding Nemo, Pink Floyd's The Wall, Constantine, Amityville Horror, Halloween, The Crow, An American Haunting, Accepted, Grandma's Boy, Superbad, Spinal Tap, Airheads, Empire Records, Cannibal Holocaust, Helter Skelter...

Television:

Mostly stuff on the History and Discovery Channel, Fuse every now and then, lots of porn (wink!)and so on..

Books:

The Doors of Perception, The Perennial Philosophy, Dracula, The Book of Law, Art of War, Dante's Inferno & Purgatorio, Alice in Wonderland & Through the Looking Glass, The Invisible Man, Songs of Innocence, Confessions of a Serial Killer...

Heroes:

Stevie Ray Vaughn, Jimi Hendrix, Ville Valo, Jerry Cantrell, Dimebag Darrell, My Dad, Johnny Cash, jim Morrison, Van Halen, Slash, Elvis Presley, Angus Young, Jack Skellington, Superman, Lynyrd Skynyrd, Ritchie Valens, My wife, my son, Mike and Adam, My grandpas, My Dad...

My Blog

In a World That Died..

I always here that things will eventually work out in the end.  That everything gets to the lowest point before it ever gets better.  But I guess now its just time to grow up and face the fa...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 08:28:00 PST

Disposable

Just so I dont have to explain to everyone personally about my life, Im going to explain it in bulk to everyone....My world has not only crashed down on me, but has now completely evaporated into a da...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Fri, 13 Jun 2008 02:28:00 PST

Insanity took the Best of me.

There are no words to describe the mindset that has taken complete control over me. Being a little crazy sometimes by choice is a common luxury, but I have come to find that being crazy naturally isn...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Sat, 10 May 2008 01:55:00 PST

for my bride...

The past seven years have been an extreme rollercoaster for the two of us. We have been through so much over the past couple of years its amazing that we are still able to stand. I haven't been the hu...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 12:30:00 PST

Comfortably Numb

I never realized it until now.  My life has revolved around my past my entire life.  There are som many things I wish that I could just take back or I wish I could go back in time and tie up...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Mon, 31 Mar 2008 01:33:00 PST

Inside a Mind...Inside a Soul

Although I may speak in words you may find in a dictionary or a book, simple words are only words and could never express the true meaning of a person.  A person like me.  Im not complicated...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 04:02:00 PST

Buried Alive

The world just recently came to breakfast with me and told me exactly what was wrong with me.  She told me I was a mistake and shouldnt have been around as long as I have been.  All the past...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 10:51:00 PST

Peace drifted away, Now there is none

There never was peace.  There was only a mutual agreement with the world.  Seems as though right when you find an answer to all of your problems, the wrath of God rains hate on the one-way r...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 10:34:00 PST

The Beginning!

You dont know me.  You havent even seen the extent of a hatred induced life.  All the lies that lie around me.  All the hate the people that Im pressured with.    All the...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 11:43:00 PST

the end

God is dead. If there ever was one in the first place, he left a long time ago. Never in a million years would I consider the world a chess table and the checkmate that I have come to accept. Its my...
Posted by CyAnIdE HeRo [Adam Ca$h] on Fri, 21 Dec 2007 02:14:00 PST