Hello my name is god RazorBladeJake...
I am and will be attacked and hated for what I am, who I am, and what I say on a daily basis, but that's the risk you take when you are a REAL PERSON..
What you happen to be reading right now isnt my LIFE. It's easy to judge something you know absolutely nothing about. I've died so many times, but have been reborn into something so unreal, surreal. I am only as real as you want me to be. A vision. A nightmare. A wet dream that drowns you in its perfection. But when you wake up you realize it was all in your head.
How can I genderfuck you today? If any of this made sense to you then you must be completely insane. I'll slice myself open just to feel something other than your jealous stares. Does my mirror image reflect what is or what isn't? Do my overblackened eyes show anger or sadness? Am I a blank canvas or a work of art?
I love 6$ slices of cake, falling down the stairs, playing ping pong at 2 am, and making a scene everywhere i go.
I wear way too much amazing makeup. I'm addicted. I'll kick this habit as soon as I kick your ass. Try all you want, you'll never stop be me.
Maybe I'll find love one day, just to be used and thrown away. I am biodegradeable after all. But in the meantime, I'll stick around just long enough to burn my image into your retinas. The sick feeling you get in your stomach is all the shit you have been spoon fed since you were a retched fetus. All the lies you have been allowed to consume by those around you...Your birth place, your name, your parents, the beliefs that were shoved down your throat as soon as you were old enough to chew your over processed poisoned food. Everything is a lie. Nothing is real.
Popularity is my curse. Fame doesnt mean anything without reason. Creativity drips from my veins, and I wipe it all over my face. Pump me full of pills and watch me dance like a whore. Fill me with alcohol and take advantage of me. Fuck me I'm beautiful. My day isn't complete until I've completely destroyed myself.
I breathe cigarette smoke like you breathe oxygen, and its beautiful. Bending over a toilet and expelling the toxins from my body has become so mundane and ritual. I'm dying but have never been more beautiful. I always end up wanting something that I know I can't have. LOVE But who needs that? Who's to tell us who we're supposed to be and what we shouldnt do?
Want more?( Think you can handle it?)
Growing up doesnt mean becoming anything more mature. People are stupid and will remain stupid until something opens there eyes. Poison seeps from there mouths as a verbal expression of hate. It cuts me over and over again until my body is a scarred shell of what it once was. Never again. Nevermore. Stick your finger down my throat and let the beauty pour out. Because for as self centered and conceited as you think I may be, none of this matters to me. I'd be more happy with someone to love, rather than everyone loving me.
Stick your 2.0 upgrade in me. I've been formed from everyone and everything that I have come into contact with since birth. Resurrect me from the ashes of the phoenix I once was. Transcend into my perfection. Descend into my oblivion. I am RazorBladeJake. I'm just another boy in eyeliner and tight jeans to you, but to some I AM GOD. I can help others with personal problems and give advice that has saved lives. I don't say anything unless I truly believe it to be correct. But on occasions my mouth is a cannon.
ummm what?? yeah.
I voice my opinions but I really don't care if you like it or not...I think and I guess that's what scares people. I'm still learning who I am as a person. I dont believe in "go with the flow"And as far as I'm concerned, it's just NOT WORTH IT to be like everyone else. But, now we've reached our dilemma, haven't we? The more you try to be different, the more you are just like everyone else. Be one in a million, not one of a million.
Can I help you?(probably not)
Don't you find ME entertaining?
After all, aren't we all just ratings for your next news flash? Welcome to the big screen. Sit back and enjoy your stupification. It's time to shut your mouth and spread your legs, as you hate this pile of beautiful garbage known as RazorBladeJake.
Kill me or Worship Me for what I'm worth. I AM A GOD..Its all the same to you.
What I say and what I am are completely contradictory. I'm my own worst enemy and have the scars to prove it. I sometimes hate myself, but doesnt everybody? I am the future and all that ever is and was...I am ANDROGYNY. When asked what I believe in I answer with the one thing I can't seem to find. LOVE. For everytime I seem to come close, the person I am interested in shows their true self..Everyone shows you what they want to be, not who they really are.Crush.
BUT....sometime's we find someone who changes how we feel about everything.....or at least LOVE. The boy in the pic above is the love of my life..I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. He makes me feel more beautiful and happy than I have ever been and I would do ANYTHING to make him happy... Photos by Razorbladejake on Buzznet
