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I ONCE WAS LOST AND NOW IAM FOUND This is my Story............My parent split when i was 1 years old and i went to live with my dad he ended up marring a lady when i was 5. i did not like for one And i was daddys lil girl so i did not want none coming between us she had a son who was 3 i wanted my real mom and i really felt like this step mom treated me not fare maybe it was because my skin is brown and hers white maybe i am not her real daughter i will never know i remember always telling my dad he could do better at the age of 6-till i was 15 i rebelled against not having my real mom and feeling like sometimes i had to be white growing up because of my step mom one time i wanted to bleach my skin at the age of 10. southern Cali i grew up i went to school with lots of Mexicans so i felt more comfortable and accepted with them so i would lie about my whole life i would say my mom was Mexican and i had older brothers in gangs i just wanted to fit in... I would see my friends would have sisters and brothers in gangs and i thought it was cool because people were afraid of gangs thats what i wanted to be.. i could be who ever i wanted to be.......so i started running away at the age of 13 then i had ditched school one day in high school with some surenos southern cali gangsters and got busted from the police they took us to Juvenile hall but the lady was afraid to be alone with us all so she let us go in the middle of no were........well lets back up a little bit i would poison my step moms drinks because i wanted her sick i would not know what i was thinking i guess i was not i just did it but she never got sick...she would hit me for no reason and if me and her son got into fights we really got into hard core fights she would always take his side...........well back to me run away i ended up going to live with my mom in Oregon and remember when i said i could be who ever i wanted well that i did..i went to Oregon started to hang out with Surenos from Cali and i would tell them i was from a gang I started smoking weed and drinking i would stay out as long as i wanted i would not go to school i would do what ever i wanted i had no rules at all i went wild robbed houses robbed a Liquor store got tattoos what ever stoled a truck my mom tried to get me to church but did not want to go oH and my mom told me my dad who raised me was not my real dad i was Hawaiian and my mom is German Irish and Indian BUT i was still Mexican any ways as life went bye i stayed the same i would find my self at a dead end crying out to God But doing what ever i want ireally gave my life to God after i got married 2002 stopped smoking weed drinking and partying i realized life is short time to Give my life to GOd i could of died i been shot at i remember i robbed one house with 2 friends and the whole famliy came home with the kids we got out but the guy chased us with a bat my heart was pounding like crazy then her come the cops so i slowed down walked normal then they just drove right passed me my face was red and when i got home i just jumped in the shower with my clothes on i was so hot..........But God saved me One time i was 15 i had a Gun sawed off shot gun and i was holing it for a homie and i lied and said i jumped a Northeno so i told the homies to get ready for battle and it had a hair trigger and i remember the barrel was at my face then my pinky finger slipped and pulled it and i know an angel pushed that gun from my face and it blew a whole threw the wall passed the restroom and the bee bees went out the third wall my ears were ringing like crazy i thought i died but God Saved my sometimes i forget about stuff like this and i take life as a joke but as i write these words to you it makes me love God More so here i am Ready to be used to Shine for the LIght was lost in the darkness oh and when i was 15 i had robbed one house stoled a gun and then i had to go to southern cali cause i was wanted with my homie so i passed by my step moms house and want to shoot her but she had fam there who i loved i grew up So much more to tell But i would like to share My most recent struggles and happyniess i been married for 5 yrs and i have a step son who is ten he is a very smart kid he says he wishes i was his real mom it was so hard at first trying to be a step mom because i knew i was not his real mom.For a long time i felt i could not really tell him what to do But as years go By he know where i stand as well as my husband..Antonio is his name and he really loves GOd When me and his dad fight he always takes my side i knew him since he was 5 so i seen him grow in to a young boy.It has been a blessing He gives me messages when i am stressed and he wants to talk to me after me and his dad fight...My husband and i been threw alot of ups and downs He is a wise man But he needs so much prayer i mean no matter how much we are close to God we always need prayer...It is so hard for him to Give his whole heart TO god I dont understand why..Once he surrenders God has Big plans for his life He has helped me grow alot he as opened my eyes to alot of things before him i had NO RULES SInCE I WAS 15 i did what ever i wanted NO ONE cam tell me what to do he help grounded me even at first he was so jealous it was hard to handle But lots of prayer he has changed. and his parents are so strong for God i feel blessed to call them in laws they know Enriques struggles thats my hubby...But it only make us stonger I feel my ministry is my famliy first i must make sure i do good with what God has blessed me with we just opened a clothing store in February so far 3 people have really been touch by God threw it ....God is so great I am here to tell my story whats yours?