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jaki&lt;ogre.†&gt;

..well behaved women... rarely make history. --Marilyn Monroe♥

About Me


some stuff.

the names jaki. very few people know the real me. come to find out i live my life according to how i want to.
i have a gorgeous baby girl whos three years old and not so much of a baby anymore, but will always be just that to me. she is all there is in this world that really matters anything to me. i will admit there was a time in my life when i thought i needed other things.. other people. but i realized quickly i was very wrong. i am highly independant. hand outs arent welcome, including fake friendships. my heart has been broken multiple times by multiple people.. from the time that i was born and everyday still. family.. friends.. men.. and myself. heartbreak. heartache. that is what i know. that is what i cause for myself, and others just the same. i get bored and suffocate easily. annoyed just as well. no man can make me happy like i can. i have vowed to not get into a "relationship" until i know im going to be with that person the rest of my life. they honestly seem pointless, otherwise. im a super duper complicated person. more than likely i have some sort of personality disorder. i would rather not go and get perscribed something to make me someone im not tho. i have many many so called friends. but very few that i truly truly care about.. i have realized how even years of friendships can be thrown away in a matter of seconds so its hard for me to really trust anyone anymore. but those that have stuck by me.. those that know and love me for me.. i would take a bullet for, any second of any day. i honestly believe that laughter is the key to every kind of happiness. dramatic confrontation is sick and makes me want to run away and never come back. i love to have fun and just chill. my life is complicated enough to care about the immature shit that you think is such a BIG deal. call me a bitch for that and ill laugh. cuz god fucking damnit. i guess i am. haha. love me or hate me. judge me all you want. cause in the words of my two best fucking friends ever. "ill fucking fight you."♥

more stuff.

i truly believe life is what you make of it. ill always be searching for the one that can make me happier. sometimes. i just want to be mad or sad for a little while. you cant make me. im always right. fight me. i dare you. the best feeling int the world is when your listening to a song and its so good it gives you the chills. Home Message Add Comment Pictures Blog
Name: jaki.
Age: eighteen.
Location: hell.
Orientation: straight.
Status: single-ish.
Occupation: wal*mart sales associate. bitch.

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My Blog

you are the pretender.♥

alllll day ive been thinking about the bad stuff in my life. well fucking slap me silly, damnit. i fucking bitch too much. and the more i think about it. the more i dont care. i dont care what i don...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 12:12:00 PST

eenie meanie miney moe.

i didnt know life falling into place would hurt so much. i have my license back. finally. 325 dollars and 2 weeks to be broke but its finally done. im registering for school in two weeks. but t...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 09:34:00 PST

thoughts got me rhyming. wtf.

what am i saying? these words im hearing. are they my own? what am i doing? these moves im making. a behavior i can no longer condone. what am i thinking? these thoughts i render a harshness i cant h...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Thu, 13 Sep 2007 02:11:00 PST

you think you know someone.†

if friendships can be erased that easily, you fucking cowards.. then fucking fuck you. go and love on the person who did you wrong just as much or worse than i.. delete me. block me. ign...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Mon, 20 Aug 2007 12:46:00 PST

hold a true friend with both your hands.♥

"hold a true friend. with both your hands." i never realized the meaning of that quote. now i wish i had. every day i take friendships for granted. fuck the world. right? not so much. there are tho...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Mon, 06 Aug 2007 01:08:00 PST

my lovelly fourth.

woke up too early.steve krauths wedding.rum+ v8 splash+ sprite=4 o clock drink.amazing cup and crazy straw.matched my outfit.smirrnoff party pack.3 packs of ciggarettes.yummy bbq. stupid girl crying.m...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Fri, 06 Jul 2007 02:56:00 PST

i want to see a sunrise; so sick of sunsets.

im so tired of being fucked over. its one thing after another. its constant and no one cares. i get to sit here with a big fucking SMILE on my face. and tell the world thank you. im tired of it. m...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Fri, 29 Jun 2007 11:21:00 PST

if youre insincere, its manipulative.♥

-"Everyone who got where he is, has had to begin where he was." - -"Success is not measured by what you accomplish but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maint...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Thu, 14 Jun 2007 04:20:00 PST

tears of joy. tears of sadness.♥

so no words can really describe what im feeling right now. i just got back from hoquiams graduation. i was fine with it all. schools over. so what. yippee, right? not so much. i was watching all ...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 09:57:00 PST

♥throwing out the feelers. feel free to throw back.

im so confused at life right now. ive never known someone who can make me so happy one minute.. but who i want nothing to do with the next. i love him. with my whole heart. but its something s...
Posted by jaki[[ogre.†]] on Fri, 11 May 2007 10:09:00 PST