Jessica.

The name is Jessica. most people call me Jess, or Jessi.
yes.. with an I.
Welcome to my world.
"She is vulnerable,
for the same reason she is strong."
first. my family is my everything. i'd go insane without my mother.
my friends. i have few. but they mean the world to me.
i have two amazing best friends. kody, & abby. they keep me going, & i love them with my whole heart.
i have reason to be the way that i am. and you most likely will never know those reasons.
there's a cage around her heart.
i'm done giving. i'm done being the nice girl.
show me something different. i dare you.
i'm the strongest i've ever been before, & i do not tolerate bullshit from anyone.
anti-bullshit, pro-fun.
i'm stubborn, & hard headed.
i see too much good in people, & it always seems to backfire on me.
i've worked my ass off my whole life in everything that i've ever done. i'm still waiting for my pay off.
i've given up on love, & it has given up on me.
i make & break my own rules when & where i want.
i'm a handful.
i lovee all different kinds of music. i don't discriminate :]
i'm always up for a challenge.
i'm very ambitious.
i work hard, & play harder.
i just recently moved to california from ohio.
& it was quiet possibly been the best thing for me thus far.
although i love california, i hate the people.
i'm much stronger than what i may appear.
only the impossible fits into the heads of those that are incapable.
i'm obsessed with the twilight book series. & possibly a bit jealous of bella & edward.
i love my freckles :]
i can proudly say, that i am one of few women that can wear little to no make up, & still be pleased with my appearance.
i will not be a barbie doll. if you don't like the way i look, look elsewhere.
i'm guarded. the result of too many bad experiences. deal with it.
i'm no where near perfect. i fuck up, & make mistakes, but i'm learning new parts of me as every day passes & i love where my life is headed.
a part of me will always be that little country girl.
optimism lacks reality, pessimism lacks hope.
realism is my weapon of choice.
seduce my mind, and you can have my body.
.. find my soul, and I’m yours forever.
little sentimental things make me smile :]
i'd die without chipotle.
i'm clumsy as hell.
you can always tell what kind of mood i'm in by what music i'm listening to. haha
i love orchids & lily's.
my favorite things to wear are hoodies & jeans or cheer shorts.
i'm impatient as all hell.
i have an extremely bad temper. i'm working on it.
people mistake my being shy for bitchiness. that's just me though.
i love in-n-out burger :]
doing new things & being spontaneous makes me very happy.
i get bored easily.
its hard for me to wear my heart on my sleeve. but i try.
i hate being vulnerable. & feeling as though i'm being judged.
i get frustrated very easily.
i'm competitive in every aspect of my life. sometimes it isn't such a good thing.
i'm unorganized.
i'm not lady like, at all.
reading helps me escape. especially if i can relate to the book in some way.
i live on my phone.
my style is very diverse.
my heart is in fashion.
i cannot stand hypocrites.
double standards piss me off.
i happen to like the way i look in the morning without make up. if you don't, too bad.
there is more to life than looks & beauty.
i cannot stand cocky men or women. & yes, there is a difference between confidence & being cocky.
i love the fact that i look nothing like the fake bitches out here. and never will.
i'm a fun person :]
people that are closed minded frustrate me.
i love laughing. & having a grand 'ol time.
i'm horrible at communication.
i hold alot in.
i've been called cynical. but i'm just a realist.
weird things make me happy.
dark hair is a weakness.
i'm eclectic, irresponsible, & extremely spontaneous.
i've been told i'm predictable. i refuse to believe it.
i refuse to change or censor myself for anyone.
it's hard for me to trust someone. but once i do, i do.
when i drink tequila it does things to me.
thunderstorms make me happy.♥
i love to express myself. in more ways than one.
i can only be me.
& i love every bit of who i am today.
i am a firm believer that normality, is very overrated haha.
i love to educate myself. knowledge is a beautiful thing.
your true colors will always shine eventually.
i love reading people.
i believe music, & or lyrics can express everything.
i hate knowing that there are things in life & love i cannot control or change.
i believe that there are only a few real & decent people left in this world.
don't ask me about politics. i'll most likely get pissed.
i'm the most impulsive person you will ever meet.
i have a slight obsession with shoes.
i have a foot phobia.
i love music. i can't say that enough.
if someone tells me that i cannot do something, i make it my personal goal to prove them otherwise.
i'm spiteful, obviously.
when i actually go for something, that means i truly want it.
i'm a hopeful creature
i have this belief that anything is possible.
.. if you want it enough, you'll make it happen. no matter what it takes.
i'm persistent as hell.
i can be jealous at times.
opinionated yet open minded.
if i'm loud & obnoxious around you. it means i'm comfortable.
i'm vulgar.
when you see me, remind yourself that you don't know me. therefore, don't judge me.
i've been called a bitch many times, but ehh who hasn't?
judge me & i'll prove you wrong. tell me what to do & i'll tell you off. say im not worth it & watch where i end up. call me a bitch & i'll show you one. fuck me over & i'll do it to you twice as bad.
i was raised by independent women. So that's what i strive to be.
my mom is my hero.
i was a dancer for eleven years. it was, and still is my only true passion.
tattoos are the sexiest form of art.
i have four of my own, & soon to be more.
every girl says they are not like most. so i won't say it. i'll let you be the judge.
i'm half Native American & half Irish.
it kills me to see my best friends hurt, so don't fuck with them.
i love to be a girly girl.
but it's only good in small doses.
i'm not materialistic what so ever.
i hate makeup. it gives false impressions.
i eat weird things. ask anyone.
first impressions are how i'll see you. make a good one.
i recently started Muay Thai training to eventually compete in it.
& i already ♥ it.
i'm unsure of what i want to do with my life..
.. but i'm still young enough for it to be okay.
i believe that my imperfections make me beautiful & who i am
i relate everything to music.
my worst fear is losing my mom.
i have a albino burmese python. her name is Penelope.
this doesn't even come close to covering anything about me.
& i could be lying about every little detail.
so form your own opinion.
"She's selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. She make mistakes, she's out of control, and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle her at her worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve her at her best."
take me as i am, or not at all.
the end.