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ZHARMAINE

i have come a long way to be where i am today.. and ill be damned if i let you get me out of charact

About Me

my name is zharmaine... im currently trying to adjust to this cali life again.. my daughter is my life.. she has made me into the person that i am today.. i dont tolerate ignorance... i hate rude people.. cant stand fake ass people.. but this world is full of them.. i only deal with a handful of people.. my friends can be counted on one hand.. as much as i would love to live a drama free life.. its sad to say but i have drama.. but it doesnt keep me down.. i keep it pushing regardless of who tries to keep me from living.. my daughter is my reason to live.. and no one can take that away from me
i love MAC makeup.. my blackberry and my mda is my life!... my ipod keeps me awake at work... i love pumps and flip flops.. i love the art of threading.. pedicures are a must! i love dressing up for work.. its a chance to play dress up!! i love dresses.. im addicted to music...
Life is difficultThis is a great truth, one of the greatest truths. It is a great truth because once we truly see this truth, we transcend it. Once we truly know that life is difficult--once we truly understand and accept it--then life is no longer difficult. Because once it is accepted, the fact that life is difficult no longer matters.
M. Scott Peck from The Road Less Traveled
DWELL NOT ON THE PAST,
USE IT TO ILLUSTRATE A POINT
THEN LEAVE IT BEHIND
NOTHING REALLY MATTERS
EXCEPT WHAT YOU DO NOW
IN THIS INSTANT OF TIME
FROM THIS MOMENT ONWARD
YOU CAN BE AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT PERSON
FILLED WITH LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING
READY WITH AN OUTSTRETCHED HAND
UPLIFTED AND POSITIVE
IN EVERY THOUGHT AND DEED
EILEEN CADDY
GOD SPOKE TO ME
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my daughter.. shes what keeps me going.. she makes me want to wake up the next day to face the harsh reality of this world.. she makes me look forward to coming home so i can see her smile ..

La'Raina.. the other little booger in my life..
my giirls.. thanks to them.. im still breathing.. no lie

TAWANA BANANA AND MY DACA!!! they were always der wit encouraging words!

I'd like to meet:

THERES ONLY ONE PERSON IN THIS WORLD THAT WAS WORTH MEETING.. AND I MET HER ON JULY 12, 2006 AND MY LIFE WAS COMPLETE..

Music:

im a sucker for some good r&b

Movies:

i will usually watch anything..

Television:

i love anything on a&e..carlos mencia.. umm.. shit ionno i only watch tv when i have d time.. so i guess whatevers on at d moment..

Books:

i love books but rite now i am working on 48 laws of power

Heroes:

heroes? my great grandmother.. grandmother.. and mom.. we come from a long line of strong women.. and i thank them for raising me to not be afraid of anyone or anything.. and because of them i made it through the hardest moments of my life...i know my daughter is a little bit too young to be my hero... but she is.. ever since she was born she has given me a different kind of happiness and a totally different type of drive.. the drive to survive ..

My Blog

gotta keep going

when i first heard about it... i felt like passing out.. everytime i think about it.. i feel like running away.. but i have realized that this is only a test.. a test of my strength and my faith.. i b...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 06:34:00 PST

DEAR LORD, PLEASE PROTECT ME

DEAR LORD, AT THIS POINT IN TIME I AM GOING TO HUMBLE MYSELF TO YOU AND ASK YOU TO GIVE ME STRENGTH. MANY NIGHTS THAT I TALK TO YOU I HAVE ALWAYS ASKED YOU FOR PATIENCE AND UNDERSTANDING BUT LORD I AM...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sun, 01 Jul 2007 10:03:00 PST

TIRED OF STRIVING TO BE GOOD IN UR EYES

DATE UNKNOWN..   EVER LOOKED IN THE MIRROR AND NOT SEE WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU WOULD SEE? SELF ESTEEM SHUT DOWN ONCE YOU SAW YOUR REFLECTION? THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BEINGS IN THIS WORLD OFTEN CANNOT LOO...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sat, 26 May 2007 08:36:00 PST

WALKING OUT OF MY LIFE..

WRITTEN 1/30/2007   SOMEONE DECIDED TO WALK OUT OF MY LIFE TODAY.. IT BROKE MY HEART TO SEE SOMEONE WHO IS VERY DEAR TO ME WALK OUT TO PURSUE A LIFE WITHOUT ME IN IT.. I TEND TO BLAME MYSELF FOR ...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sat, 26 May 2007 08:32:00 PST

A GRATEFUL MAN

WRITTEN WHILE I WAS STILL IN VIRGINIA..   I USED TO THINK THAT BECAUSE OF YOU I WAS NEVER GOING TO GIVE ANOTHER MAN A CHANCE TO GET TOO CLOSE. I THOUGHT I DIDNT WANT ANYONE TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNI...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sat, 26 May 2007 08:24:00 PST

Y CUDNT I? Y DIDNT I?

WHY COULDN'T I SEE THE SIGNS, THAT U R AS TRIFLIN AS CAN BE? WHY DIDN'T I JUST WALK AWAY THE FIRST TIME U LAID UR HANDS ON ME? WHY DID I CHOOSE TO IGNORE THE CLUES U WERE DROPPING? WHY DID I LET U TRE...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Thu, 24 May 2007 09:04:00 PST

you NO LONGER have a HOLD of ME

at times i find myself starting to get sad over what you have put me through then i snap out of it and realize that i will no longer let you keep me down. for too long you have kept me from pursuing m...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 11:30:00 PST

guys are full of shit

guys are full of shit.. seriously.. dey say one thing but does another.. this is not only towards chris but this is also to those who became a part of me this past couple of months with the exception ...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 10:23:00 PST

this BITCH got CAUGHT..

its so sad when u lie and cheat for so long.. den u slip up ONE time and get caught d fuck up.. u retarded ass muthafucka     ----- Original Message ----From: christopher james antimo To: CO...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 11:54:00 PST

FUCK U.. but @least now UR GONE

PLEASE READ.. take it all into consideration.. learn from it.. live it.. dont be blind.. open ur eyes and wake up..     TO MY DEAREST BITCH ASS SOON TO BE EX HUSBAND   There are days i...
Posted by ZHARMAINE on Sun, 15 Apr 2007 05:29:00 PST