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olis lonley soulmate.

i have said nothing because there is nothing i can say that would describe how i feel as perfectly a

About Me


ich. bin. nach. gestern. noch. immer. emotional. tot.hoch lebe der bunkerische selbstschutz.


..ma vie..
c'est un nature morte.où est mon amour?gelé dans en rêve..une illusion jolie..
nous ne sommes pas..jamais de la vie.
..it's the mendacity...it's the disgust with the world, the liars and at least, it's just the disgust with myself..
..it's the perfect lie in a though not compatible true world...but the more i think about this fucking statement the more i recognize, that it's rather backwards...how ironical.
..it's the beautiful perfection of butterflies, hurricanes and leather-tapes...
A tribute to my girl.
..CONVERSE * LOVE...
..well, i think i've already passed all haircolors and all haircuts that exists in all of their combinations... °°depression demands for diversification, seriously...°°

now: they're turning into a "rockstar-blonde"...


- - - I'M HER PORTRAIT IN BLACK - - - - - (..where's the sarcasm???oh, i got it..it's my fuuucking LIFE!!!)
**BALLSAISON***

ALWAYS HARDCORE. [..passiv-aggressiv]


actually it is not a misunderstood one, it is just a not accepted lost part of my life ...seriously..

. CS undergoing blue luminescence???


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..my life is the love i share with dani, basti, oli, julce and rubin...♥

-------------------------B L O O D S U G A R----------------------------


ok, so let's Rock'n'Roll


Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly, Now I can't let go of this dream, I can't breathe but I feel...I can't say no to you...
..I'M GOING

INSANE

BECAUSE OF YOU DAMN MOTHERFUCKERS...
..oh, ich schwoere bei der heiligen jungfrau von guadelupe das ist ein hervorragendes gebraeu." "das ist ganz normaler kaffee." "nein nein nein, das ist eine fluessige droge, ein keramikbecher voll sonnenschein. fuer mich mein lieber ist es...wie sex... dr. cox for president
..the sad sad story of the lonley and tortured soul of the lady ...
..but we fuck it from the heart...
bin grad ziemlich hinueber ich muss gehn weg woandershin wo alles farbig is die menschen lachen und es ernst meinen verlogene drecks welt wo man traenen noch ernst nehmen kann und eine umarmung nicht nur als eine umarmung sehen kann wo so etwas bedeutungslose wie eine seele nicht nur ihren literarischen wert hat sondern auch tatsaehlich von bedeutung ist wo worte noch ihre wirkung zeigen und nicht nur einen leeren inhalt wiederspiegeln wo menschen einfach nur menschen sein koennen wo man auch mal nicht vergeben muss und nicht nur so tun muss als ob alles okay ist denn das is es nicht scheiss auf die menschheit scheiss auf das leben scheiss auf alles, eine grosse luege die aus lauter kleinen scheinbaren bedeutungslosen schwindeleinen besteht...
..plötzlich war die welt anders, auf eine art und weise verändert, wie kein jemand die macht hat sie wieder zurück zu verändern, die träne, welche mir leise entwich, erstarrte in all ihrem schmerz, mein herzschlag stoppte...in dem wissen, dich gehen lassen zu müssen, lief ich ins von nun an ewig erdunkelte, tastete mich zu meiner erblassten einsamkeit...und du starbst blutend in meinen armen...wieso hast du mich allein gelassen...? ( A.G. - R.I.P ..i'll never forget you, my love...)
...coffee and cigarettes, and my day becomes perfect...
 
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My Interests


actually, i am the lonliest girl in the world.



M.U.S.I.C.!!...
singing
musicians

rettungs-sanitäter ;)
jaegermeister!!!
my best friend to cuddle on a rainy sunday afternoon
doing stupid stuff with oli and basti (watching pornos [hahaa] and playing guitar hero till i freak out during drinking jaegermeister and beer - as usual
coffee
blaulicht.it makes me horny°

listening to chopin while writing a songtext
being confused and overstrained..as always.. Oo

sleeping till the evenig awakes again
"yam yam instant noudles" - actually, they are really called like that
concerts and festivals
marlboro lights
steinbock signed people
kisses on my forehead
perfect orgasms like celldwellers "frozen" beginning of the singing part

ballsaison**

after becoming a miss doctor, helping the sick and the poor in far far away.
rain (especially warm and rainy nights - kind of beeing with the one you love in the rain - sounds too romantic for the certainty that it's me who is saying this haha)
motorbikes
paris - la ville d'amour
blonde haircolor
youtube - it's fucking my soul^^
reading books

hrmpf, eeeew and bleeh.

watching stupid people doing their crappy damn stuff
pink
searching for 'satanischer sexgott'
grousing with julce
the sound of a surpassing flashing by ninja
blood and surgeries
martini - the extra dry one
ice-cubes
black laces underwear but also pink panties :)
watching scrubs and friends with dani all night long
popcooorn!!!

drummer *gg*
soaps
brickerl-ice :D
beautiful duets
loughing with basti
i'm living with chandler bing's asking "what" on "what- questions" hahaa
blackouts
sunglasses :)
'hardcore-metal electro scheisse'

butterflies everywhere.. :)
pink piercings and tattoos
watching friends for hours and can't stop loughing
beeing a singer
my bed is like the "bermuda dreieck"..i always lose my damn tv controles..
having soup evenings with rubin and beeing that drunk with her we never want to be again (which always fails, for real hahaa)
my cats
classical music
summertime
i love everything that's pink and kind of bling bling in my eyes

..and cooking.. :D haha no, i really suck, so i N.E.V.E.R cook!! :D
..and coffee, coffee, more coffee....

being an ignorant, sarcastical, ironical and though absolutely loveable person (for only a few)

doing stupid stuff with my "little" sister
..playing the piano and the guitar(i try best)...

..wanna ride with me...? *wzzzzzzzzzzzm*

komm und klau mich
nimm mich, ich verlier mich
trau dich
lass dich fallen und vertrau mir
wenn du deine augen wieder oeffnest
siehst du mein laecheln
ich schenke es dir...und nur dir

..sex up the drums ...

loved bikes in the world: ****Kawasaki Ninja zx 6r
**Suzuki GSXR 1000
*Honda CBR 600
***aaand of course the one and only..Bienchen :)

*nz*nz*nz*nz*nz*nz*

i know it's kind of girlie-like, but i do collect shoes :D

*lööölölölöö*

I'd like to meet:

synytser gates

*roaaawwrr*

..the one and only never dies...

Wes bentley

..my best friends, the people i love...


***
..and my future baby..the true love...

- the end -

Music:

"nein basti, das lied mag ich, das is clean und ka hohes präburertäres gekreische wie von 12 jährigen menstruatösen pickeligen übergewichtigen mädls mit 5 diops und fettigen haaren im stimmbruch" [02:25]

°As I Lay Dying
°Atreyu
°Enter Shikari
°Nine Inch Nails
°°°

chopin.

°KoRn
°Cavalera Conspiracy
°Celldweller
°Soulfly
°°°
°the one and only Falco
°°
°Static X
°Sepultura
°Killswitch Engage
°Stone Sour
°A Day To Remember
°Avenged Sevenfold
°Muse
°Evanescence
°Nickelback
°Pantera
°°
°Linkin Park
°Bullet For My Valentine
°Dream Theater
°Metallica
°Soil
°Manson
°Guano Apes
°Trivium
°The Sorrow
°H-I-M
°Mudvayne
°Rage Against The Machine
°Rammstein
°Papa Roach
°°
°Kmfdm
°The Prodigy
°Pendulum
°°
..and influenced by my band*members i really do love the following...
°Atreyu °Caliban
°As I Lay Dying
°Killswitch Engage
°Enter Shikari
°In Flames
°Ektomorf
°Soilwork

Movies:

the rocky horror picture show!!!!!!

the notebook
***
the bourne identity
the bourne supremacy
the bourne ultimatum
titanic
tenacious D
beerfest
the notebook
Falco - verdammt wir leben noch
lucky number slevin
pulp fiction
american history x
dirty dancing
school of rock
muttertag
ace ventura owa sooowas von fix
teuflisch..(hrhrhr...)
grease
Monty Python's the Meaning of Life
Monty Python...life of Brian
bubble boy
clockwork orange
donnie darko
trainspotting
the phantom of the opera(only the musical)
moulin rouge
red dragon
from hell
forrest gump
the big Lebowsky
Tristan und Isolde
about a boy
pirates of the caribbean
cutie honey
models...lol
..and i fucking love sister act...

Television:

friends!!!

***
scrubs
mein cooler onkel charlie

king of queens
the nanny
the simpsons
die sendung ohne namen R.I.P
malcom mittendrin
und ihr koennt sagen was ihr wollt aber ich liiiebe charmed!!!und OC california XD (It's justynas fault!!!)

Books:

..mir ist das herz so voll mit euch zu reden.
...das schwere herz wird nicht durch worte leicht.
..doch könnten worte uns zu taten führen.
...die einz'ge tat ist jetzt geduld und schweigen...
-F. Schiller

Tennessee Williams
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Pauolo Coelho - when i'm sad
Goethe
Schiller
Akif Pirincci(famous for his felidae-romans with his speaking cat named francis)
kafka schnitzler
rober musil - but only a few well wrote books
mark haddon

Heroes:


..you will always be my hero...(teilen wir uns den mond?)
..

Lyrics

ghost rider, with his fucking 500 PS suzuki ;)
..and charlie sheen... ;)

*brumm brumm

My Blog

..heath...R.I.P

..rest in peace beauty... :'(     ..will not be the same without you cowboy......
Posted by olis lonley soulmate. on Fri, 25 Jan 2008 06:26:00 PST