KittyKat

My name is Kathryne, Im 17 y.o. Im a very emotional person, I sometimes cry and I can get hurt easily. Im not really the type to get insecure, yet who doesnt feel brought down sometimes right? I can be deppressed but I try not to show it. I tend to be quiet, yet I can be talkative too, and happy. I wouldnt say school's the place for me. I dont really talk to many ppl much. Im not one to say Im catholic, or christian, or whatever, cuz I dont know if there really is a God. I dont believe whats said in church, but I never said I was against christians. Though, if religion never existed, we'd have peace on earth. I really believe in true love, but I dont search for it. I wait until it finds me. I have been in love only once, and it was a long-term relationship. But things change, ppl change. I LOVED him. Too much to say to that story, and it really changed me too. I feel bad for the ppl who havent had a broken heart. Your so naive, its sad. Your safe for now, but expect the unexpected. It really affects you negatively, yet in positive ways too, in a twisted way, and makes you much stronger. I uncontiously give bitchy looks without realising it, seriously its just my natural look. You tend to be surprised when you get to know me. Ive always been a great listenner when it comes to ppl pouring their feelings out. Im a very accepting person which is why I dont judge before I know the person. You dont know me, so dont judge me(even by my myspace page or my pics). I was always the one to get judged, ppl automatically think Im a whore just by one look at me. Im just a girl who's trying to find herself and I dont need that shit from you. I dont go from one guy to the next. I really dont see how a person can have a new guy/girl every fucking week. It makes no sense, and I really dont agree with that. At least I dont have that problem, I dont get bored of the person, and Im proud of that, unlike you players out there. I am NOT promiscuous at all, and Im probly the most innocent person you will ever meet. Im against homophobics, racism and prejudice, discrimination just pisses me off. I really do not accept it. I get very angry for other ppl when it happens to them, even if it had nothing to do with me. I like getting to know ppl more and I dont care what ppl think, cuz changing for some1 is just stupid and caring too much about looks. If you make negative comments to my face, even as 'joke', Im a bitch about it. You wouldnt think so, but looks can be deceiving. I take that shit seriously. If I dont like this certain friend, I wont tell you to not talk to her or him. Its your buisness, your life, your friend, not mine. I would let you eventually see the true colors. I dont usually hate a person for no reason, and it doesnt happen very often. A turn-off is cockeyness. Its so pathetic, and digusts me. Having fun, and being yourself is very important(why do u think its been said many many times lolz.)I also love to have fun with my friends, and I dont blow off any1. Im not mean, and if I see you are interested in getting to know me, and make me feel like Im not left out, Im nice as hell. If you ignore me, you will be ignored. You dont have to like me, and I certainly dont have to like you. Im extremely compassionate, When it comes to loving some1 truly, I really do mean it. I have tons and tons of patience for the ones I love, sometimes too much. You can walk all over me if you want to, it takes a shitload for me to leave the person I really love. I dont believe in cheating at all. Id rather have my heart stomped on over and over endlessely, then live with the horrible guilt of intentionally hurting some1. I have a soft heart, and if you dont, then you might as well be in a body bag. Depending, it can take a shitload to earn my respect if I just meet you. I really like ppl who have sense of humour, if you make me laugh, I fuckin love you. Also, ppl who think of others a bit more, rather than themselves, who can listen to what others have to say, instead of shutting them out. Im not some idiot who thinks Im better than you, and I dont think too highly of myself. At the same time I can be confident when I want, and try not to let ppl bring me down. I never liked much makeup, I only like wearing a bit of eye makeup and I despise cover-up. A natural look is better then putting a mask on(I have my own opinion right). It just makes it seem too inauthentic. Ill admit one thing that can sometimes make me feel insecure about myself is comparing myself to girls(or should I say WOMAN) and celebrities in magazines, cuz I dont find look like that. But honestly, I would say its a good thing, yet at times gives me low self-esteem. Also, do you really need surgery to be "hot"? Is this your definition of being "perfect", since perfection doesnt even exist. And seriously, its a big wonder why guys give the impression they like big 100% FAKE DD's tits and a mask with layers of makeup. Caused by media, ''friends'', etc. It makes us girls feel like we're supposed to look like that and we're pressured do want to do so, as a way to get success in this world, to fit in, and to feel wanted. Its a big JOKE. We dont have to change our look to fit in with you posers. I swear, I can write a whole fuckin essay on giving my opinion on ANYTHING and how I feel about it in perfect detail. This is just how I am. Im sure Ive already proved that well lolz. Im a natural brunette, never colored my hair in my life. My eyes are green with a little bit of gold in the middle. Im pale, cuz Im never in the sun. Id rather not burn my skin to death and ruin it. We all have our own unique natural beauty, which doesnt need to be covered with full of that fake shit. Im a big HUGE music fanatic, it always gets me through life every day. I love singing songs by christina aguilera and jazz stuff(I think the video of her performance I put is VERY powerful)yet also I listen to heavy metal, and its not noise it really relaxes me. My fave band is Flyleaf(they're christian, but I respect them alot). Though, Im very versitile with my music taste, most of it is on my playlist. I'd have to say my most fave song is "Supernatural", the lyrics make me cry lolz(but like I said I dont know if there is a God). Other stuff ppl dont know : -Ive NEVER tried drugs -Im ADHD -I HATE snobs -Im amazed by tall buildings in big cities, dont ask why lolz -I used to never be emotional, now Im the complete oppisite -I never found myself attractive, sometimes I try and make myself believe I am -Im not much of a traveler -Im very against smoking and all other drugs -Im not social, Im not anti-social -I dont spend all my time getting ready -Most of the time Im in pj's -I never really pretty myself up -I leave my hair the way it naturaly is(very wavy) -I very rarely straighten my hair -You will NEVER see makeup in my purse -I think everything happens for a reason -I like to cry when Im alone sometimes -Im absolutely in LOVE with hot fudge sundays -I find it kinda an insult when ppl say Im tiny, or that I look young for my age. Just get over it. Fetishes : washing hands, moisturizers, face masks, music -I also snort loud when I laugh lolz -I know I said Im not the type to feel insecure, but I feel like thats now changing -I think its hard for me to find love again -A few words to describe myself would be deep&sensible Can I say that seeing a couple every single day hurts me? Yes, I definitly can. We are surrounded by that, since love is basically everything and theres no escape from ever feeling it once you are in love...But Im gonna find that one day. To be honest, I CANNOT imagine why when ppl are taken, they like some1 else. If you like some1 else, obviously your not committed to your bf/gf. You dont know what the hell you want, and you cant stay interested in just one person, so breakup with them. Yes, we know, you dont want to hurt them. Well, your gonna hurt them so much more if you cheat on them. Its better to be honest with them, than fucking cheating, then it turns into lies, than hurts them more. Im warning you, If I do catch you cheating on your bf/gf, Im a complete asshole about it cuz I really dont agree with it, and Im a big-mouth too. Why do ppl cheat? That question always remains unanswered. Proves that life isnt only unfair, its hell. WE make it unfair and hell, and Im not only talking about relationships, but the majority is the reason. Why do you think we cant avoid getting hurt? Think hard about that. Most of the time you gotta tell the world to go fuck itself. You were supposed to come here looking for answers? Its all of the above, every single word. My Facebook : http://hs.facebook.com/profile.php/font