Sydney
Um, my full name is Francesca Juel Kayte Willis, 19 years old, i'm a Pisces, um... I have a few admirers, yes. I'm sports captain this year, house captain last year, I was a finalist for the DOLLY covergirl of the year, going for school captain next year- probably gonna get it, got dux last year, probably getting dux this year, like seriously i probably will still get it. I don't know why, but i'm just, like, really good at alot of things. Some girls maybe get, like, totally jealous and stuff but I think it's probably because i'm hot as well. It must be really hard for them but, like, it's not exactly my fault do you know what i mean? I can't help it. I didn't ask to be born hot.
----------------------------------------I love rubbing table salt through my hands and scrunching it between my fingers. Disposable cameras produce a more organic photograph, and I prefer them to my digital alternative. Nothing compares to driving down Sydney’s Mona Vale road at night and turning the headlights off at various intervals along the way. Granted, this is dangerous and I do not condone such behaviour. Time is lost on me when I’m in the water and all I need is a swimming pool or an ocean to get my fix. I believe "love" is an illusion that people will feed to others to cure their own loneliness. However, there are people who change your life for the better and it is these people whom I adore. Fashion is fickle and so are those who live their lives being dictated by the latest trend. Honestly I couldn't think of anything worse. I'm drawn to people who can openly disagree with, and challenge, my opinions on society. I think a lot of people nowadays are so consumed with their need to break the mould, that nonconformist tendencies are now the new conforming. Everyone is so achingly desperate to be different, that they all just end up looking the same. In my lifetime, so far, I have wasted countless opportunities and yet despite this, I have no regrets. About anything. I believe Australia is the greatest country in the world, and everyday I know I am incredibly lucky to be living here, even though both my parents aren’t even Australian citizens. I believe in giving people second chances, and more than one opportunity to redeem themselves. I believe my friends are all far more attractive than me. Binge drinking is a huge (and imperative) part of my life, and I like people who can keep up with me. It's a big deal if I make breakfast for you but people are rarely appreciative. My father is the most important person in my life, and I love him more than he will ever be able to comprehend. He is the reason I have learnt to appreciate, and be grateful for, the life I have. The 18th of May, 2006 is the day that changed my life, and the consequences that surrounded that day are irreversible. I can not tolerate people on drugs- I hate who they become. Yet in saying that, I am often guilty of partaking in such pleasures. I never do things in moderation. Everything I do is either in excess and without limitation, or not done at all. I won't tolerate people being rough with me unless it's during sex. I am also a born again virgin. Most days I hide beneath a guise of something I pretend to be. It is all about pleasing others, living altruistically, that is where I draw joy from life. Sometimes I think I am far too passionate about things which others believe do not require such fervor, like photography, or written expression. I change my mind very quickly, and move on from issues rapidly, as I believe there is no point dwelling on things that I realize will inevitably mean nothing to me in years or even days to come. I write everything down and the dictionary is my best friend- right there next to my other friend Ketel One vodka. I could never be with a man who can't swim well, there is nothing in the world as unattractive as he who can not hold himself in the water. I have ridiculously high standards and expectations and have never settled for second best. I am currently writing a novel that has been in the works for nearly two years but I couldn’t say how far it is ‘til completion, it changes all the time. Standing in the rain alone at night is a closely guarded joy I shall never part with. I’m rediscovering my religion and while I constantly fail, I am trying to be a better Christian, and a better person. A year ago I would have laughed at the notion, yet it has all but consumed me now, and altered my perception on existence in all facets. There’s someone I am specifically grateful toward for leading me down this path because I know it would never have happened without his guidance. I LOVE my mums African cooking- namely her boerewors and tomato & apricot chutney- it is heaven. I am currently studying Journalism at university, but for as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be a race car driver. Who knows what will come of any of this, or how my future will play out. The beauty of the unknown is not only unsettling but incredibly empowering- everyone has the ability to change and shape the world around us. How many people actually initiate it? The world itself is in turmoil and without sounding like a tree hugging, peace sign wielding, Carpenters listening (fuck they’re good) hippy, it makes me sad to think what mankind has done not only to our planet but to one another. I wear a gold diamond ring on my right hand that has only left my finger twice in three years. Once was when it was pulled off in a fit of rage, and the second was a similar instance where I pawned it, realized the mistake, and bought it back for double what I was paid. I put this all down to being young and stupid, as it seems to justify all my actions, and I wonder how long I will keep using it as an excuse. Probably until the day I die.
