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About Me

i'm an overly anxious young woman who thinks too damn much about nonsense for her own good. i'm an optimistic pessimist. i'm a little boring. i'm a complicated sort of simple and a lovable sort of unhappy. i'm never great but i'm usually okay. i'm preoccupied, but with what i'm still not quite sure. i have a bad memory. i feel guilty for things i can't change. i don't often change things that i can. i am foolish. i think fool is a strange word. i'm uncomfortable in conversation. i'm terrified by the idea of zombies, but have an unnatural attraction to anything involving them. when asked what i want to be when i grow up, i reply: happy. i'd kinda like to see cuba one of these days, but honestly, i'd be content with just swimming in the atlantic ocean. all in all i'm just a person. i want to have a little fun, smoke a cigarette, maybe have a beer, and stay up late staring at my ceiling after i finish reading.
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

the cast-offs, as long as they aren't completely deranged: freaks, geeks, dorks, people with "alternate lifestyles". boring people, unhappy people, amusing people, people with something to say, people who just want to listen, people with dreams, people with daydreams. people with heads full of thoughts, people with hands full of action. people who are lost, people who are burning with passion. those who play spoons, those who play with string, those who play with bugs, those that just play. people who want to live and let live, who have their hangups, but try to smile nonetheless. those who don't feel they have a bone to pick into splinters, who don't feel the need to prove their own worth or superiority. basically, i want people in my life who can make me laugh at inappropriate moments, who don't mind awkward silences, who can talk me into an adventure, and who want a little compassion in their lives.

My Blog

taedium and distress

The winter withers me as it does the leaves. The sap running through my veins carries only ennui. My only desire is for warmth, and it is unquenchable. I am starved, but I feel no hunger. I don't even...
Posted by on Thu, 04 Feb 2010 12:41:00 GMT

just a phone call away

everything was going great. there was a generous amount of trust, support, affection, fun, and understanding. then, what? an unexpected issue, spoken through the phone, and a knee jerk reaction. a...
Posted by on Thu, 08 Oct 2009 11:14:00 GMT

it's what responsible people do.

a precious commodity, now more so than ever.how can you place a price on the only thing that is really worth anything?it is not just your time, it is your life. your opportunity to make memories more...
Posted by on Sun, 30 Aug 2009 15:18:00 GMT

the uninsured

........ It is a dangerous world, and for us especially, the uninsured. Every laceration, every broken bone, every severe illness means probable destitution. So we have to be careful. ...
Posted by on Sat, 11 Jul 2009 15:02:00 GMT

my lovable disjointed family

everyone i know has weird familial issues. they always make for interesting stories. what i've learned from them is that you can moan and groan, laugh, sob or scream but for this sort of thing there ...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Jun 2009 18:43:00 GMT

joie de vivre

I feel like I've lost something. Like a puzzle piece has been spirited away while I wasn't paying attention and now there's an empty spot in my blue sky. I find it really difficult to ex...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Jun 2009 17:56:00 GMT

why i'm secretly a bitch

I've always tried to be a nice person. One of those people who goes out of their way to make people comfortable, and to, if not improve their day, at least not make it any worse. But i've realized...
Posted by on Sun, 14 Jun 2009 11:05:00 GMT

on your own

i've never been one of those people who thrived on the attention of large groups of people, but i've also never been one for being alone. i tend to be happiest when i have the attention of one ot...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Jun 2009 11:28:00 GMT

getting what you want

i don't ask for a lot, really. a place to call home. tasty beverages. comfortable shoes. something other than ramen to eat. a functional vehicle. good company. money in savings. understandin...
Posted by on Sun, 07 Jun 2009 10:38:00 GMT

old words because i don't know what to say

idealists turned pessimists always taste a little bitter.i am fighting being weary of fatuous diversions, and feigning confidence while without ...
Posted by on Mon, 25 May 2009 14:22:00 GMT