I Allen Ginsberg a separate consciousness. I who want to be God. I who want to hear the infinite minutest vibration of eternal harmony. I who wait trembling my destruction by that aethereal music in the fire. I who hate God and give him a name. I who make mistakes on the eternal typewriter. I who am doomed but at the far end of the universe the million eyed spyder that hath no name spinneth of itself endlessly.
I am quite unacquainted with atheism as a result, and still less as an event: with me it is instinctive. I am too inquisitive, too skeptical, too arrogant, to let myself be satisfied with an obvious and crass solution of things. God is such an obvious and crass solution; a solution which is a sheer indelicacy to us thinkers-at bottom He is really nothing but a coarse commandment against us: ye shall not think!
Through me the way is to the city dolent; through me the way is to eternal dole; through me the way among the people lost. Justice incited my sublime Creator; created me divine Omnipotence, the highest Wisdom and the primal Love. Before me there were no created things, only eterne, and I eternal last. All hope abandon, ye who enter in!
When every man is torn apart with nightmares and with dreams, will no one lay the laurel wreath as silence drowns the screams. Between the iron gates of fate, the seeds of time were sown, and watered by the deeds of those who know and who are known; knowledge is a deadly friend when no one sets the rules. The fate of all mankind I see is in the hands of fools.
The Lords. Events take place beyond our knowledge or control. Our lives are lived for us. We can only try to enslave others. But gradually, special perceptions are being developed. The idea of the "Lords" is beginning to form in some minds. We should enlist them into bands of perceivers to tour the labyrinth during their mysterious nocturnal appearances. The Lords have secret entrances, and they know disguises. But they give themselves away in minor ways. Too much glint of light in the eye. A wrong gesture. Too long and curious a glance.
