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nat♥

ive given up on love... cause love's given up on me

About Me

im nathalie
im completely crazy
yet totally sane

My Interests

writing.
art.
music.
and... writing

Eisenhower shot Eddie Slovik for stealing bread
for not killing Germans. After the forty days,
Christ ate what he could — stale bread, vinegar.
Gandhi stopped eating so his people would not kill.

Somewhere a pride of hungry shadows scrapes stone, shifts weight.
Every border, every fence, bulkhead and screen, every curtain
strains to wall out hunger, wall in fine fat babies.
More ingenious than fruit, we fall any season.

Gandhi died with soup in his bowl, shot for rice,
his dead mouth gulping down the free sour wind.
We are the only netted fish who pull our own nets.
We are the only game we harvest we refuse to eat.

-Bill Ransom

I'd like to meet:

real people. honest people. good people.

Music:

in no particular order

♥ Michael Franti & Spearhead
♥ Umphrey's McGee (Thanks Dan!)
♥ Tom Petty
♥ Janis Joplin
♥ The Grateful Dead
♥ The Allman Brothers
♥ Neil Young
♥ The Who
♥ Slightly Stoopid
♥ Unwritten Law
♥ Elton John
♥ Jack Johnson
♥ Joss Stone
♥ Melissa Ethridge
♥ Counting Crows
♥ Black Crows
♥ Sublime
♥ Everlast
♥ Alice N' Chains
♥ Led
♥ Pink Floyd
♥ Billy Squire
♥ Bryan Adams
♥ The Doors
♥ The Beatles
♥ Ween
♥ Boston
♥ White Snake
♥ Steve Miller Band
♥ Cheap Trick
♥ The Used
♥ Bush
♥ Death by Stereo
♥ The Cranberries
♥ Blondie
♥ Queen
♥ John Lennon
♥ The Rolling Stones
♥ Santana
♥ Jefferson Airplane
♥ CCR

Movies:

The Goonies
Stand By Me
Ferris Buehlers Day Off
The Breakfast Club
St. Elmo's Fire
Pretty In Pink
16 Candles
Dirty Dancing
Weird Science
Animal House
The Wall
Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas
Woodstock
True Romance
The Departed
Lucky Number Slevin
Man on Fire
....

Television:

Family Guy, Friends, The War at Home, CSI, Law & Order, Without A Trace, Cold Case

Books:

Prodigal Summer
-Barbara Kingsolver

Where the Heart Is
-Billie Lets
Cocktails for Three
-Madeline Wickham
East of Eden
-John Steinbeck

Confessions of an Ugly Step Sister
-Gregory Maguire

Heroes:

Mom
Dad
Gabe
Dominic

Kianna
Dan

Teachers
People who help & love other people

My Blog

father

my blood runs cold.i need a cigarette.my head is pounding.he called. i pondered on answering the phone.but everyone needs a second chance, or a 50th.i did. he blames me.says its my fault for not calli...
Posted by nat♥ on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 11:11:00 PST

reading...

wow. its around 9:00 a.m. and im awake. not just awake, but i've already been downtown for a cup of coffee....this is the earliest i've gotten up since i left pullman. and it feels great. i am current...
Posted by nat♥ on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 09:16:00 PST

numb

i get lost in thought. i get sick.i sleep. its happened before,and i didnt cope.i didnt stick up for myself, and i let him treat me as if it didnt matternot anymore.it happened again.and it hit too cl...
Posted by nat♥ on Mon, 11 Dec 2006 04:52:00 PST

...everythings my fault

sitting here. its about 11:23 p.m. i have a speech due in the morning...and i cant get it all out of my head. listening to unwritten law. trying to replay what happened this weekend... how did i let m...
Posted by nat♥ on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 11:37:00 PST

loser.

... where does one start?i write to express what flows through my mind,what i cant force to roll off the tip of my tongue.my thoughts flow through my fingersas i tap the keys ...
Posted by nat♥ on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 07:23:00 PST

snow fall

life is beautiful.i sit here, going through my mindpictures of the day blow bysparkling snowglitter on the groundchilled to the bonethe soft crunch beneath your feetthe sight of your breath as it leav...
Posted by nat♥ on Wed, 29 Nov 2006 10:23:00 PST

a lot.

Im not content.  I don't understand.  I feel used and loved at the same time.  It isn't supposed to be this hard, and I know that.  I am the one that is making it this way.  I...
Posted by nat♥ on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 12:16:00 PST

music.

Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life.~Berthold Auerbach Lately I've been thinking.  Not really thinking, more so listening.  Does anyone else feel lost, and then that on...
Posted by nat♥ on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 11:55:00 PST

smell of wine & cheap perfume...

Im sitting here, listening to Nora Jones.  Who I love by the way, its amazing how much has changed.  Life in general.  Im on my bed, and someone has burnt toast, its scent is wafting th...
Posted by nat♥ on Mon, 16 Oct 2006 11:17:00 PST

huh?! whooooooo woulda thought

i laugh in your arms you make me smile your quarks are unlike anyone ive ever met youve caught me by surprise and i cant quite put a finger on it i like you  yet i dont want to get to...
Posted by nat♥ on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 01:10:00 PST