About Me
I've realised happiness isn't about waking up every morning trying to show people that you're happy, it's about waking up every morning already happy.
When you live life truley happy, you don't need to coreograph it, you just live, and people notice the happiness within you for themselves.
There's a defenition of happiness shared by everyone, a picture of what we grow up believeing happiness really should look like. When truthfully, happiness isn't finding in real life what you only see in movies. It isn't based on written scripts, planned to work out perfectly, with the ending already set, and easily changable.
It's about stepping outside of the box, doing things some people may not understand, taking chances, and following your heart.. Because the road to true happiness isn't suppose to be as simple as following the yellow brick road. It's suppose to be hard, discouraging, and full of obsticales..If it wasn't then you'd never get the chance to test how badly you wanted it, or how easily you'd be willing to give up.
When you find true happiness in something, whatever it may be, you just know it. And once you recognize it, no matter how long it had been there unnoticed, you no longer have to wonder about what happiness should look like. You let down every wall you've ever put up, risk everything you've worked years to keep hidden, and if it turns out bad you have no regrets, because for once in your life you know you followed exactly where your heart wanted to go.
My name's Brooke, and I'm 19.
I'm comfortable with who I am, and the skin I'm in.
I believe the most beautiful people are happy people.
I absolutly loathe being alone, in any sense of the word.. I'm terrified of it, honestly.
I'm a very easy person to get along with, I won't be mean to you..unless maybe you're mean to me first, which is still unlikely.
I'd rather be someone's friend then their enemy, and I can honestly say I don't hate anyone.. I may not love them all, but I atleast like around 85% of the people I run across.
I like not knowing what's going to happen next, waking up, and stepping blindly into the unknown.
I value each person as their own, capable of making their own decisions and living up to their own mistakes.. I will not judge anyone's life based on their decisions or mistake's, they was theirs to make.
I'm rarely in a bad mood, and even if I am, you'll probably never guess it.
I hide my feelings amazingly well when I want to, and trust me there aren't many times I don't want to hide them.
I've met only one person who can read me like a book, know exactly what I'm feeling before even I fully know. He's also the only person who can piss me off, and calm me down in just a matter of minutes.
Besides that one exception I'm very hard to get mad, but once I am mad, It's even harder to calm me down.
I not only have a soft side, I have a very soft side. Many people never fully get to know this side.. but, however hidden it may be, it's still there.
My feelings get hurt easier than you could imagine, but I hide it so well you may never know when they are.
I over-analyse the meaning of everything.
I usually keep myself pretty closed off, but once I fall, I fall fast, and love hard.
And when you love hard, you hurt even harder.
<*But somehow with you, it was worth it>
I never forget anything, and even if the memories are painful, I'll never want to forget.
Without memories, everything you've ever done is worthless.
One of my biggest fears, like many people, is being old, and looking back on my life, regretting not doing everything I could have.
But as long as I have memories to look back on, and I done what made me happy..I know I'll never regret not doing something different.
Because in the end, all that matters is how happy you were while you had the chance, and the memories you made doing it.
Even if what once made you happy, stopped making you happy along the way.
I'm extremely stubborn when it comes to things that really matter to me.
Non-important things are easier for me to let go.
Which makes arguing with me extremely easy, if it's not important I'll gladly back down to avoid an argument.
But if it is important to me, I'll argue until my point's proven..
I look at the world in a different way than many people understand.
I don't see things in balck and white.
Nothing is ever given to you, and nothing is ever taken from you.
Some thing's go wrong and some thing's go right.
When things go right, you worked for it.. When things go wrong you need to ask yourself if you're willing to try harder.. And depending on how badly you want it, it will eventually turn out right.
I find comfort in little things like, taking pictures, music, and running.
I like taking pictures of the sceneries you're sure you'll never see again, the ones that make you stop and stare, and if you didn't bring a camera, make you wish a hundred times you had.
I like songs with meanings that I can relate to, lyrics that scream at me, and melodies that make me sing along.. The songs that make me smile, the ones that make me remember, or the ones that make me cry.
I like running when things are on my mind, pushing myself harder then I ever thought possible until I honestly believe my lungs are fixing to collapse, but never stopping.. because the pain numbs all other emotions, giving me a moment to completely forget about everything else besides simply catching my next breathing.
