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tim(notw)

i show my scars proudly

About Me

My name is Tim and I'm 22. I work at Caruso's as a busboy and i've been there since April of this year. I'm also a courtesy clerk at fry's and I've been there since August. I wanted to get promoted for the longest time but i get alot of hours and alot of tips at Caruso's so there is no point anymore plus i would have the time. I would quit but i'm staying just in case something happens at Caruso's. I'm a born again christian and I accepted christ into my heart when I was 4 but I had no idea what it meant. I barely went to church from around the 2nd grade till the 8th grade and not at all for about 2 years..So I was a "christian" but I wasnt living as one for most of my childhood..i've been attending church almost every sunday since the 8th grade but at first i didnt want much to do with it because i saw christians as zombies and i didnt want anything to do with religion. My sophmore year i was taught from a youth pastor that christianity should be a relationship with god and not a relgion..so i renewed my faith when I was 15 and i've been struggeling with sin that i got use to before then since..but i'm always getting better...I was born with hydrocephalus which means water on the brain but they did not find it until i was over a year old and they put a shunt in me when I was 16 months old. It starts in my head and goes down into my stomach so the extra fluids in my brain can drain. Usually it has to be replaced every few years but i have had mine for over 20 years and it has not needed to be replaced yet. Although it could have been worse if they wouldnt have found my hyfrocephalus when they did i still have complications from my hydrocephalus from my first year..my muscles took longer to develop..i couldnt speak until i was 4 and i was potty trained till i was almost 6. even after i learned how to speak because they taught me so fast it messed up my speech. Although my speech is alot better then me it is still hard to understand me sometimes. Because of all of this I was picked on alot at school mostly during elementry school. There are a couple of things done to me in elementry school that is hard to forget so i take alot of things personally. That plus not having many friends at all and sometimes no friends and everything that was happening at home made me a really screwed up little kid and i didnt notice this until high school. At this point all the anger that i held in for so long exploded mostly in my friend's face. I am very thankful he is still my friend now after that year. I still have problems with holding my anger back until my temper starts up but I'm always getting better with that.Starting from my senior year till now i have alot more role models and alot more friends then i ever had before and it sucks this didnt happen earlier.. but everything that happened to me happened for a reason and that is to make me stronger and now i get through things a whole lot easier than everybody else because i can take it.
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My Interests

internet..jesus....and music..

I'd like to meet:

not looking to meet anyone online. But if you are interesting and you wanna talk go ahead and at some point i'll add you onto my friend's list.

Music:

First of all..alot of metal..and all kinds..alot of different kinds of rock as well..gothrockish bands and emoish bands like good charlotte..but only there first couple cd's...and also panic at the disco...taking back sunday..fall out boy and bands like that..i listen to some rap too but not to much..robert got me into that but i'm not into a bunch of the new rap..or most of the new rap..mostly i like stuff like dr.dre and snoop..busta'rhymes..dmx..

Movies:

preety much movies with old snl members in it..and comic based movies..eighties cult movies and horror flicks..

Television:

Stuff on adult swim..the reality shows on mtv and vh1..and invader zim..which isnt on the air but i have it on dvd.

Books:

religious books for the most part..i don't really read much unless it's gonna teach me something.

Heroes:

alot.

My Blog

there is no better feeling than having your heart and trust ripped out

The worst feeling in the world for me is betrayal. I had major problems up to my senior year of high school making friends (and most of this was in elementry school where some years i just didnt have ...
Posted by tim(notw) on Thu, 17 Apr 2008 09:27:00 PST

Freedom...

i live in a free country...freedom of religion..freedom of speech..and so on. But freedom does not mean you can do whatever you want..freedom is not burning the american flag..that shows disrespect to...
Posted by tim(notw) on Mon, 14 Apr 2008 11:40:00 PST

what i learned from doing prize cabnit for two years...

I’ll start with some work skills(one i noticed at a interview yesterday)... The ability to add and subtract in my head and quickly-Although i taught myself how to do it fast with a calculator or...
Posted by tim(notw) on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 03:33:00 PST

New Beginnings

4 months ago i was unhappy with alot of things in my life..the places i was working because one job peter piper was working me to hard and having me do lobby,dishes,and prize cabnit at the same time.....
Posted by tim(notw) on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 03:58:00 PST

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Posted by tim(notw) on Tue, 04 Dec 2007 01:59:00 PST

Korn "falling away from me"

I didnt put it for the band but for the meaning of the video...
Posted by tim(notw) on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 02:01:00 PST

thank you family and friends...

for supporting me in everything i do even if it's not what others think i  should do you my family and true friends still support me because you understand the way i dress and you know i have a p...
Posted by tim(notw) on Wed, 19 Sep 2007 01:52:00 PST

i love when bad things happen to me.

I didnt when i was in high school but i didnt get the point back then..sometimes i'm a jerk and i dont hear what god wants to tell me so he has to hurt me to get me to listen..so then i figure out wha...
Posted by tim(notw) on Tue, 17 Jul 2007 04:12:00 PST

My Family.

I was going to go into detail in this blog but for the privacy of everybody i decided not to do it...and this does not apply to all my family i was mainly thinking of my dad's side when i wrote this a...
Posted by tim(notw) on Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:23:00 PST

Can someone till my Emo Kid to go back into the closet where he belongs?......

I hate it when this happens...preety much my demons are back...they come whenever i'm weak..they till me i'm not good enough for anybody...which i know is untrue but i still think it and i'm to sad to...
Posted by tim(notw) on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 04:38:00 PST