I think somewhere along the line I forgot who I was. I think I lost track of important things like the stuff that USED to make me happy. Over the past year I was trying to get over the fact that I was the victim of things and my story seemed to take over every conversation that my voice was heard in. It started to get really old... Even to me. I made a trip out up North and got to spend some time with a hot friend of mine I wont mention any names but lets just say she resides around San Jose and she is from Germany (HAHA you know who you are) ANYWAY long story longer, we got into talking and she just made me come out and say things and then like a spark of a pothead's lighter I started coming into a realization. I loved and lost, given and totally taken and most of all made drastic changes that made me think that I am actually adventuring at the moment. I gave up things like Bad Boy Body Graphics the old shop I used to work for and gone ronin from my teacher, which left a sour taste in his mouth (which is still something I struggle with daily) I've gone weeks without seeing my son which has been difficult as well. I lost clientele that I can no longer get a hold of anymore.and like a billion other things. I carried this with me to where I am now in Lake Elsinore California and it wasnt until I had a conversation with a new friend I met at Skin Deep Tattoo that I realized I just really didnt like myself and people could tell. So up until recently I have been a bit more outspoken with my kids mom and she had admitted a billion things that I guess I cant really say but it made me feel ten times better about myself and MY situation... Poor girl. Which for some reason got my Chi right and here I go. I cant really complain my shit is so petty compared to other people and So-Cal people are full of drama is what I have learned. That I almost don't care anymore I still have custody of my kid, I still have my career, my dog what more do I really want that isn't actually happening or in the makes? The truth is I think I have found a little bit more in myself. I am physically outgrowing another shell and starting anew. There is a different Carlos before you now... That old Carlos finished last or got his ass kicked or something but he isn't around anymore. I have to thank you all that read my last "about me" and want you to know I have come a long way since. Thank you for looking again. And to those that are or have gotten to know me recently thank you too. What is herein are moments in life for me and a bit of my craft portfolio and art with hopefully more to come. Thanks again.;
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