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About Me

Now where oh where do I start, I have tried so many times to get this out but always it ended up with to many pages...to may words. Lets start w/ the positves of now: I am a bride of Christ, a daughter of the most High God, and a single mom. But let me state that I didn't always know or believe these Characteristics of me were positives in my life.My story begins w/ I grew up in the average broken home. Though I love my family and they love me I have somewhat been the black sheep. Not the type of black sheep that is troublesome to thier family (though maybe I don't know it and I am). I am just that black sheep that never truly fit into the groove. These feelings of ackwardness lead me to make many attempts to fit into a box not meant for me which of course lead me to choices that would lead me to be a smoker (both legal and illegal), to be sexually active, and just an all around girl of the world. My life style would lead me to leaving college and my one opportunity to make an early success in my dream/desire to be a high school art teacher. Several times God reached out but my faith was based on a works based faith. I thought "God I have been being good, seeking after you, so what have I earned". But God knew the way of my heart was not in His hands and I unraveled as soon as I felt He disappointed me. By 2004 I had made so many bad choices and become such a numb skull I ended up pregnant in a relationship I didn't want to be in. In 2005 I became a single mom after my attempts, to make a fallen relationship work, had failed. Disappointed in myself and challenged by a difficult infant (just trust me it was more then an average infant gives) I grew depressed and my anxieties started to grow, though I was able to still keep them well hidden. In October 2006 my roommate convinced me to step foot in a church for her sake of craving to go to church. Once again God started to tug, this time I was captured, He began to remind me I was not destroyed, just a bit damaged, He began to love me softly and yet briskly. He pulled me through some tough times dealing w/ financial struggles, to personal struggles, and my struggle with accepting motherhood as a positive aspect to my life. He is the one that makes me feel loved when I feel alone and wiery of the world around me. Through the acceptance of my sins as I learned of the law, and through my faith in knowing the sacfrice God gave in Jesus Christ in true, then by repentance of my sins that took part in His sacrifice I was truly saved. Now by giving Him control of the wheel He is able to truly work in me. God cleaned away the filth of my past, and forgaven me for murdering His son. Then He just keeps on loving me even though I daily stumble to reach His feet.Well for now this will do, I am glad I got to meet you and may you get a moment to enjoy God's creation today!
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Wow, I would like to meet Leonardo Di Vinci. Not because of the Di Vinci code, my appreciation for Leonardo Di Vinci goes back to child hood. He was a brilliant man who mastered everything he put his mind to. From being a scientist who disected the human body to understand it better, to an artist who drew many inventions that would not be invented for hundreds of years to come and an intellectual who wrote backwards.I would also like to meet Jewel. After reading her book "Dawn to Dusk", at least I think that is the title people are always stealing it from me, I would love to sit and enjoy a cup of coffee with her.And how about the man of my dreams(hehehe), that would be cool, but all in its own time.

My Blog

Blogga blogga blogga

Typed this a few days ago, and since it covers a nut shell of my last few days I am posting it. I post this not for feed back, but for the fact of being transparent. For many of you who have no idea I...
Posted by on Thu, 16 Jul 2009 15:41:00 GMT

Fridays sunny contrmplations

So while sitting in the sun enjoying my double shot of vanilla latte...Mmmm...my mind wondered and pondered upon this thought:As Children of God we have one major objective which is to run hard and lo...
Posted by on Fri, 24 Apr 2009 11:40:00 GMT

I am ThankFul for each and everyone of you!

I wanted to let all of those that I know and love to know that I am Thankful that God has placed you in my life. For some of you the reasons why God wanted us to know each other has already been revea...
Posted by on Thu, 27 Nov 2008 18:25:00 GMT

The what I want challenge...this is for all singles of all ages

Looking back my youth pastor years ago told us that we should create a list of all the things we want in our future desired mate. I remember back then there were people that new exactly what they want...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Nov 2008 02:06:00 GMT

’Questionaire challenge’ take one...

So Many people out there you are new to me and that will make this one of the oddest challenges I have taken on, and other it will make me see how much damage I did to my memory in my past years of fu...
Posted by on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 22:24:00 GMT

Sychronized Swimming kicks your Moms pattoty

Any of you who know me well know I did sychronized swimming for many years. Check out the video's for the Russian team and duet this kicks serious business!!!! http://www.nbcolympics.com/video/player....
Posted by on Fri, 22 Aug 2008 22:48:00 GMT

True Love wants to move in

Good Day everyone I know and don't know! I have some things to say and to some they may be offensive, and to others they may hit home and you may understand. God has been revealing to me lately that ...
Posted by on Sun, 25 May 2008 13:45:00 GMT

Love Part 2 revised

I understand the insecurities of love. In fact I have not dated in over...well do you count from your last break up or last dating cycle that turned into a relationship? 3 years since break up 4 1/2 s...
Posted by on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 21:01:00 GMT

Love Part 1

Okay so do to the complexity of love as a form of emotion, communication, desire and so much more I have wanted to cover a blog on this for a while. Now it is time to stop using my "I am to busy" excu...
Posted by on Sat, 22 Mar 2008 21:34:00 GMT

Becoming the Better part of Me

So this is my personal update newsletter to everyone rather than explaining it to people individually. I want to let everyone know that last weekend I made the personal decision to stop drinking. As I...
Posted by on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 20:30:00 GMT