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I was born Tessa Ann Vestweber May 29th 1985 in Perry, IA. I had a Wiccaning done at birth. It’s kind of like being baptized but this is an act of nature. I believe in Wicca still to this day. I’m a bit on the Goth side, have been for ten years now. I've also Sword fought and spared for nine years now. I love all sorts of music but mainly rock, industrial metal and techno. I write on the side with plans to publish my work just as my Aunt Jennifer has done. I also draw and enjoy html work in my free time.
My life has been anything but easy. I had parents fought even before I was even thought of. There was family violence within the home for the first three years of my life. My father dealt drugs out of our home and was abusive to my mother. When I was three my mom had her last argument with him. He wasn’t going take her for medical attention after lingering her jaw. Had there not been a knock at the back door mom never would have made it out the front door and to the safety of the school near by. I happen to have been at the sitters during that time.
Mom and I lived on our own after that with limited visitations with my father. He was determined to stay clean and drug free. I remember going to visit him in Des Moines a few times and often being a bit bored at his NA and AA meetings. I know now that they have helped him a great deal. At the same time not only was I dealing with split parents but mom had begun seeing anther guy. He too had an abusive sense about him. He only yelled at my mother but was a bit more severe with my discipline. He began abusing myself and anther child. This occurred about the time I turned five and was just starting school. My mother never would have believed it was going on had she not walked in on him being cruel to me one eve after she had returned home from her waitress job. She put her foot down and it never occurred again. I love her and she will always be my protector. I however still have a fear of water to this day. Years down the road when I turned ten he and I would have a heart felted talk and I accepted his apology and forgave him.
My mother and I only ended up living in Perry tell I turned eight. A job had been offered to that boyfriend. Thus we packed up and left for Correctionville, IA. We often tried our best to attend Thanksgiving and Christmas with my mother’s side of the family. Mom and I always had a funny way of arriving late and jokes were often made when we were on time. I remember one Holiday when I had complained just like every kid does. I said something about not having enough gifts. Well, a year later low and behold my aunt Sue didn’t forget. She intended on teaching me a lesion and to this day I’m grateful for it. She rapped a Barbie carrying case for skipper dolls. Inside I saw that each and every accessory had been rapped. I sat before the family un-rapping each and every one.
In the spring of 1995 mom and I left the boyfriend as he left her for anther women. We relocated to a small town called Cherokee, IA. I picked up my first deck of Tarot cards at age ten. From then on I have kept my studies up. When I say studies I mean on the topics of:
Magic, dreams, Tarot, elements, candle magic, magic symbols, meditation, astrology and past lives.
I also have explored other walks of life not just Wicca. Some of the other religions I've studied are: Buddhism, Satanism, Paganism, Atheism, Earth astrology, Christianity; and being a Vampire.
((I don't agree with everything the bible says. Yes, being a vampire is a real belief some have and others say it’s just a life style.))
I spent twelve years living there. I attended school there from third grade tell fifth rolled around. At about this time the school was informing students how drugs were bad. I wasn’t happy with my mom always gone at work and the new boyfriend she had. I knew that they both did one of the less harmful drugs but still felt that maybe things might change for the better if I told. Mom went to court; Social services took me into foster care for about a week, than mom got me back. It was her first offence but still she was upset with me. She had every right to be because I broke our trust.
With that she agreed to let my father take custody of me, thinking maybe I needed some structure in my life. It wasn’t long before I wanted to come home to her arms. During my time there I had very little freedoms. He had me cleaning three rooms in the house a week, feeding/walking and watering the dog everyday, and helping a step mother who despised me being there. I also had to attend church once a week and summer bible camp too.
I will admit his third wife and I had our good days and our bad ones. They both fought over my discipline and with each other verbally. This didn’t stop her from treating me unfairly as I was now part of the wedge between the two of them. One day in sixth grade I went to a friend’s house as I thought dad wouldn’t be off work before I got home. I was wrong… As I’m walking up the driveway; dad rides up on his Harley Davidson. He was extremely upset with me. I was pulled by my hair, down the basement steps to my room. He proceeded to yell, poke at the center of my chest for several minutes. Minutes I somehow managed to let go through one ear and out the other. This was due to my past as a child. He beat my rear with his belt that day. I was the age of thirteen and for once his current wife agreed I was too old for that. She looked at the red marks to see that I was okay; she was a nurse.
I only lived with my father, wife number three, and my two youngest half siblings from the end of fifth grade tell just before the beginning of seventh. I then refused to return to my fathers the end of that summer. It wasn’t long before the third misses lied, took the kids and left my father. I have not seen my two youngest half siblings for ten years now and my father has not been allowed to visit them. I intend on finding them again someday.
I again returned back to the freedoms my mom had to offer and it in turn rekindled our bond of trust. Over the years I held my ground and kept my beliefs. I was often viewed as an outcast for such things as; my Goth fashion sense, strange outlook on life/death, and my Wiccan upbringing. Mom even stood up to a teacher one year when it came to my Tarot use. I kept my head up and didn’t let it discourage me. It soon paid off as I ended up being asked to read Tarot cards at two high school dances for fund raisers.
At age 18 my aunt Sue gave me The Book of Shadows my Grandfather had crafted before my birth and who had also put my Wiccaning within. My Grandfather and my Grandmother created the Coven of the Singing Tree. The Book is a 12lb leather book. It has a star that has a single point up on the front and back. The star also has a circle around it. The book opens from right to left and when turned over dose the same. The book was made that way so that the High Priest and the High Priestess could each have there own side.
The book is also unique in the sense that it has a key for its binding. This allows the caster to remove pages. My grandfather died when I was ten so he has been my main reason for holding on to a family religion. My grandmother recently passed last summer. When asked what I wanted from a walk through of her home, her hand crafted scrying crystal necklace was my reply and I received it. I intend on passing the book and necklace down to share for years to come.
(The book is in my photos on this profile)
I finished high school with a bit of difficulty but still the school thought I needed to attend collage. Being a single parent mom could not afford it so the high school enrolled me in a fifth year program in Council Bluffs, IA. By the time Thanksgiving rolled around I wanted to return home. The major was not my calling. So many things were not right for me back then. No car, no photo ID to drive, and I found myself unable to find work. I even had started doing dollar Tarot readings around the dorms so that I could do my wash each week.
When I returned home again to small town Cherokee, it was also no aid in my quest for a job. I spent the next two years unemployed and living under my mother’s roof. Suddenly things began to change. Grandma Nancy passed away. I made up my mind to move back to Perry, IA. My Aunt Sue and her husband needed my assistance to try and keep the new home Nancy had built in the last few years of her life. The moment I got there I quickly got cracking on those applications. I held the fast food job for a total of two months. Then we found out that it was just best to let the home foreclose. Low and behold my friends in Omaha NE happen to be looking for a new roommate. I took them up on there offer but all things come to an unexpected end. They kicked me out after ten months of me living with them. I had no choice but to move in with Kelly and his father and I’m very grateful. I love Kelly completely and couldn't ask for a better soul mate or friend. Omaha is now where I live and attend Collage at ITT Tech.
I guess you can say everything happens for a reason. I'm a well rounded young lady and I enjoy making new friends. I'm really a kind person once you get to know the real me. Always keep a positive outlook on life as it’s important to be who you are!
Last updated: September 28th 2008
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