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i grew up i a family of 12 on the southside of san antonio. forever grateful for all my losses, mistakes and once used to be,regrets.now, who am i? all things that progress. with open minds come open hearts. love and admiration for all that is quantum physics. why? why, indeed. if one could stand the burden, better yet, who? who could possibly be accountable to have founded this great thing we call "earth". why did they allow it to be so fucked up and so beautiful all at the same time. who and why is there such talent in these creatures that dwell on/in it? and yet they are the very source of their own destruction? no, i am not a tree hugger, a politician or even someone with an opinion. i am merely a spec in this great universe. i choose to look in small places for the greater part of my journey to this short life i have here.hopefully in sharing what i find, might give someone else greater pleasure to know they too have the choice of peace and love. perspective, intent, pain and pleasure are all more powerful when you observe them first and then react. know your next step before you give of yourself even if it is to do nothing at all.all i know is that those around me draw me closer to peace. whether it be, anti-procreation advocates, philosophers, rock stars, millionaires, or "sinners", we all want the same thing, "to love and be loved" and there is no stopping the desire. the power of the "law of attraction" to be a curious phenomenon with everyone i know. however "passion" drives this law. i am fascinated how others can be so blind not to see what they may obsess over day in and day out and how they draw it closer to themselves and still they deny it!i am too often accused of being "out of the box" when quite frankly that is where i want to be. "orbiting the giant hair ball" (book written by gordon mackenzie) i am grateful to my mentors, my sound boards and my beautiful son. all of whom have shown me the errors of my ways and have put me on the track and lifestyle i am fulfilled with today. who am i? a simple girl with the desire to have a peaceful life.