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About Me

My name is Ashley. I'll be 21 soon. I'm funny. I'm sarcastic. I talk a lot. I make fun of things a lot. I get mad easily, but I think before I act. With the ripe age of 20, came maturity. I'm the nicest person in the world believe it or not until I need to be mean. I hate where I live, but I try to make the best of it. I like to be alone & I love taking walks. I love to read & write. I dream big, but lack motivation. I can remember pointless days & moments, but not what happened this morning. Once people exit out of my life, my brain blocks those memories out. I'm hateful, but I try giving people a chance. I'll do anything for my sisters. I like makeup & fashion, but I never have the chance to dress up. I hate my job with a burning passion, but am thankful I have it. I can be a perfectionist & I do not take criticism well sometimes. I have to talk myself through a lot of things sometimes. I'll do a lot of things off of impulse. I love the city, beach, & mountains. If only New York City was surrounded by mountains instead of crummy New Jersey & smog. I plot things all the time but never follow through. I'm usually always broke. Water is the best thing in the world to drink along with Crystal Light Pink Lemonade [ or Walmart's brand because I'm poor ] I could live off of PB&J [ with Strawberry Jelly ] & watermelon & be perfectly happy. I'd choose fruit over junk food any day & not because I'm a health freak. I love animals & hate animal cruelty or when I see homeless animals. I like my hair when I actually take care of it. I like meeting new people, but I don't trust anybody. & internet friends aren't always bad. I hate creepers & I'm not afraid to be an out right bitch when you're being a creeper towards me. I don't like to be touched or hugged, but if you hug me [ & I don't dislike you ] I'll hug you back & not mind. I'm not the best person for comforting anyone & crying makes me uncomfortable. You'll know I'm uncomfortable if I start messing with my phone or fingernails. I turn down pretty much everyone that asks me out just because no & a bitchy remark is the first thing that comes to mind. Sometimes I regret it later. Sometimes I'm just like whatever. Being disowned by the two most important people in my life has taught me so many things & made me such a better, stronger person. I'm not as dumb as everyone thinks. I just act like it. I spend most of my time in my own little world & half the things I say don't make sense. & that's pretty much it. Anything else? Ask.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Fun people who know how to party. & also people who aren't gonna use me or act like an ass towards me. As far as a dude goes, someone who will take things slow with me, who won't judge me based on what he's heard, & not take advantage of me when let's say I'm drunk.

My Blog

Just a Thought....

This is just a thought don't take it personal. It's my opinion & it's towards no one in particular.All around me, I see young people getting married. People younger than me & I'm 20 for goodness sake!...
Posted by on Mon, 14 Sep 2009 23:13:00 GMT

Taming the Beast.

I've come a long way, a very long way from what I used to be. I've come a long way with my temper, & for the most part I've learned to control it. & trust me it's not as easy as you think. Typing thi...
Posted by on Tue, 18 Aug 2009 18:04:00 GMT

Love.

Love is merely an obsession, a giant black hole that sucks you in & traps you within it's prisons. The world around you becomes unclear, you take people around you for granted, but overlook your lover...
Posted by on Sun, 12 Jul 2009 10:19:00 GMT

One Day I'll Be Okay.

I trudge these darkened streetsSearching for the lightSearching my happinessWhat could have been, what might.But they told me I was hatefulThat my heart was cold & blackMy mind, my thoughts are racing...
Posted by on Mon, 18 May 2009 19:46:00 GMT

Three Blogs in One Day!

So today my baby BROTHER [ yes it's a boy this time ] was born today at 9:14 am. He is 8 lbs & 2 oz & 20 1/2 inches long [ just like me! ] His name is Payton Edward & I am ecstatic that he's here, eve...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 17:58:00 GMT

I'm the loner, remember?

I was never meant to care.Only roam through out this life.Down dark & dreary lanes,I hide myself from your world.Please don't whisper my nameNor reach out & grab meI will run away from you.I will disa...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 11:56:00 GMT

Tick Tock Tick Tock.

I'm not really sure what kind of entry this will be. I guess we'll find it.The friend loss has struck again for me. I've managed to lose yet another one, one a bit back I could never see losing. & now...
Posted by on Wed, 06 May 2009 23:05:00 GMT

Forget Yesterday.

Blood boiling, Blood curdlingSkin crawling & itchingYour voice, Your face,Everything about youI hate.My heart pumps pissFor your soul.Oh how I yearn to wrap my fingersAround your scrawny neck.& squeez...
Posted by on Sat, 04 Apr 2009 15:10:00 GMT

Chewed Up Pieces.

You've eaten my soul, swallowed it whole, then spit it up. It was too much for you. Iwas too much for you. So now all that's left are the chewed up piecesof my heart, my soul left on the ground, waiti...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Mar 2009 14:52:00 GMT

It Doesn't Hurt.

Like deadly poison,It falls from your lips.It hangs in the air,Dances around my ears.It's deadly for meOr should be anyways.No death, no pain,No wounds, I'm okay.It's addictive andYou can't stopIt's y...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Mar 2009 14:41:00 GMT