patrick

Changed my profile again. Though the last one suffices, some minute details are missing. Patrick Meneses...as usual. I take pride when someone asks me how am I related to Vergel Meneses =), saying that he's my tito! Ha-ha, not true actually. I am complicated, and all the words related to that. I am quiet, for I don't speak of empty words just to fill the void of silence, for in that I find peace. I am vain, for I am preparing myself. I am a happy person, laughing at the simplest, corniest of jokes, punch lines. I find myself day-dreaming of who knows what, just staying in one place as if meditating when my mind is empty all along. But then my mind is always full! Thinking of things and stuffs which I have no idea what to do with them, things that doesnt concern me at all! Dont know why Im doing it in the first place. I appreciate everything that comes my way. I know my limitations but somehow I hate to admit them for there is nowhere else to go once I reach them and I don't want to stop there especially when my abilities are concerned. Ambitious lately, making all these plans as if it's one big event, which for me is. Since I am deprived of exposure which could have changed my life! Ha-ha. The reason? The environment I live in, our subdivision to be exact. I just can't stand living with these bum neighbors which I have known all my life yet strangers to me. Like I'm having some kind of acute stunted growth of self esteem if there is such. I hate where I am now, which is not my fault, not me to blame. I could have been everything you're not, but somehow, it's everything I'm not (sigh). I wanted to believe in reincarnation and be born in a better place. If only I have the resources, not necessarily money, to create the opportunity to come out of this shell that held me inside for so long. I am unique, I am me, nobody else, where a bad mouth leaves a bitter after taste, due to my poorly evolved mouth for curses and such. I still respect what people are despite the imperfections, for which I also possess. I admire true beauty, inside and out. I LOVE LIFE, I can't ask for anything more. I actually don't care sometimes to what people do to themselves but be obliged to pity them. I am logical, what I don't see and feel does not exist in my realm of consciousness. I live on truth, deception leaves a deep mark of disrespect, and respect will never be regained in some cases. Hates impostors. Ask me for truth, I'll give it. I just don't give my trust to anybody. I know sincerity when I see it. In the end, either I am the most complicated person you'll ever meet or just one of the crowd, which ever you want me to be. You choose. =) (more to say but space is limited)