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One thing I like to do is to look up at the stars at night. They remind me of how many times I have been blessed. Nobody really seems to pay attention to the significance of their blessings. Although they happen time and time again, they are often unseen like stars because of bright city lights. Sometimes I wonder if I was a star would people notice me? Would I be seen as the beautiful individual creation that I am? Or would I be portrayed as the rest?
Also when I look up at the stars I think of the loved ones in my life. How each and every one stands out in their own special way. I also think of what I would do without the stars of my life? One star that is most important to me is he North Star which I compare to my Savior because whenever I am off track he will always bring me back home. ___________________________________________________________ May 28, 2009
Today I have started sumwhat of a new journey....I have currently decided to ride this thang called life alone for a while. I have realized some things about myself that have hendered my relationship as far as the growth of it. Don't get me wrong....I love my boo...but I love him so much that I lost sight of myself, and what I stand for. I just wana make sure that if I go into a relationship....I go into it the right way. This decision that I have made does not mean that I am back on th market or anything like that....I just need to live a little while im young and able to do it because my life isn't that serious yet. So now I am jus lookin for good friends who know how to have a good time....nothing more and maybe less.I Love You Jay.... ___________________________________________________________ February 24, 2009
Today I feel free. Love can make you feel that way. Its crazy cuz i thought i would never feel this way again...but sum how and some way i do and even better...He cares for me as i do him...he's there for me ,and me for him to no end. Not only is he my baby, but also my new best friend...not only am i his lady, but im his companion whom he trusts and befriends. I've never met someone so commited, and who is so wit it....and by that i mean with me....he has cried for me, with me, as i did for him....he has not lied to me, his honesty lies inside of me, and forever able to rely in him. He is so sweet, with beauty past skin deep, the relief he gives is so sweet. Not having to worry about whos love will have blurred me, hurt me, discouraged me, and determined me and my happiness. His love allows me to be me and freely...loving me is what he does to me...comforts me, and did i mention i love how he loves me. He didn't love my thighs before he loved my eyes, and he didn't love my eyes before he knew what was inside. Thank you for waiting so patiently for me to get rid of my anxiety of the love that i knew that you could give to me but was scared because i was hurt from the past things thinking i had nothing left of me. You rescued me from a hard time and babe for that ur a star in my mind....no matter what no one else think ur my boo...ur fine...mine...and ill love u till the end of time.. his name: Justin Jones ___________________________________________________________ NOVEMBER 18, 2008
Right now I'm at a point in my life where im ready to change. I know people probrably thinkin ohhh the 19 is getting to her but it really aint. Im just tired of living like im never going to get older. Im ready to make a change in the people I hang around in my life first off. I can't hang around people who aren't about what im about and expect to get anywhere. U either wit it or ima have to quit it....I know GOD is putting me through a test sumthin tough right now....My answer is to desert everyone...run away...but folks that aint never the answer. God ain't quittin on me and im not quittin on him....I guess im fed up wit everybody thinkin they need to be a statistic of Oakland, California, or whereva u from. Life is so much bigger than where I live, the clothes on my back. Life aint a one man show...and im not the star either. Reality is finally hitttin me. I don't feel i was created just to impress, to chill, to hang, to get to know, to hate, to relate, to celebrate, create fads, images, or to be america's idol. if i was....then i find my life has no purpose. But let me quit talkin and get to the point. Im not deleting my myspace but im clearing it....gettin rid of the things on it that i don't need. If anyone really wants to contact me i have an .. megiboe38 I also have email for those who already know it....and if you don't then ask somebody. ___________________________________________________________