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About Me

My name is Jesus Zapata, but most know me as Lucian Immorti Flammir. I am me, not a whole lot to tell. Im a proud father of an excessively smart and supremely growing little boy. I am trying to do better in my life but there is so much standing in my way, but im doing my best to keep pushing for my son. Time will tell where i end up, but for now i am still just me. Anyone care to know more, than you know what to do.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone who can save me, if that person even exists.

My Blog

this may be the fever talking but i made a little poem

if i was a fat kid and you were a cake,id wait by the oven and watch you bake.Once you were finished id pull you out, Take in your aroma, drooling, and with excitement id shout.Then id top you with ic...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Nov 2009 18:56:00 GMT

Would it be better?

Or would it be just the same. If i disappeared, if no one ever had to hear from me again, worry about me again, see me again. Im so little involved with anyone anymore that their lives would go unalte...
Posted by on Mon, 24 Aug 2009 02:37:00 GMT

Just gotta say

Its easier to pretend to not be dying when the thing killing you isnt being rubbed in ur face. u know this is here for u, and u know what it is about.
Posted by on Sun, 26 Jul 2009 20:49:00 GMT

hurt

so many lies ive been told and so many half truths told about me.she wonders why i feel she doesnt care about me at all. again im hurting and i be honest and i get yelled at. she tells me she is tired...
Posted by on Sun, 26 Jul 2009 09:54:00 GMT

do i mean anything to her?

Its so hard to believe she really ever cared about me anymore, she sees im hurting and instead of taking that into consideration, like i did when she hurt, she just gets mad and avoids me. I truly won...
Posted by on Fri, 24 Jul 2009 09:23:00 GMT

Untold rage, my newest poem

Untold Rage Here I lie just holding it in, Words unkind of which I shant begin. A fool be I to trust this fiend, Promises made friendly, but lies in the end. A hand, hath I, which so long I went for...
Posted by on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 09:52:00 GMT

The Will of Blood

The Will of BloodAs I sit in this dark and lonely voidI must remember that I am just a mere boy.Gathering an army to fight my self within,But afraid to let any of my forces in.Now i sit and stare...
Posted by on Tue, 02 May 2006 13:50:00 GMT

Tainted Tears Of Love Untrue

Tainted Tears And Angel LostTainted Tears of Love untrue, Entwined fates of those undue, Pain eternal of hearts lost, A heart alone, the ending cost. Tears be blood of a lonely soul, A soul apart with...
Posted by on Tue, 07 Mar 2006 10:11:00 GMT

Vanish

VanishIf I were to disappear today, would you notice?Never hear me again, would you care?Would you long for the one you always miss? Would you even notice I wasnt there?I am in the shadows of which y...
Posted by on Thu, 26 May 2005 07:06:00 GMT

I Sit Alone

I Sit AloneI sit alone behind my bars,I sit in shame to hide my scars.I sit alone and hide my face.I sit and yearn for your blood to taste.I sit unseen and watch you all.I sit ashamed and again i fall...
Posted by on Sat, 23 Apr 2005 16:56:00 GMT