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Chubz

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About Me

Im and introvert and deep thinker, so I never initiate anything and always look pissed, so Don't take it personally.I got married when i was 19 and even though people told me I would regret it, I never have once. I don't understand why people think its necessary to get with as many people as possible before committing to someone. I think those people are missing out. not only do I have a life with my best friend but I have a beautiful daughter created from a little piece of each of us. Looking at her and thinking to myself "I made that" is one of the craziest things I have ever tried to wrap my mind around, and it continues to amaze me.People I have allowed into my life are important to me but I wouldn't say they are "my life" or that they are whats most important to me. What is most important to me is loving my creator and changing my life for the better, no matter how hard it can be at times.I spend too many years trying to find my happiness in everything but God and it only left me empty and broken.My biggest regret is that the influence I make in my sister life now, is not enough to replace the one I left behind. My biggest fear is that she will follow in my footsteps.
Sometimes i think i love God more than anyone else does.
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My Blog

hardships- keeping the trust

Sometimes its really freaking hard to trust God. Its not that i doubt him... well i guess that can't be completely true or else i wouldn't have this problem. Okay, let me rephrase that. Its not like ...
Posted by on Tue, 13 May 2008 09:41:00 GMT

far from home

Spiderweb got me up tight  holding me down  with the weight of the world. Cant let go  to the way things are to the way things were.   and no i haven't gotten far and no i haven't...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 07:43:00 GMT

learning how to lose

Goodbye little oneyour time here was shortbut will never be forgottenbecause you taught me how to love and hopeand also how to loseBecause at one time you were part of meand though you have passedYou ...
Posted by on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 08:52:00 GMT

hello

Alright. I have found out now that meeting new people is one thing, but when it comes to actually hanging out with new people......is a totally different story. Recently i have been trying to hang o...
Posted by on Wed, 30 May 2007 17:37:00 GMT

best weekend ever

I am still smiling ear to ear because i had the most amazing weekend with the most amazing man ever. i have never met anyone who makes me feel the way he makes me feel. I am truely the luckiest girl ...
Posted by on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 21:21:00 GMT

he is beautiful

God is always surprizing me. and today all i can do is smile because i know the most amazing man alive. Sometimes im not even sure he is real. i miss him :(
Posted by on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 09:30:00 GMT

little girl

little girl with blackened eyeshave you forgotten how to cry?you just walk around starring blanklytheres no where left to hidelittle girl with blown out soleswhy are you always on the run?did you lose...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:15:00 GMT

old song i found....not quite completed

these words rage inside of meyet i cant seem to set them freei've tried to so hard to leave it behindbut i'm left wounded every timeo whats the point of holding onwhat doesn't kill you only makes you ...
Posted by on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 17:15:00 GMT

God only knows

I can't stand this feeling anymore. I want to know that someone cares about me and loves me for WHO i am, not what i am on the outside. To be honest and not to sound vain, but sometimes i wish i was...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 13:10:00 GMT

Sometimes...

i think back to some of the things that i have done in my life and it makes me cringe. I just want to sit in the bath tub for hours to try and wash away all the memories and start over. i just want ...
Posted by on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 00:38:00 GMT