Here i go again, slipping further away. i work 7 days a week to try and occupy my mind from its horrific self. I don't sleep much and haven't for years. My past and my dreams haunt my every day. scared to go to sleep i drink myself to a stupor or pass out from other things. i turn more into the evil shadow of my father with each passing day and i hate myself for it. God hasn't graced me with the peace of death but has many a time mocked me by hurting my friends and letting me survive.......7 car accidents and a suicide attempt and im still here......why? life is full of shit and in the end you can't rely on anyone and that is the sad thing. there are some people that make your life easier and ease the grind.
im 17 years of age and you people that have read this far probably think what an emo fag blah blah but you don't know pain until you have walked a mile in my shoes. Im young in body but in soul i've aged and become morbid...................
.... DIE ZUKUNFT!....
i was born in Germany Nordrhein Westfalen, Rhothenuffeln and came here in 1998 Phillip still love you like my own
Thank You for being there melly, you mean more to me than you know=)
A loving Father with a generous heart. Clive Haragan you will be missed. Already the world seems a less bright place. (1948-2007)
